Black Tangled Heart

Forget me not ~ the sequel

2008-12-26T05:49:27Z

Title : Forget me not ~ the sequel
Pairing: RyoDa
Warning! : this is the sequel to Forget me not. so if you happen to like that story the way it was, DO NOT READ THIS! seriously, this is just for those who are not happy with the ending. I myself like it without this sequel LOL ^_^

Ueda clapped his hands together and closed his eyes, inhaling deeply as he concentrated to pray. And after a few second, he opened his eyes and forced himself to smile.

“Merry Christmas Ryo.”

It was almost two weeks after the accident that took Ryo’s life away and Ueda seemed had lost his life too.

He returned to his car and noticed that he had accidently left his cellphone on the passenger seat. He reached out for it and saw on the screen that he had 8 miscalls. All of them are from Kamenashi. He sighed, knowing perfectly that he was late and that would probably be the reason as to why his band mate desperately called him.

He didn’t bother to call Kame back, and just drove his car away from the cemetery. He knew Kame would scold him badly and the manager would probably throw tantrums at him, but he couldn’t care less. As far as he knew he didn’t even care if Johhny fired him. What’s the point of making a living when you had lost your reason to live?

Ueda stopped his car as the traffic light in turned red. He looked around the street and saw how glittery the city was that night. Tonight was Christmas eve and the entire city was celebrating it. He also noticed how happy people around him was, chatting and laughing with their friends and loved ones. Envy, that would be the word to describe what he felt right now. He had spent years, trying to hide his feeling towards Ryo. Afraid of what the latter would think if he knew that Ueda had secretly loved him. Mockery and rejection would be the first thing he received from Ryo, or so he had thought.

But that night, he found out that it was actually the exact opposite. He had confessed his feeling to Ryo, and he was sure Ryo had confessed back. He laughed and thought he might have lost his mind. Could Ryo that night, the one that had so sweetly smiled to him and said his goodbye, be a ghost? He didn’t believe in ghost, before that night he didn’t even believe in any magical creature-

“Ouch!” a smack on his head woke him up from his thought.

“I AM a magical creature!” a beautiful girl exclaimed on the passenger seat next to him.

“Inka!”

“What do you mean you don’t believe in magical creature?” Inka frowned at him and pouted.

“Y-you were reading my mind?”

“Obviously, duh!” Inka said, still pouting and frowning.

Ueda laughed. “I didn’t mean you.” he tapped the girl on her head.

“Err…Ueda-kun, you might want to start driving again?” Inka pointed at the traffic light which Ueda noticed had turned to green. Ueda quickly pressed the gas pedal with his foot and started driving again.

“Inka…” Ueda started after a brief of silence.

“Hmm?”

“Did you know that that night… Ryo has…”

“Passed away?”

Ueda weakly nodded.

“Yeah, I knew.”

“Was that why you came? And asked me about my feeling towards him?”

Inka smiled . “Maybe.”

“How did-” before Ueda could finish his question, he was cut by Inka.

“I was with him when the accident happened.”

“Huh?”

“I knew he was going to die. I turned myself into a human and sat next to him on that train. We talked about so many things. I even made him realized his feeling towards you.” Inka turned his head to look at Ueda and smiled, “don’t ask me how, I’m just that good.” She grinned.

“He was still alive when the train crashed. I held his hand and told him that everything would be okay. But he knew he didn’t have much time left as he saw the blood that was coming from his head. For a few second before he closed his eyes he said:

I wish I could tell him how I truly feel and say good bye to him

When I heard his last words, I cried. I knew I wasn’t allowed to, but I just could let you guys be separated for good without realizing each other feeling, so I-“

“You sent Ryo’s spirit to come and see me?” Ueda finished Inka’s sentence.

Inka nodded.

Ueda stopped his car. Inka looked around and realized they were in the park, the same park that she made Ueda meet Ryo’s spirit. Ueda parked his car and stepped out. Inka soon followed him and walked to where Ueda was standing now. He was standing in the middle of the frozen ground, and he slowly started to spin around and danced.

“Ueda-kun, what are you doing?” Inka asked, confused by his human friend’s behavior.

“Dancing!” Ueda answered a matter of factly. “Come on! Join me! it’s a beautiful night!” Ueda spun around and laughed.

Inka tilted her head in confusion but she finally smiled ad walked closer to Ueda, following his movement and danced along with him.

They danced for a while and laughing as they did so. Inka was glad that Ueda was laughing happily. She thought Ueda was not sad anymore and that he had moved on. But when Ueda’s laugh was getting harder and he almost sounded like a crazy man, Inka knew something was wrong. She wasn’t sure if Ueda was actually laughing now, in fact it almost sounded like…he was crying?

“Ueda-kun…”

“I’m sorry Inka. I tried to be strong. I really did. But …I just ..I just couldn’t…I’m not that strong. I’m weak Inka…I’m weak without Ryo…” Ueda said as he fell down helplessly on to the cold ground and tears started to roll down from his eyes.

Inka hugged him and Ueda cried on her embrace. “I missed him Inka, I want to see him. I wish I could just turn back time see him before he died. I wish I could just tell him that I love him.”

“Ueda-kun…”

---

Ueda woke up panting and sweating. He had another nightmare. He always had the same nightmare almost every night. He dreamed about Ryo again, and how he had lost him, not being able to save him from the accident.

He looked around and recognized his surrounding. He was in his room. But how did he manage to be there? The last thing he remembered was that he was crying in his fairy’s arm the night before. Did Inka take him home?

He looked at the clock on the night stand next to his bed. It was seemed that he had managed to oversleep as the clock showed 11:30 am. He sighed as he propped himself to sit up and rubbed his eyes. His eyes seemed to refuse to open, and he massaged the bridge of his nose. He was feeling a bit dizzy too.

He decided to sleep again and was about to close his eyes when suddenly his phone rang. He reached for the said item on the night stand and sighed again as he saw Kamenashi’s name on the screen. He knew Kame was calling him to yell at him for not attending the show he was supposed to attend yesterday. He groggily opened his cell phone and answered it “Moshi-moshi?”

“Ueda! Where the hell are you?” a scream soon was heard from the other line

“At home.” he answered tiredly.

“What? Are you crazy? We’re waiting for hours for you to come and you’re telling me you’re still home? Get your ass here right this second Ueda Tatsuya!”

“Where?” he asked, confused as to why his band mates were waiting for him. Did he promise to meet them somewhere?

“Where? Ueda I swear I’m gonna kill you once you get here! Do you forget we have a photoshoot today?” Kame screamed again. And Ueda could swear his was going to be deaf from Kame’s screaming.

“What photoshoot? It’s Christmas Kame, normal people have day off on Christmas.”

“Christmas is not in another two weeks, what the hell are you talking about? Stop making excuses and get your lazy ass here before I go there and drag you myself!” with his last scream, Kame hung up.

“What the hell?!” Ueda scowled at Kame’s weird call. He shrugged and rubbed his face again before grouchily got up from his bed and headed to the bathroom. .

He decided to play along with Kame. It’s not like he had any special plan for Christmas anyway. His family left for Europe like they always did on Christmas. They asked him to come along but he refused, for he didn’t have anything to celebrate. Not with Ryo’s gone.

So after he took a quick bath and got dressed, he took his car key and left his apartment.

He pressed the arrow button on the wall and waited for the elevator door to open. A few seconds later, a ting sound was heard as the elevator opened and revealed an old lady who apparently was having trouble with the big tree on her hand.

“Ah Ueda-kun.” The lady greeted him.

“Obaachan. Do you need help?” Ueda kindly offered as he knew his old neighbor was having trouble in carrying the tree.

“If you don’t mind.” The lady smiled and took Ueda’s offer.

“What’s this tree for?” Ueda asked as he hauled the tree with difficulty.

“That is a silly question Ueda-kun. Of course it’s for my Christmas tree. I know it’s too big for an old woman who lives alone like me. But I like this tree the moment I saw it and decided to buy it.” The lady answered with a smile.

“But I thought you already have a Christmas tree. I helped you decorate it remember?”

“What are you talking about? I just bought this tree. How could I decorate it with you if I just bought it?” The lady chuckled. “Ah, you must’ve mistaken that for last year. Well you always help me decorate my tree Ueda-kun. Thank you for that.”

They finally reached to the old lady’s apartment. Ueda helped her to bring the tree inside, and to his surprise the lady was right. There was no Christmas tree anywhere in the small apartment.

“Thank you so much Ueda-kun.” The lady smiled and bowed in grateful for Ueda’s help.

“A-ah…yes, you are welcomed.” Ueda bowed back.

Ueda tilted his head in confusion as the door closed in front of him. He was sure he had helped the old lady decorate her tree last week. Maybe she just forgot, after all she is very old and it’s normal for an old lady like her to forget things. But how come he couldn’t see any tree in her apartment? Where did that tree go? He shrugged as he continued to walk and once again stopped in front of t he elevator to press the button again.

He was more than late when he reached the studio. He was confused by the scene around him, it felt like de ja vu for him. But he couldn’t remember when he had experienced it and to him the day kept getting weirder.

“Uedaaa ~~” was the first sound that welcomed him the moment he entered the practice room.

“You! Thanks to you we missed our schedule for the photoshoot! The manager was furious!” As he had expected, Kame welcomed him with a fury.

“Sorry. I didn’t know there’s a photoshoot today.” He mumbled his apology as he was afraid of Kame’s death glare on him.

“How could you not know? I reminded you yesterday!” Kame said, still screaming at him.

“Calm down Kame. Ueda is here now. We should get practice so we can perform well on tonight’s show.” Jin said to calm his boyfriend down.

“What show?” Ueda innocently asked as he was confused. No one told him there was going to be any show. As he remembered they shouldn’t even come to work. It’s holiday for God’s sake.

“What show???? Ueda! Argghhh..!” Kame palmed his face as he was getting desperate at his friend.

“Kame, babe…..calm down.” Jin said again and kissed his boyfriend to shut him up.

“Eww~~ spare us with the PDA please!” Koki protested at the view of Akame kissing in front of them.

“Shut up!” Kame furiously said as Jin broke their kiss. “Now let’s get to practice before manager-san yell at us again.” Kame said, his anger seemed to be decreasing thanks to Jin smart and perverted method.

Ueda was still clueless at what was going on. He kept asking his band mates why did they need to practice and what kind of show they were supposed to perform in. But when Kame yelled again, he knew he should just shut his mouth.

He had a feeling something wasn’t right. The practice and photoshoot on Christmas day, The undecorated tree of his neighbor’s, and people kept telling him it’s not Christmas yet. Could it be?

Nah. He shook that thought away. It’s just impossible. He couldn’t just go back in time couldn’t he? He shrugged that silly thought of his away and mentally smacked himself for thinking such.

But when the company car drove him and his group to a building so familiar to him, he couldn’t help but to think that silly thought again. He was at the same studio where he and his group did a performance for Christmas Special nearly two weeks ago. The night the accident happened.

It couldn’t be.

“J-Jin?” He stuttered, calling his friend’s name who was standing next to him. There were waiting at the backstage for their turn.

“Yeah?” Jin answered.

“What date is it?”

“What?”

“I’m asking you what date today is.”

“Err…I forgot. I think it’s...” Jin paused to remember “December 9.” He continued.

Ueda’s eyes widened in shock, “Y-you’re...kidding right?”

“Nope. I’m sure it’s December 9. See?” Jin took his cell phone and showed the display screen to Ueda whose eyes almost popped out as he looked at the screen. It was definitely said 9 December 2008.

He did. It couldn’t be but he did. He managed to go back in time. But was it even possible? Was this a dream? But if he was back to this day, that would mean that Ryo…

“Jin, give me your pho ne!” he requested not so politely as he tried to take Jin’s phone from his band mate’s hand.

“Eh? What for?”

“Just give me your phone!” he asked again and this time he managed to snatch the said phone from Jin’s hand.

“Hey!” Jin protested but Ueda didn’t care. He searched for Ryo’s name in the phone book and was glad when he finally found it.

It took 3 seconds for him to calm himself down before pressing the call button. But his effort was futile as he could still feel his heart beating faster, waiting anxiously for Ryo to answer his call.

“What is it Bakanishi?” a familiar voice greeted him and he swore his heart just refused to beat. It was Ryo’s voice, it was impossible but it’s definitely Ryo’s voice. This could only mean one thing, Ryo was still alive.

“R-Ryo…”

“Eh? Who’s this?” the voice on the other line asked as he didn’t recognize Ueda’s voice.

Ueda stayed silent, he couldn’t believe his ears. This was a dream!

“Moshi-moshi? Hello? Bakanishi is that you?”

“Ueda! Lets go!” Kame’s voice snapped him out of his thought. Jin quickly grabbed his phone and growled at Ueda for taking his phone.

Ueda unwillingly followed the rest of the member to enter the studio and started the recording. He couldn’t concentrate well during the performance and he almost missed his line if it wasn’t for Kame who nudged him as he could sense Ueda’s was lost in his thought and not paying any attention on the show.

It was a long 2 hours for Ueda but finally the recording was over. Ueda quickly walked over to where Jin was standing.

“Jin, give your phone again!” he asked, which was more like an order to Jin.

“Not again Uebo.” Jin refused but soon surrendered at Ueda’s death glare. He reluctantly took out his phone and gave it to Ueda.

Ueda grabbed the phone from Jin’s hand and quickly pressed the dial button.

“Bakanishi! Stop playing games with your phone! If you don’t-”

“It’s Ueda.” He quickly cut Ryo.

“What?”

“It’s me, Ueda Tatsuya”

“Donkey face? What are you doing with Jin’s phone?”

“That’s not important. Where are you now?”

“Osaka obviously. What the hell is wrong with you?”

“Are you going to Tokyo tonight?”

“Yeah. I’m actually at the station now. Why?”

“Don’t take that train!”

“What?”

“What ever you do don’t take the Nozomi train. Take another train!”

“What the hell are you talking about? Why shouldn’t I take the Nozomi?”

“Just trust me and do it! Take another train, any train but not the Nozomi!”

“Is this one of your sick joke donkey? Cos I swear it isn’t funny-”

“I’m not pulling a prank on you. Just listen Ryo, don’t take that train!”

“Well it’s kind of too late for that. The only available train is the last Nozomi. And I’m taking that train. I need to be in Tokyo by tonight. I have an early performance to do tomorrow.”

“No no no…! You’re not listening to me. Just don’t take that train. Get a bus or anything. Just don’t take that train!” Ueda was getting desperate. Ryo wouldn’t listen to a word he said.

“I know you’re crazy Ueda but seriously, this is getting creepy. I don’t need this crap.” With that, Ryo hung up

“What? Wait! Nishikido!” He screamed at Jin’s phone the moment he heard the line was cut.

Ueda cursed under his breath. “Damn you Ryo! Why couldn’t you just listen to me?” he whispered as he dialed Ryo’s number again

“What?!” Ryo answered in an annoyed tone.

“Nishikido please, I know it’s sound weird, but trust me. Do not take that train!”

“And why is that?” Ueda could feel Ryo was raising his eyebrows.

“Because….just …look I can’t explain this to you. But please just trust me okay?”

“I don’t have time for this bullshit. I gotta go.”

“No wait, Ryo!”

Ueda sighed. The line was dead again. What should he do? Ryo wouldn’t t listen to hi m. he couldn’t just tell the Osaka man that he just magically return from the future and that he knew Ryo was going to die if he’s to take that train tonight now could he?

“Are you done with my phone Uebo?” Jin’s voice snapped him back from his thought.

“Huh? Oh….yeah I’m done.” He answered. He took out his own phone and he put Ryo’s number to his phonebook. “Here, thanks.” He gave Jin’s phone back to the pouting owner.

“Jin?”

“Yeah?”

“How long does it take from here to Osaka by car?”

“Eh?” Jin paused to think, “Around 4 to 5 hours. Why?” Damn! He wouldn’t be able to make it.

Told him that he will pick him up with his car, he was sure he could stop Ryo from boarding that train.

“Ueda where are you going?” Jin asked confusingly as he saw his friend suddenly dashed out from the room. But he heard no reply from the older man as Ueda was soon gone and Jin could only scratch his head in confusion. What a weird friend he had.

Ueda ran as fast as he can and stopped the first Taxi that was passing by.

“To Johnny’s Jimusho!” he said to the driver. Why did he park his car at his office anyway? He should just go to the studio with his own car.

He was lucky it was not that far from the studio to the Jimusho building. After paying the Taxi and not bothering to wait for his change, he quickly ran to the parking lot. He stepped into his car and started the engine. It was almost 10 pm as he looked at his watch and cursed again. The last Nozomi train to Tokyo should depart now. He drove his car as fast as he can and took out his phone to dial Ryo’s number.

“Moshi-moshi?” he felt relieved as he heard Ryo’s voice again

“Where are you now?”

“Ueda?! What the hell? Stop bothering me!”

“Ryo please. I’ll stop calling you if you would just listen to me. Don’t take that train. I’m on my way to Osaka now with my car. I’ll pick you up and take you back to Tokyo as soon as possible, I promised you won’t be late for tomorrow’s performance. Just stay there okay?”

“Why are you doing his Ueda?”

“I don’t have time to explain. Just listen to me okay? Please. You can mock me or tease me or insult me, heck you can humiliated me in front of everyone tomorrow and I won’t even try to fight back. Just please listen to me, just this once Nishikido!” Ueda begged. Desperate at Ryo’s stubbornness.

Ryo laughed.“Well it’s not like I haven’t done that already. Besides, it’s kind of too late now. I’m already on the train.”

“What?” Ueda almost hit the car in front of him as he heard Ryo’s reply.

“I’m on the train now. I’m on my way to Tokyo.”

“T-The Nozomi one?”

“Yes. The Nozomi one.”

“Get off that train!”

“What?”

“Just get off of that train! “

“It’s a shinkansen! How am I supposed to just get off? I haven’t planned on killing my self yet donkey!”

But you would die if you don’t Ryo. Oh God what should he do now? Ryo was just too stubborn to listen to him.

“Ryo…”

Ueda could hear Ryo sighed. “What now Ueda?”

He needed to say something, anything that could make Ryo listen to him. “I love you.”

There was a long pause and he didn’t know what Ryo was thinking. He just wished that the younger man wouldn’t hang up on him again. “I love you Ryo. I’ve been in love with you for years. I tried to forget about you because I know you wouldn’t reciprocate my feeling and that you hate me. But after all this years, I’m still in love with you. No matter what you said to me, no matter how bad your insult was, no matter how much you hurt me, I still love you. I just wish I could say this properly, but I guess it’s too late now.”

“U-ueda…” There was finally a response from the other line. He mustn’t give up. Ryo was till talking to him on the phone, which meant that the Osakan was still very much alive and he still had a chance. As long as the accident hadn’t happened yet, he still had a chance.

“Get off at Ueno! I’ll pick you up there.”

“This train doesn’t stop at Ueno.”

“Then get off at any station! Just don’t get off at Tokyo station okay?”

“Why?”

“Damn it Ryo! I just confessed to you! Now if you want to mock me and tease me for that, you better get off that train before it reaches Tokyo.”

“As amused as I am hearing your confession princess, I still don’t find a good reason why I should listen to you.”

“Damn you Nishikido!”

“Shit! My battery is low. I’ll talk to you again later. And don’t worry I WILL tease you at the Jimusho tomorrow. You can count on that. Jya!”

“Ryo, no wait!” but the line was cut once again. “If you don’t get off now, there won t be any tomorrow Ryo…”

Ueda stopped his car when he reached Tokyo station. He ran to the building and hurriedly looked at the time table. There, he read that the Nozomi train would stop at Yokohama Station before it stopped at Tokyo Station.

“I still have time.” He convinced himself and he quickly ran back to his car.

He drove his car as fast as he can. Not caring the speed limit he broke and just wished there wouldn’t be any cops at this hour to stop him. He couldn’t believe his ability in driving this fast as he arrived in Yokohama in less than an hour.

He stopped at the Yokohama station and didn’t even bother to park his car. He left it in front of the lobby and just ran inside. He looked at the information board and saw that the Nozomi train from Tokyo will arrive in 3 minutes.

“Shit!” he cursed, he was almost late. Ueda bought a ticket so he can go inside to the platform, he was lucky there wasn’t any queue line. He quickly ran to the platform and he knew he had set a new record for running. As he finally arrived at the platform, he felt at ease for he was just in time for the train to arrive.

He scanned the car one by one but he couldn’t see any sign of Ryo. He needed to find the younger man before the train leaves again. He only had lest then 2 minutes to find him. He called the other’s name as he scanned the train. But the Nozomi train has 12 cars, and he didn’t manage to check on every car as the train finally started to move. “No wait! Don’t leave yet! Ryo! Ryo where the hell are you?! Ryo!”

He ran next to the train, screaming Ryo’s name over and over again. But he just couldn’t beat the speeding bullet train. In a brief second, the train was gone.

“Ryo…” he called the younger man’s name weakly as he felt his tears slowly rolling down. He had given a chance to save Ryo, but he failed.

Ueda dropped himself helplessly on the station’s floor. He had failed. He didn’t manage to stop Ryo from boarding the train and now he also failed at making Ryo get off the cursed train.

“You know if anyone recognizes you here, you’d be on tabloids for screaming like a mad man.”

Ueda eyes widened as he heard the voice behind him. He quickly turned around and he was shocked as he saw Ryo standing with a smirk on his face.

“Ryo!” he didn’t believe his eyes. “You…you got off!”

“Yea well, I have to, since I heard a crazy man screaming at my name. I didn’t want to draw any attention. Although I think it was too late for that, people are staring at us.” Ryo replied as he looked at the people around them.

Ueda got up immediately and Ryo was a bit surprised as he felt Ueda suddenly hugged him. “Woah…easy now princess, people are staring at us.”

“I don’t care! You’re here! You’re alive.” Ueda said, not letting go his hug on Ryo.

“Huh?” Ryo confused at what Ueda was saying. “There really is something wrong with your head.”

“Yeah..What ever Nishikido,” Ueda smiled as he pulled back. “Call me crazy or whatever. You are free to call me anything! But I’m glad you’re here!” Ueda hugged him again.

“Donkey, you seriously need to get off of me before anyone takes our picture and we’d be on tabloids tomorrow.”

“Ugh…right, sorry” Ueda finally let Ryo go and he smiled at Ryo who was surprisingly smilling back at him.

“Let’s get out of here. I’m hungry. I haven’t eaten anything and I need to eat something. And you owe me an explanation for your stupid crazy act of yours tonight. ” Ryo took Ueda’s hand and dragged him out of there.

Ueda smiled contently and nodded. “Sure! My treat!”

“Damn right it is!” The two men walked together and Ueda smiled as Ryo was still holding his hand, although more like dragging him but he was still glad he could feel the warm hand on his. The warmth proved that Ryo was alive.

“I can’t believe you drove all the way here to Yokohama. I guess you love me that much eh?” Ryo teased him as they reached Ueda’s car. That was when Ueda remembered what he had said to Ryo. He had confessed to him. He was panic before and he couldn’t think of anything else to say to make Ryo listen to him.

“Ano… Ryo…can we forget what I said earlier?” he asked as he opened the door.

“About you loving me?” Ryo raised his eyebrow in the sexiest way that made Ueda cursed again under his breath. Damn Ryo and his sexy expression. “Hell no!” Ryo laughed before he opened the door to Ueda’s car and stepped inside. “Just drive Princess. There’s no way I’m letting you getting away with this.”

Ueda sighed before he started his engine. He knew e would definitely have to bare with Ryo teasing him every chance he got. But he smiled nonetheless. He knew how the sexy Osaka man felt anyway, and he just had to wait until Ryo confess back.

When he was a bout to drive away, he saw a girl standing not far from his car. She was smiling to him and Ueda smiled back as he recognized who that girl was.

Thank you Inka.

A/N: There you go

resha_hime ! hope yo like the ending this time...*snorts* you're no fun! angst is good ya know

Forget me not

2008-12-09T16:38:17Z

Title: Forget me not (another lame title *sighs*)
Pairing: Ryoda duh!
Summary: ~~It was a cold night and Ueda was accompanied by an unexpected companion~~. need to find a better summary *sighs*

Bday Fic for my dearest beta resha_hime</lj>
HAPPY BDAY girl!!!
hope u like ur present!

It’s cold

It’s freaking cold and what the hell am I doing here? He asked himself. He walked further down the park and found an empty bench under the silver glowing tree. He looked around and found no one else with him in that park. He was alone. Of course he was alone, it was 2 A.M duh! He mentally smacked himself.

It’s two weeks before Christmas, but still the atmosphere was already so Christmassy. Trees decorated with colorful lights, ground covered with blanket of white snow, Christmas song served as background music in every store, he just couldn’t wait till it’s Christmas day.

He took a seat on the empty bench, blowing some air to his hand. The freezing air showed how cold that night was. He just finished his rehearsal with his group that night. With their new single released, there were many performances they had to do. He felt tired, but still not wanting to go home. It’s not everyday he could feel the beauty of the city like this.

But then suddenly he felt something strange, he didn’t feel so cold anymore, as if a warm air swiftly moved around him.

“Hello Ueda-kun.” A soft whisper almost made him jump in surprise. He turned around to find a female, with an angelic face and an almost glowing aura, sitting next to him.

“W-who are you?” he asked, surprised at the way the girl addressed him so familiarly. Was she a fan?

“You don’t recognize me?” She asked disappointedly. Her lips were curled into a pout.

Ueda observed the girl before him one more time, he was sure he had never met her. He didn’t know any girl as pretty as her. But after he focused, hard this time, his eyes widened in realization. “Inka!”

The girl smiled. “Took you long enough.” She chuckled.

“B-but how? Y-you are…”

“Not a small little fairy with wings flapping around?” She finished Ueda’s sentence with an amused tone.

Ueda gulped. He stared the girl from head to toe. She had a normal human size. With human sized head, human sized body, human sized hand, human sized finger, …she’s exactly like a normal human!

“Enough staring Ueda-kun,” she chuckled again. “Yes it’s me, Inka, your little fairy. I did a little magic and voila! I have a human size body!” She explained proudly.

“I see…” Ueda finally were able to put himself together again. “So what are you doing here? It’s been a while since the last time I saw you.” He asked.

“Yup! I missed you!” Inka suddenly stood up and walked to the center of the park. The ground had frozen and was now become a skating rink. She spun around, singing and dancing freely.

“What are you doing?” Ueda asked, seeing his fairy friend’s impulsive action, but wanted to join her nevertheless.

“Dancing!” She answered a matter of factly, “Come and join me!” She reached out his hand, inviting Ueda to join her.

Ueda laughed, “You’re crazy! There’s no music!” Ueda replied, but despite his own word, he stood up and joined his fairy friend. He hesitated at first, feeling awkward to dance around like some crazy person in the middle of the night. But hey, no one was looking anyway. And so now he was, dancing, singing and laughing with his friend. Not caring how crazy he would look like.

“Ne Ueda-kun.” Inka started, tired from their little dancing. She dropped her self down to the frozen ground, lying on her back and stared at the starry sky. “Are you still lonely?”

“What do you mean?” Ueda said as he joined her, sitting next to her and stared at the same sky.

“You used to cry when you felt lonely. That’s why we came to see you. So you wouldn’t feel lonely anymore.” She continued.

“Aah…right. That was long time ago ne?” He smiled.

Inka nodded, “And you used to complain a lot about Nishikido-kun and how he had bullied you.” Inka giggled. “But we know you really like Nishikido-kun. That’s why you were so sad when he called you names and insulted you.”

“Yeah…that was years ago.” Ueda laughed.

“Do you still feel the same now?” Inka asked again, her voice sounded serious now.

“Feel what? Lonely?” he asked, turning his face to look at Inka. “Hmm…not anymore I think. I have quite many friends now.” He continued.

“I see…I’m glad then.” Inka sighed. “How bout Nishikido-kun?”

“What about him?”

“Do you still like him?”

Ueda laughed. “I don’t know….we hardly meet these days. Ever since KAT-TUN debuted, we’ve been very busy, and I didn’t meet Nishikido quiet as often as before. So he hardly had a chance to insult me anymore,” he let out a bitter laugh. “Which is good I guess.” He added.

“So you’re saying you have forgotten about him? Are you over him?” Inka sat up. She looked at Ueda seriously, her voice filled with hope that Ueda would shake his head.

“I don’t know, I guess I was just too busy to think about such thing.” He shrugged instead.

“Oh...” she said and Ueda didn’t know why she sounded so disappointed. She remained silence afterward and Ueda was gotten more confused.

“Why are you asking by the way?”

“Nothing.” She answered plainly ad she got up. “Well I better go now, before they started looking for me.” She smiled and gave Ueda a peck on his cheek. “Bye Ueda-kun!” she said before she disappeared from Ueda’s sight, leaving a very confused Ueda.

Ueda sighed, thinking why was his fairy friend asking him such questions. It had been awhile since the last time he saw his fairy friends. He even thought he could no longer see them. Maybe he had grown up, that’s why he was not able to see them. But now, suddenly one of them just popped up in front of him, with a human form and asking weird questions about him and his feelings towards Ryo.

He repeated the fairy question again on his mind. Had he forgotten about his feeling? Was he over Ryo?

“What the hell are you doing?” a familiar voice snapped Ueda out of his thought.

Ueda turned around to face a familiar face. Speak of the devil, he thought. He sighed and got up from his seat.

“You really are a freak aren’t you? Sitting alone in the middle of this cold night, talking to your self?” Ryo raised his eyebrow.

Ueda huffed. “And you? What are you doing here?” he rolled his eyes.

“I just happened to arrive in Tokyo from Osaka, heading to my apartment now.” Ryo answered casually.

“It’s along way to your apartment isn’t it?” he rolled his eyes again.

“You know where I live?” Ryo said, sounding a bit amused. “I didn’t know you were still obsessed about me.” He smirked.

“Get a hold of your self Nishikido.” Ueda walked to the bench he was sitting on earlier and sat there. But to his surprise, Ryo sat next to him.

“What are you doing?” he asked, rather surprised by Ryo’s action.

“Sitting obviously.” Ryo answered, giving a ‘duh’ look to Ueda.

“And do you have to sit next to me?” He just had to ask.

“Do you see any other bench princess?” Ryo rolled his eyes. “It’s not like I want to sit here with you anyway.”

Ueda laughed.

“What are you laughing about?” Ryo asked in annoyance.

“Nothing, I just missed this.” Ueda answered bluntly. Almost slapping his mouth for the term he used.

“Huh?”

“You and your sharp tongue.” He quickly added.

“Yeah well everyone misses-“ Ryo smirked, but was unable to finish his words of conceit as Ueda cut him.

“The sexy Osaka man? Yeah right.” He snorted. “I thought you were heading home?” he raised his eyebrow.

“I was tired alright? Like you said, it’s a long walk.” Ryo answered.

“Why didn’t you stop at the nearest station to your apartment anyway?” It was obvious that Ryo’s apartment was on a different district. What was he doing here anyway?

“I just felt like to.” He shrugged.

“And you said I’m the freak one.” Ueda shook his head in disbelief.

They stood there in silent for a few moments, not saying anything, but somehow Ueda felt like he had never felt this comfortable in his life. Just sitting there, with Ryo’s company, without saying a word and just enjoying the silence and the cold air.

But this is too weird, he thought. As much as he enjoyed this, something still felt weird.

“W-where are you going?” Ryo asked as he saw Ueda standing up.

“Home? It’s almost 3 in the morning. I have a work to do tomorrow.” He answered, although the truth was he never wanted to leave. He wanted to stay there with Ryo as long as he could.

And to his surprise, Ryo stood up too.

“Where are YOU going?” he asked back.

“Home? I told you I was just resting here. And now I’m all set to walk again!” Ryo answered with a grin. That was a weird grin, Ueda thought. Never once he saw Ryo grinning like that to him.

Ueda rolled his eyes “Whatever.” He tried to sound nonchalant. He walked again was surprised as he felt Ryo was following him from behind.

“What are you doing?” he stopped and turned around.

“Walking? What does it look like moron?” Ryo answered, not stopping but walked passed Ueda as he tried to look cool.

“Well it looks like you are following me.” Ueda snorted but unconsciously catching up to Ryo and they were walking side by side.

“Congratulation on your single by the way.” Ryo said after a long moment of silence between them. Ueda didn’t protest anymore and was starting to enjoy Ryo’s company.

“Thanks.” As weird as it sound, but did Nishikido Ryo just congratulated him? Was he sick or something? “Are you okay? Are you sick?” he just had to make sure.

“I’m fine, why?”

Ueda chuckled “Iit’s just that you never said such a nice thing to me.”

Ryo snorted. “Well don’t expect me to say it again.”

“On a second thought, are you sure you are okay? You do look kind of pale Nishikido.” Ueda stopped for a second and looked at Ryo’s face. He did look so pale, although it probably just because of the cold weather. He moved his hand to try to feel Ryo’s forehead when Ryo abruptly jumped back avoiding Ueda’s hand.

“Don’t touch me!” Ueda was surprised and rather disappointed by Ryo’s reaction. It was almost as if he had a disease or something.

“Okay.” He said but was unable to hide the sound of disappointment in his voice.

Seeing the look on Ueda’s face, Ryo cursed himself. He didn’t mean it like that. “I’m fine! And it’s Ryo.”

“Huh?”

“We’ve known each other for years, don’t you think it’s time to start calling by my first name? T-tatsuya?”

Ueda shuddered at the way Ryo addressing him. Did Ryo just call him by his first name? Sure he knew Ryo for years, ever since he entered Johnny. But they were never friends, Ueda thought.

He tried to say something, but was unable to find the right words, so he just nodded. He did manage, somehow, to hide the smile which was beginning to form on his lips. Suddenly he felt it again, those feeling. The feeling the thought he had forgotten because of the busy activities and the minimum frequency of seeing the younger man. There were days when Ueda felt he missed Ryo so much, for he was unable to see him. But because of his busy schedule lately, he was thankful that those feeling were slightly put aside.

“Ne, tatsuya…” Ryo started again, feeling the silence built up once again.

“Hmm?” Ueda responded. He was still nervous, eyes not meeting Ryo’s for he was sure he couldn’t hide the smile on his face if he saw Ryo’s eyes.

“Did you mean what you said?” Ryo asked, in a slight disappointed voice.

“Huh?” Ueda tilted his head. Still trying not to meet Ryo’s eyes and he was lucky for Ryo was looking straight on the road.

“On the park before, you said to that girl that you have forgotten about me.”

“Y-You heard that?” Ueda was taken aback. Was Ryo there all along? Saw him and heard him talking to Inka? But Inka was a fairy. No one was supposed to be able to see her, no one but Ueda. “And you can see her?”

“Of course I can see her! I’m not blind!” Ryo answered, and Ueda was becoming more surprised. But maybe since Inka changed herself into human, People can see her? He thought. “You haven’t answered my question. Have you forgotten about me? Are you over me?”

“I-I….” Ueda didn’t know what to answer. Ryo’s sudden question was surprising him. Okay so now Ryo knew about his feeling? Oh dear God. How embarrassed he was right now. How he wished Inka would show up and made him disappear now.

“Just answer me, have you or haven’t you?” Ryo asked, getting more impatient.

Ueda tried to calm down. What should he do? Should he confess? Or should he deny it?

“We work together, how could I forget you?” He tried to laugh, playing with the word and hoping Ryo would just drop the topic.

“You know what I mean. Are you over me Tatsuya?” but to his disappointment Ryo was making the word clearer instead. Ryo stopped and Ueda reluctantly stopped after him. He didn’t know what to do. He didn’t know what to say.

“I haven’t” after a moment, Ueda finally found a courage to say. Might as well get done with it. So what if he confess? The worst would be having Ryo laugh at him. Insulting him in every chance he got. Probably telling everyone in the Jimusho and teased him every day. So what’s new?

“Good, cause I haven’t too.” Okay that was not the reply he had expected. Did he heard him wrong? Did the cold air played trick on him?

“Huh?”

“Well, this is where we have to separate ways. We’re heading a different direction now.” Ryo didn’t answer him, he smiled instead Ueda looked at his surrounding, they were in an intersection.

“I-I guess so…” He replied weakly.

Ryo smiled, “I guess it’s good bye then.” Ueda was a bit confused by the term Ryo used. And he was sure Ryo looked very pale. He was a little worried, maybe Ryo was sick, and that’s why he said such things. He watched Ryo slowly walked further away from him. but after a few steps, Ryo turned around and smiled before he shouted, loud enough for Ueda to hear. “Remember! Never forget me! No one should forget the sexy Osaka man!” Ryo waved his hand and smiled before he turned around again and Ueda saw Ryo’s back slowly disappeared.

Ueda was confused. What a weird night he thought. First Inka just popped out of nowhere looking all human. And now Ryo, did he just confessed his feeling to Ryo?

He shook his head but silently, hoping that tonight was not a dream. He smiled as he recalled the last few minutes with Ryo.

He waited for the light to cross the road to turn green. There were not many cars passing by anyway, but he still wanted to wait. He was standing next to a 24 hours convenience store. It was Lawson, and he smiled when he saw picture of NEWS by the window, and focused more on the only Osaka man on the group. There were many NEWS picture as he remembered Lawson was promoting their new product. He saw a poster with Ryo’s picture holding karaage in his hand, smiling but he admitted he still looked sexy. Damn, he thought.

He then turned his attention to the television on top of the cashier counter. It was newsflash time, and he couldn’t hear what the announcer was saying, but he could see the running text on the bottom of the screen and his eyes widened in shock as he read them

The Nozomi train from Osaka crashed upon entering TOKYO station this morning around 2 AM local time. Dozens were killed and hundreds were injured. One of the victims who died in this accident was a famous young Idol from Johnny's Entertanment, Nishikido Ryo.

It couldn’t be! It’s impossible! He just talked to Ryo few minutes ago! The news was lying!

Ueda turned around to make sure Ryo was still there, maybe just a few meters away from him, walking and looking very much alive. But to his disappointment, Ryo was no longer at his sight. He turned around again and looked at the pavement on his foot. his eyes following the trail of shoe prints. And his heart suddenly just refused to beat as he realized they were only trail of his own shoe prints.

Don’t forget me!

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Bwahahahahah....i wrote an angst bday fic!!! *evil laugh*

Sorry rissa, but i just cudnt help it XDDDD but still, i hope u like it!! HAPPY BDAY NANA #2!!!!

oh and yes, Inka knew Ryo was dead...XDDDD

Come as you are 9

2008-11-18T02:53:06Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: Thank you my dear resha_hime for the beta as always! and yes this is short, i'm not as crazy as you are! i dont write 13K words in one chapter *snorts*. and now that i've post this chapter...WHERE IS MY ISWAB????
my eyes are swollen now from lack of sleep, i just bought code blue, kurosagi SP, hana kimi SP, ProDai SP, Hokaben, hell i even bought Hana Yori Dango SP >.< ! i need to sleeeep now...zzzzzzzz oh n btw, i wast going to buy Last friend SP but i dont know if Ryo is in it or not, is he?

“U-Uebo?” Yamapi’s eyes shot open wide at the information he received.

“Yeah...Uebo, you know… Ueda? My band mate?” Jin said, stating the obvious fact. He lay his back on the couch lazily, one arm rested behind his head, serving as a pillow.

“U-ueda? Impossible…” Yamapi stammered, almost dropping the phone in his hand as he could almost feel no strength left in his arms.

“What is impossible?” Jin asked confused as he started to close his eyes and the words came out as a mumble.

Of course! Hime! Princess, that’s one of the nick names Ryo has for Ueda. How come I didn’t notice it before? Stupid sexy me! Yamapi smacked his own head. Did Ryo realize he has kept these messages this entire time? He looked again at the cellphone in his hand. All this time he had thought that Ryo’s lover was a girl, but it turned out that ‘she’ was actually a ‘he’ and what had shocked him the most was the fact that the person was in fact Ueda, the U of KAT-TUN, his fellow Johnny’s and Ryo’s supposed-to-be-enemy. I’m sure he hasn’t, if he has, he would have known that’ princess’ is Ueda. I have to do something!

“Ne, Jin, where’s your laptop?”

“It’s in my car, why?” Jin still had his eyes closed.

“I need to borrow it, give me the car key!” Pi demanded, reaching out his hand and told Jin to hand him the key.

“Why? What for?” Jin asked in confusion, finally opening his eyes to find Pi’s hand stretched out to him demanding the key to his car.

“Just give me the damn key! And don’t tell Ryo, I’ll explain to you later.” Jin finally reached into his pocket to take the key and threw them in Yamapi’s direction and which he caught easily. “When Ryo’s done, stall him for 10 minutes! I’ll be waiting in the car.”

“But Pi-”

“Just do it, okay? I’ll explain to you later.” Pi said as he rushed out the room. “Don’t forget, give me 10 minutes!” Pi gave his last command and soon he disappeared from Jin’s sight while the confused boy could only nod.

“Where’s Pi?” Ryo asked a few minutes later when he came back, only to find Pi was no longer in the room and replaced by Jin who was lying on the couch.

“Err…it’s his turn to go to the toilet.” Jin lied, he didn’t know why he had to lie in the first place, but he just knew he had to.

“But I didn’t see him in the toilet.”

“He went to the one on the second floor.” Jin lied again, congratulating his brain for being able to think so fast.

“Oh,” Ryo bent down to get his bag which was lying on the floor and slung it on his shoulder. “Well then let’s go!”

“Wait!” Jin quickly sat up, remembering that he mustn’t let Ryo go and he should stall him just as Pi had asked him to do.

“What?” Ryo asked, irritated.

“Your hair!” Jin pointed to his head.

“What’s wrong with my hair?” Ryo rolled his eyes.

“It’s not done properly.”

“My hair is just fine, Bakanishi.” Ryo ignored Jin and was just about to walk again when suddenly Jin shouted again.

Ryo groaned irritably “What now?”

Jin needed to think fast, he should stall him. Think something Bakanishi!

“My hair! I need to style it first.”

“What?”

“Yeah, I can’t go clubbing with my hair like this, what would the girls say?”

“I don’t think the girls care Jin, and your hair is fine! Stop being a diva. Kame has really rubbed off on you.” Ryo couldn’t believe what he heard. This Baka friend of his was being ridiculous again. Sure, they were idols and looks were important, but he didn’t need to act like a damn diva about his looks.

“I’m not being a diva, I’m a guy!” Jin protested at the term.

“Then stop acting like one! Let’s go!” Ryo said, ignoring Jin who was about to say something and just kept on walking.

“But Ryo!”

---

Inside the car, Yamapi opened Jin’s laptop hurriedly. He needed to transfer all Ryo’s messages from Ueda to Jin’s laptop. He’d better save these first, Ryo mustn’t see this, not now.

It took time to transfer all those messages, he had hundreds of them. The computer informed him that he should wait for 5 minutes in order to complete transferring the data. But he knew he couldn’t wait that long as he could hear Jin’s shouting voice from a distance, calling Ryo’s name.

“Shit, Bakanishi! I told you to stall Ryo, you stupid moron!” Yamapi looked again at the screen and he cursed. “Shit, I still need 3 more minutes!”

“Ryo look!” Jin pointed up as he saw Yamapi shaking his head from the front seat of his car, telling him that he’s not done yet on whatever he was doing.

“What now, Bakanishi?” Ryo sighed as he stopped and turned around to face Jin with a really annoyed look on his face. He had enough of Jin telling him ridiculous things the whole way from his dressing room to the parking lot. What did this moron want from him anyway?

“T-That tree, look!” he found an object to distract Ryo, although he didn’t know what he could do with that object to prevent Ryo from walking any further.

“What’s with the tree?” Ryo rolled his eyes.

“It-it’s tall?” Damn you, brain! It’s not the time to be stupid. Think of something smarter, don’t let yourself live up to the name! Jin just grinned at Ryo’s reaction and he could see from the corner of his eyes Yamapi face-palming himself. It was the most stupid distraction anyone could come up with, he admitted.

“Bakanishi, I don’t know what’s wrong with your small sized brain, but seriously I think you need to have it checked, or changed, that is.” Ryo was really annoyed.

“Yatta! It’s done!” Yamapi said to himself before he nodded to Jin, saving the baka from his misery trying everything he could come up with to stall Ryo. Jin sighed in relief, and grinned at Ryo who was still glaring at him.

Ryo walked closer to the car and found Pi already sitting in the passenger’s seat “You’re here already, Pi?”

“Yeah, what took you so long?” Pi complained, pretending to have waited so long for them to arrive.

“Ask the moronic, fat guy here!” Ryo pointed at Jin.

“Hey I’m not fat!” Jin pouted at Ryo’s comment. “Not anymore!”

“Okay then guys, let’s go?” Pi gestured at them to get inside the car.

“Pi, do you have my phone?” Ryo asked as he stepped inside the car and sat in the backseat.

“Yeah, here. I’ve cleaned the inbox for you.” he passed the said phone to Ryo. Ryo missed the sigh of relief from the band leader as he finally managed to transfer all the messages in the nick of time.

-----

Ueda grabbed the ringing cellphone from his duffle bag. He looked at the caller ID and sighed. What did the baka want this time? “Moshi-moshi!”

“Hey Tat-chan!” the voice from the other line greeted him.

“Hey Jin, what’s up?”

“Nothing, just wanted to ask if you’re doing anything tonight?”

“Well I’m at the gym right now, exercising.” He said, grabbing a small towel from his bag to wipe his sweating body. He had practiced boxing for nearly an hour as was his schedule to practice that night. He didn’t have time before for practicing, not because he was too busy with his work. He didn’t have that much work activity, like his other band mates had, but before Ryo had the accident he always went home after practice, waiting for Ryo at his apartment or at Ryo’s apartment, preparing dinner for him until Ryo arrived home and for the rest of the night, he was busy with something else. But now with Ryo’s condition, he had more time to do his training. In fact, it was almost everyday for the whole week now.

“Boxing, eh?”

“Yup, why did you ask?”

“Well, I was wondering maybe you want to have a couple of drinks with me. What time will you finish?”

“In a couple of hours. Why are you suddenly asking?” Ueda wondered, he and Jin were band mates, but they rarely go out together anymore. Before Jin went to America they were much closer and they often went out to eat or drink. But lately they seemed to be quite busy and they never see each other outside work anymore.

“Well, I just realized we haven’t had a drink for while, we promise we’d go out for a drink on our concert before in front of our fans remember? We haven’t done that.”

Ueda chuckled at Jin’s reasoning. “It’s just for the fans Jin, and it’s more than a year ago.”

“Well it’s still a promise. So do you wanna go?”

Ueda chuckled again and a smile formed on his face. “Sure, why not? Is Kame coming?”

“No, he still has some meetings for his upcoming drama, but Pi will join us.”

“Pi?” Of course Pi, he and Jin were best friends and so was Ryo. Wait, if Pi is joining, will Ryo also be there? Ueda’s heart started to beat faster and it’s not because he had just been exercising. “Just him?” He couldn’t help but to ask.

“Yeah just Pi, me and you”

Ueda was a bit disappointed. He wished Ryo would also be there, it would be a little awkward but at least he would get to see his lover again. Not that he hadn’t meet Ryo at all that day. In fact, he had a wonderful time at lunch break with Ryo, but he still missed the Osakan man. “Alright then, I’ll see you in a couple of hours.”

“Yosh! I’ll text you where you should meet me later. See ya, Tatchan!”

Ueda closed his phone with a shrug and he continued his boxing practice.

----

Jin closed his phone and gave a nod to Pi who was sitting next to him.

“What did he say?”

“He said he’ll meet us in a couple of hours, after he’s done with his boxing practice.” Jin informed him as he gave a sign to the bartender to give him another glass of beer.

“Good.” Pi said and he also asked the bartender to give him one.

“Why do you suddenly want to meet him anyway? I don’t understand, and earlier what was that all about with Ryo? You made me look like a complete idiot trying to keep him from getting any nearer to you in the car. What’s going on, Pi?” Jin was curious of his best friend’s actions. He tried to ask several times but when he was about to open his mouth, Yamapi shushed him, preventing him from saying anything in front of Ryo. And that only made him more curious.

“Well first of all, you don’t need me to make you look like an idiot, you already are.”

“Pi!” Jin protested.

Pi smiled, “And secondly, you will see. I’ll just have to clear everything up with Ueda first until I’m really sure what is going on.”

Jin just gave him a nod. “Okay then. Hey look! Ryo-chan is already drunk. Man he drinks a lot these days.”

Pi just sighed as he looked at Ryo who was sitting not far from them with his head on the table. “Yeah, let’s go to him!”

“Princess…” Jin and Pi heard Ryo murmur.

“He’s murmuring princess again, he’s been saying that word a lot too these days, especially when he’s drunk.” Jin said, taking a seat next to Ryo who rested his head on the table helplessly.

Two hours had past and the two best friends decided Ryo shouldn’t take anymore drinks.

“That’s enough Ryo, come on we’ll take you home.”

“But I missed my princess~~ where is she Pi?” Ryo lifted his head, hand clutching on Pi’s shirt and shaking him lightly.

“You’ll meet her soon Ryo, she’s coming.” Pi said, resisting the urge to say ‘he’ instead of ‘she’.

“Really, Pi?”

Yamapi nodded and smiled. “Yes, really Ryo.” Pi encircled Ryo’s arm over his shoulder, and gave a sign to Jin to do the same with Ryo’s other arm and they both helped Ryo walk, taking him out from the club.

----

“Are you sure it is alright if we leave him alone?” Jin asked as he and Pi helped Ryo to lie down on his bed. They had managed to take Ryo back to his apartment.

“Yeah, I think it’s alright. He’s sleeping anyway.”

“Princess…”Ryo mumbled again in his sleep.

“Hey why don’t you text Ueda and tell him where to meet us.” Pi asked his best friend.

Jin nodded and took out his cellphone. “You know, I just remember Ryo used to call Ueda ‘prissy princess’” Jin said, smiling at the fact. “What a coincidence, ne?”

Yamapi gave a bitter laugh. “Yeah, what a coincidence.”

---

“Uebo should be here any minute.” Jin said as he closed his phone. He just called Ueda and asked where he was. “I still don’t understand what’s going on Pi.”

“Soon you will.” Pi said with a serious tone, making Jin more curious than he already was. Pi said nothing for the next few minutes, thinking deeply on what he should ask Ueda. He still couldn’t believe the fact that it was Ueda all along, that he was the person Ryo had been looking for, dreaming about and the person Ryo gave a ring to, not just any ring but an engagement ring. It was almost impossible for Ryo to settle down, or so Pi had thought. And the fact that the person Ryo wanted to settle down with was the same person Pi thought to be Ryo’s sworn enemy, the same person Ryo always mocked and insulted every time they were in the same room.

“Ah, there’s Uebo!” Jin said, breaking Pi’s thoughts. “Uebo! Here!” Jin waved his hand to the figure standing at the entrance of the bar.

“Hey, been here long?” Ueda greeted as he approached the two men.

“No, we just arrived, didn’t we Pi?”

Yamapi smiled and nodded his head. “Yeah. hey Ueda.” he greeted the boxer.

“Hey, Yamashita.” Ueda sat next to them and gave a sign to the bartender to give him some beer.

“Call me Pi, all my friends call me Pi and you’re my friend too.” Pi said, giving a smile to Ueda and tapped his shoulder in a friendly way.

Ueda smiled. “Okay…Pi.” Pi was never his friend, Ueda thought. Sure they were in the same company and he was his band mate’s best friend, but he never talked to him or hung out with him outside work. So he never considered Yamapi his friend.

“That’s better, can I call you Tatchan?” Pi asked.

“Sure,” Ueda smiled, although he was slightly confused at Yamapi’s sudden act of friendliness.

“Jin called you Uebo,” Yamapi turned to face Jin who was grinning at his statement. “Can I call you that too?” he turned his head to face Ueda again.

“Sure.” Ueda nodded again.

“How bout princess?” Pi said, sounding a little too accustomed to the term and Ueda’s eyes widened at that. “Or is it only Ryo who can call you that?” Yamapi continued.

“W-What do you mean?” Ueda tried to keep his voice stable, while in fact he was nervous inside, scared as to what Yamapi was implying with his question.

“You know exactly what I mean,” Pi smirked before he continued, “Don’t you, princess?”

“N-Nishikido called me that to mock me.” Ueda said, stating the fact that everybody knew.

“Oh really?” Pi asked, his voice sounding a little amused by the statement. “I thought it’s a term of endearment,” he continued. “You know… his pet name for you.”

“N-no it’s not, why would he give me a pet name?” Ueda tried to force a smile and drank his beer.

“Well people usually have pet names for their lovers.” Pi said simply, causing Ueda to choke on his beer and apparently so did Jin.

“L-lover?” Ueda stuttered, what was Yamapi trying to say? Did he know about him and Ryo?

“Yeah lover, that’s what you are to Ryo, aren’t you?” Pi asked, his face was serious this time, no smirk could be seen on his face and Ueda didn’t know what to answer. Pi knew! How did he find out?

“I-I don’t know what you’re talking about! Nishikido hates me, why would I be his lover?” Ueda was still trying to hide the truth.

“Yeah Pi, are you drunk already? It’s Ueda we’re talking to here. He and Ryo-chan hates each other.” Jin finally said, and Ueda was glad that his friend decided to help him.

“Yeah, I thought so too, until I saw this.” Pi opened Jin’s laptop and showed it to the man sitting next to him, and Ueda’s eyes shot wide.

“I-It…It’s-“

“It’s your messages to Ryo. I transferred them from Ryo’s phone.” Pi informed him, a satisfied smile appeared on his face as he saw Ueda’s panicked expression.

“What? Let me see!” Jin demanded and turned the laptop to face him. “Oh My God! What is this Pi?” Jin turned to face Ueda who still had a shocked look on his face. “Uebo? Is this true?”

Ueda couldn’t say a word, his lips were gaping as if they were trying to say something, but no words came out from them. “You are Ryo’s lover aren’t you?” Pi finally asked the question he had been wanting to ask that entire night.

Ueda nodded weakly, knowing his secret had been revealed and he was unable to deny it anymore. “Yes I was.”

“What do you mean ‘was’?” Pi asked, confused by Ueda’s sentence.

“He doesn’t remember me.” Ueda said sadly, his hands were shaking as he held his glass of beer. Pi pitied him for his condition. At first he was a little mad at the fact that his best friend was hiding a secret from him, but now he was looking at a man who was hurting inside knowing the fact that his lover didn’t remember ever being with him. Ueda must have been hurt all this time.

“But that doesn’t mean that he completely forgot about you. He keeps on dreaming about you.” Pi tried to raise hope in Ueda.

“He does?” And it almost worked.

Pi nodded, “He still can’t remember who you are, but he knows he has a lover. Well, he thinks he has a girlfriend though.” Pi chuckled at the last words.

“Did he know about these?” Ueda pointed at the laptop screen.

Yamapi shook his head. “No, I haven’t told him anything yet. I transferred them from Ryo’s phone and cleared his inbox. So far he doesn’t know about these messages.”

“Please don’t tell him, Pi.” Ueda pleaded.

“Why not?”

“He’s not ready. He still thinks we’re enemies. If he knows that we are exactly the opposite, I’m afraid the truth will hurt him.”

“But he deserves to know, he’s been trying to find you, to remember you.” Pi tried to reason.

“Not now Pi, if we told him now, I’m sure his brain can’t take it, and you know what will happen.” Ueda explained. It was true that Ryo deserved to know. Hell, all he wanted to do was to tell Ryo and to jump at him claiming the Sexy Osaka Man to be his. But he knew he couldn’t, not when Ryo still thinks that he was his enemy.

“He’s right Pi, hell even I was surprised. I don’t know if Ryo can take the truth if he finds out.” Again Ueda should thank Jin for taking his side.

Pi gave a knowing sigh, “But he’s suffering now, and I know you are suffering too.”

“I can take it, Pi, but I don’t know if I can take it seeing Ryo hurt, and the worst possibility that he could-“ Ueda wasn’t able to continue. “Just please don’t tell him yet, okay?”

“Okay, but what are you going to do?” Pi asked in concern, knowing it was not easy for Ueda to handle this alone.

“I need to get him closer to me first, not as an enemy, but as a friend at least. I will try to get him to like me, and if he can accept me in his life, I’m sure by the time he remembers that we’re lovers, everything would be okay.” Ueda explained his plan.

“Okay, you’re right I guess, but are you sure you can do this?” Pi asked again.

“I have to do this, this is the only way.”

“Okay then, I hope you know what you’re doing.” Ueda smiled and nodded. “If you need our help, we are here for you and for Ryo too.” Yamapi said, patting Ueda’s shoulder to comfort him.

Ueda was partly glad that Yamapi and Jin found out about this secret. He was glad he had someone to talk to about this. All this time he carried this burden alone on his shoulders, but now he was glad he could at least share it with them.

---TBC ---.

Come As You Are 8

2008-11-09T16:00:52Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: after strugling a week of chickenpox, i came out with this...but to tell you the truth i dont really like this chapter, it tells how sick i was...LOL

“Ryo?” Yamapi asked as he took a seat next to the Osakan man. “Is something wrong?”

“I dreamed of her, Pi.” Ryo answered, his hand was still playing with his beer glass, and the liquor remained untouched.

“The ‘Princess’?”

Ryo nodded weakly. “I dreamed of her, but I couldn’t see her face. It was blurry, but somehow I knew she was beautiful.”

“Eh? How could you not see her face? And how would you know she’s beautiful if you didn’t see her face?” Pi questioned, tilting his head in confusion.

“I told you it was blurry, and I just know!” Ryo couldn’t quite explain. “And I also know that…”He paused for a while, “…that I love her Pi. My heart says that I love her.” Ryo finally turned to face his best friend. “But how come I don’t remember her? How come she hasn’t contacted me? How come you don’t know her? I’ve asked everyone I know, but no one knows her Pi. It’s like she never existed!”

“Maybe she does. Maybe she’s just your imagination.” Pi said, teasing and nudging at Ryo’s shoulder playfully, but Ryo just rolled his eyes.

“I’m the sexy Osaka man, Pi! I don’t have to be delusional to have a girlfriend! I don’t need to!”

“Hey, I said maybe!” Pi chuckled.

“But what if…” Ryo started again, head returned to facing down the table.

“What if what?”

“What if she does not exist…..anymore?”

“What do you mean?”

“In my dream, she….” He paused again, afraid of what was coming from his own mouth next. “She jumped off a building Pi. I tried to stop her, but I was too late. What if she actually has….passed away?”

“Ryo…”

“Oh God! What if the love of my live is gone? I don’t even remember her and now she’s gone?” Ryo started to panic with the thought. What if what happened in the dream was based on reality, what if the girl that he had been looking for really had jumped from a building and died? “Oh God, my head again!” Ryo screamed as he felt the pain in his head again.

“Ryo-chan!” Pi held Ryo’s shoulder in worry. “Stop doing this, Ryo-chan. You’re only hurting yourself.”

“But I have to remember her, Pi! I need to remember her!” Ryo insisted, but his head wouldn’t cooperate and the pain was getting stronger.

“You will Ryo, you will…it just takes time. But you will” Pi promised. “Now let’s go, I better take you home!”

Ryo unwillingly nodded and let Pi help him stand and guided him out of the bar “Thanks Pi.” He murmured.

-----

Ueda woke up early that morning. He prepared lunch again for Ryo and this time he was determined not to let any NEWS member or anyone ruin his plan to have lunch with Ryo again.

He was smiling on his way to the NEWS dressing room, skipping happily as he couldn’t wait to see Ryo again. He stopped in front of the slightly ajar door and smiled when he heard the same voice singing the same song like he heard yesterday. He closed his eyes to remember the sweet memory again. He just loved it every time Ryo played that song for him, the song about Ryo’s love towards him. Hearing the song made him stronger and assured him that he still had a chance. Ryo still had that love deep down inside him, and all he needed to do was bring them to surface so that Ryo could remember and be with him again.

“Who’s there?” the music suddenly stopped as Ryo noticed someone at the door.

“I-umm…I..” Ueda slowly opened the door to reveal himself. He quickly scanned the room. Clear, no pigs. He smiled in relief.

“Donkey face?” Ryo was rather surprised seeing Ueda at the door.

Ueda grinned foolishly, “Yeah I was just-” he didn’t have a chance to finish his sentence as Ryo suddenly cut him off.

“What are you doing there? Stalking me?” Ryo asked with a smirk. Oh how Ueda loved and hated that smirk at the same time.

“No!” came his quick reply which earned a chuckle from Ryo. He hesitated for a while before saying, “I …I just came to bring you this.” he walked closer and put a lunch box on the table. “I want to thank you for yesterday… for the-umm…the lunch.” he smacked himself mentally for being nervous. Those words didn’t come out the way he wanted them to.

“Oh,” Ryo replied. “Thanks, you didn’t have to do it though, but thanks” he added.

“Ye-yeah....” Damn, why couldn’t he say anything besides stuttering?

There was an awkward silence as Ueda opened and closed his mouth repeatedly trying to say something but no words were coming from his mouth. Why was he nervous anyway?

Ryo saw Ueda holding another lunch box. “And that’s for..?”

“Huh?” Ueda didn’t know what Ryo was asking, but then he noticed Ryo’s eyes were on the other box in his hand. “Oh! It-it’s for me…it’s my lunch,” he cursed himself again. Stop stuttering dammit! “I-I was just on my way ….to have lunch.”

“Alone again?” Ryo asked, raising his eyebrows. Ueda nodded and Ryo laughed, “You’re so pathetic!” came the insult but then he put down his guitar and went to the table to grab a seat. “You can have your lunch here.”

“Huh?”

“I said eat here! Are you deaf or something?”

Ueda took the seat rather hesitantly, his hands shaking when he grabbed a chair next to Ryo. He sat himself down with the speed of a turtle, not knowing what to do or say as he was so close to Ryo who was opening the lunch box he prepared for him.

Ryo grabbed a bite of the lunch, “Hmm…it’s good, not bad for someone like you,” he savored the meat ball. “But I have the best recipe for this, you should try it sometimes!”

Ueda did a happy dance in his head as he knew what Ryo was implying. My plan worked! I’m having lunch with Ryo again and he will cook for me next time! He smiled in victory.

“Ne, donkey face.”

“Hmm?”

“Are we still on bad terms?”

“What do you mean?”

“This past three years. I can’t remember anything but,” he stopped to grab another meatball, liking the taste of Ueda’s cooking. He ate them eagerly. “Are we still on bad terms?” he continued.

“You mean are you still insulting me and am I still crying over it?” Ueda chuckled and Ryo nodded. “Kind of, we still fight sometimes, but I don’t cry anymore though.”

“Oh…good then,” Ryo smiled. “I saw Shounen Club Premium the other night. I’m glad you’ve decided to stop trying to be someone else.” Ueda just nodded “I’m glad you decided to be yourself,” Ryo continued. “Even though I still think you look like a girl, but if being a girl means you’re being yourself then…” he took another bite, “Then I think it’s good.”

Ueda rolled his eyes, “I’m not a girl, Ryo!” he protested.

Ryo laughed, “You sure look like one!” Ueda pouted but inside he was smiling like mad.

Much to Ueda’s disappointment, their wonderful moment had to be interrupted as Yamapi entered the room, looking for Ryo. “Ryo! Practice starts in 5 minutes!” Pi said as he found Ryo sitting in the middle of the room, he noticed that Ryo wasn’t alone. “Oh, hey Ueda!” he greeted the KAT-TUN member.

“Hi, Yamashita!” Ueda greeted back, he noticed Pi giving a questioning look at his band mate, but Ryo didn’t get the clue.

“Ryo let’s go, the choreographer is not in a good mood today, I think he woke up on the wrong side of his bed, or probably his boyfriend woke up in someone else’s bed.” He said grumpily. Pi noticed the lunch on the table and boldly took the last meatball from Ryo’s box.

“Hey!” Ryo protested but it was too late as Pi already put the food inside his mouth. He sighed before getting up from his seat. “Okay, just a sec.” he tried to clean up the empty box but Ueda’s hand slapped his away.

“No, leave it. I’ll take care of this, you go ahead.” He told the Osakan.

“You sure?”

Ueda nodded, assuring the younger man to leave the mess to him. “Yeah, you better hurry up to practice now, you know how bitchy a choreographer can be!”

“Okay then, thanks for the lunch!” Ryo gave up and let Ueda clean up. He smiled to Ueda before walking out the dressing room with Pi following him.

“What was that?” Pi asked as they reached the hallway.

“What was what?” Ryo asked back, not knowing what Pi was asking about.

“You were having lunch.” Pi stated obviously as if it was something out of the ordinary. Well it was, to Pi.

“So?”

“With Ueda.”

“Yeah…anything wrong with that?” Ryo turned to face his best friend, raising his eyebrow.

“EVERYTHING is wrong! You guys hated each other’s guts! You two never survived in the same room without bickering at each other. And now you’re eating with him?” Pi was definitely confused. The view he had just seen was a very rare view, the kind he thought he never would see in his entire life knowing Ryo.

“Hey, I can be nice sometimes you know.” Ryo said, with a small laugh.

“Not to him you don’t!”

Ryo didn’t reply back and just laughed, leaving a confused Yamapi behind.

---

“Wow you’re grinning!” Maru asked as Ueda stepped inside KAT-TUN’s rehearsal room.

“Yeah, and just now Jin was grinding too, but against Kame! Eww~ and that’s gross.” Taguchi added, trying to make a pun from the word.

“…”

“Anyway, why are you smiling?” Maru resumed his attention on Ueda, ignoring and pretending not to hear Taguchi.

“Why not? Is it a crime now to smile?” Ueda asked back. He put his empty lunch boxes inside his bag, smiling again before zipping the bag close.

“No, it’s just that we haven’t seen you smiling in weeks. Something good happened?” Maru asked again as Ueda stood beside him, positioning himself in the formation.

“Yes, something really good.” Ueda confirmed, smiling widely.

“Good for you then.”

---

Ryo was sitting in the dressing room alone, he had just finished his practice that night. He was supposed to go drinking with Pi and Jin again, but he couldn’t find Pi anywhere. “Where’s that Yamapig?” He decided to sit and wait in the dressing room. He took a seat on the couch and grabbed his guitar again.

“Ryo!” suddenly Yamapi appeared by the door.

“Yamapi!! I’ve waited here for like an hour! You moron!” He said, sounding upset.

“You’re the moron! I texted you, I was waiting in the car with Jin already.”

“Didn’t get any message.” Ryo replied.

Pi snorted at Ryo’s reply, “Where’s your phone?” He asked and Ryo pointed the table.

Pi walked to the table to grab the phone and opened it. “No wonder! Your inbox is full!” he stated as he checked the inbox folder. “1600 messages Ryo???”

“Yeah well I’m too lazy to erase them.” Ryo said plainly. He put down his guitar and got up from the couch.

“All you have to do is press the delete button!” Pi said, snorting again.

“Yeah well you do it for me,” Ryo said as he passed by Yamapi and tapped his shoulder “I’m going to the bathroom first.”

“Hurry! Jin is waiting in the car. We should go soon before he becomes a boiling shrimp!” he told Ryo and Ryo just waved his hand, signaling he understood.

Pi opened the box and snorted again for the third time. “Geezz what kind of guy keeps 1600 messages in his phone?” he checked the messages in Ryo’s phone one by one.

“From me, me, Jin, me, Tego, his mom, Jin, well I can erase these...” he pressed down the button to see more messages.

“Tego, me, Jin, Jin, Yuu, me, princess, me,…eh?” Pi suddenly stopped, realizing something. “Princess?”

He scrolled down only to find more messages from the name he kept hearing about the past two days. “Princess, princess, princes…they are all for princess!” he learned. “The flooding inbox was because he was keeping this princess’s messages.”

Pi couldn’t help but to feel curious about these messages, and so he decided to open one of them.

Ryo, I’m so happy about last night. Thank you my love

Take care and have a pleasant trip to Osaka

Love you! *kiss*

Hime

Pi looked at the date and time on the message. “It was on the day of Ryo’s accident. So that means…she’s not dead. She’s still alive…but why didn’t she contact Ryo?”

Pi scrolled down and opened another message.

Ryo, I’m sorry. The choreographer-san was being an ass again. he wanted us to stay longer. I might be late. If you’re hungry you can order first, don’t let yourself starve to death waiting for me…^_^

Love you!

Your hime

Choreographer? She’s a dancer? His curiosity was getting him for sure, so he boldly opened another one.

Ryo,

How’s Osaka? I missed you here!

Hime

Pi looked at the sender number, I don’t recognize this number. He grabbed his cell phone and dialed the number to see if it would reveal any name on his screen, but all he could see was just numbers.

I was right, it’s not in my phonebook. Who could she be? Hime? The name sounds familiar though.

“Pi!” Yamapi’s thoughts were disturbed when a high pitched voice was heard from the doorway. “What took you so long? I almost died waiting in the car!”

“Ryo needed to go to the bathroom first.”

“Oh.” Jin walked closer and slumped himself on to the couch.

“Ne, Jin,” Pi started, he didn’t know whether Jin knew the number or not, but it’s worth a try, he thought.

“Hmm?”

“Do you happen to know this number?” Pi showed the number on his phone to Jin.

Jin furrowed his eyebrows to think. “Hmm…It looks familiar, wait… ”Jin took out his phone from his pocket and dialed the number, and a name appeared on the screen.

“Oh, it’s Uebo’s.”

Yamapi’s eyes shot wide.

TBC

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Extra note:

Minna first of all I’d like to say sorry, *bows* I'm on this war with resha_hime So I’m a afraid I can’t update next chapter unless she update her fic. So if you want me to update this quickly....help me put a knife to her throat and make her update !!!!

Part of me - Erilogue

2008-11-03T14:44:31Z

Title: Part Of Me- the erilogue ( no it's not a typo)
Pairing: RyoDa
Warning!: a really sweet-fluffy-tooth-decaying-fic. Mind your blood sugar level!

It was not until two years later that Ueda was finally pregnant again (yes, it actually took that long for Shia to remember the spell again). He was supposed to be happy when the doctor informed him about his pregnancy, but on the contrary he was confused. Confused as to whether or not he should be happy and tell Ryo about the news they have been waiting for so long or should he tell Shia to undo the spell before she forgot again how to undo it. It was not because Ueda wasn’t happy that he was pregnant, he was. But he just couldn’t help to think what if Ryo found out that their plan had succeeded and he would stop having sex with him? Ueda thought that the only reason Ryo had sex with him, almost everyday, was just because he wanted to have another child with him.

Ueda carried the sleeping Ryu and put him carefully on to his bed. He brushed a strand of hair that was coffering his angelic face, kissing him goodnight before pulling up the blanket to cover him. He caressed his son’s check lovingly and just smiled adoring the that cute face that had always brought joy to his heart, after a long hours of tiring rehearsal, endless photo shoots and exhausting Cartoon KAT-TUN shooting.

Suddenly he felt a puff of air on his right ear as a voice whispered on to it, sending shiver down to his spine. “Tadaima,” Ryo said before he licked Ueda’s ear gently, causing Ueda to sighed in content.

“Damn you Ryo! You almost caused me a heart attack!” Ueda tried to sound angry but he knew he failed as he smiled instead and said “Okaeri.”

“You should keep your voice down princess, Ryu is sleeping.” Ryo shushed him with a kiss.

---

“What do you mean you just picked up Ryu? I thought your practice was over hours ago?” Ryo said when they both reached their bedroom.

“It was but-” Ueda didn’t manage to finish as Ryo cut him in the middle of his sentence.

“Did you go out somewhere after that?”

“Yes I did, I-” Ryo cut him again.

“Geezz princess that’s very irresponsible of you! I thought we have agreed that whoever finishes work first must pick Ryu up and spend time with him. You know we didn’t get to meet him a lot and he needs all the attention he can get. I don’t want him to grow without the love and attention from his parents. It’s hard enough we both have to work and he has to spend most of his day in either your parent’s or your sister’s house. And now you’re telling me that you rather go out with your friend and have fun, than to play and spend time with your son? I can’t believe you Ueda!” Ryo said in a mouthful.

“But Ryo that’s not-”

“Don’t try to make any excuse Ueda!” he shouted, feeling very angry and disappointed.

“I was trying to make excuses damnit! If you would stop bickering for a one freaking moment you would know that what I was trying to say was that I didn’t pick up Ryu earlier and went somewhere instead was because I went to the hospital and if you just listen to me you’ll know that I’m pregnant!”

“What?”

Ueda sighed, exhausted from blurting out everything in a single breath. “Yes Ryo, I’m finally pregnant again.” He confirmed.

Ryo was overjoyed to say anything and just grabbed Ueda and kissed him senselessly, and Ueda more than happy to kiss back.

----

It wasn’t that hard for the others to find out about his pregnancy, especially when in a typical morning Ueda suddenly rushed trough the rehearsal room to the bathroom, coming back looking all green, crying hysterically when Koki step in to his feet accidentally, and yelled at his stylist for putting the wrong gel to his perfect hair. They knew he was pregnant.

Ueda didn’t really enjoy being pregnant again. He hated feeling like shit. His stomach ached like hell, he hated the severe headache, the unfit jeans and the growing belly. But one thing he knew he would love being pregnant, was the fact the he could torture Ryo again. Oh how Ueda love to make Ryo run down from the jimusho building to a 10 blocks away convenience store to get him a bear-shaped lollipop. And one thing he loved the most, is how sexy a panting Ryo looked like.

----

On his 4^th month of pregnancy Johnny gave him a hiatus. When he learned that Ueda was pregnant again, the old man just facepalmed himself and quickly called his secretary to get him aspirin and dialed all the connection he could get to take care of things. And Ueda couldn’t be more relieved.

Ueda was happy he could spend more time with Ryu at home now that he didn’t have to go to work for at least a few months. Ryu was beyond happy when he found out that he was going to have a little sister. Ryo told him that the baby inside his mommy’s tummy is a girl, and her name is Eri. Ueda beamed at Ryo and gave him a nudge “What? It IS a girl! I knew it and I’m sure this time” he reasoned and Ueda just sighed.

Ryu had a habit just like his father. He liked to kiss Ueda’s round belly and talked to his unborn little sister. “Mommy, when will Eri coming out?” Ryu asked with his cute little expression that made Ueda’s heart filled with bliss.

“In a few months sweetheart.” Ueda answered with a smile

“I cant wait!” Ryu said happily.

---

When Ueda was in his 9th month, only a few days left to his labor day, Ryo was home earlier. He opened the door to Ueda’s apartment and when he was about to greet him, he stopped as he saw view that made him slime. Ueda was sitting on the couch, reading a story, with Ryu sitting on his laps, head leaned to Ueda’s chest, and Ueda’s hand was brushing his son’s hair lovingly.

“Daddy!” Ryu exclaimed when he noticed Ryo was standing by the doorway.

“Tadaima.”

“Okaeri.” Ueda greeted back and Ryu climbed down from his lap and ran to hug his father.

Ryo kneeled down so that he was eye-leveled with his son and kissed him on the forehead. “Have you being a good boy today?”

Ryu nodded. “Yes! I always have!”

Ryo smiled and ruffled his son’s hair. “Good, now can you ask your mommy to pack your things because tonight you are going to sleep at grandma’s house.”

“Really?” Ryu asked excitingly and Ryo nodded. “Yey! I missed grandma!”

Ueda was confused. “Grandma? What do you mean?”

Ryo approached Ueda and gave him a light peck on the cheek. “I mean he is going to sleep over at your parent’s house tonight.”

“But why?”

“Because you and me have a place to visit tonight.” Ryo answered. “Just prepare Ryu’s stuff now and get dress, I’ll be back as soon as I’ve dropped Ryu to your parent’s house.”

Ueda helped Ryu to prepare his things, still confused about Ryo’s plan. He kissed his son goodbye before Ryo took their little child by the hand and left him bewilderedly. Ueda furrowed his eyebrows to think, that was when he remembered something. How could he forget? It’s Ryos’ birthday today! And Ryo is going to take him out to celebrate.

He was panicked. He didn’t prepare any present for Ryo.

A few hours later Ryo came back and Ueda was dressed, ready to go out with him. “Ready princess?”

Ueda nodded. “Where are you taking me?”

“Dinner.” Ryo answered simply.

“Which restaurant?”

“You’ll see.”

Ryo drove his car outside the building. Ueda noticed that Ryo didn’t take him to Shibuya, or Roppongi, or any place in downtown Tokyo where they usually have famous restaurants. Maybe Ryo want to take me to some place new, he thought.

He was confused when suddenly Ryo’s car enter a housing neighborhood. Which restaurant does Ryo want to take me exactly?. He looked at his surroundings and he could only see houses, big traditional and modern houses along the way.

“What is this place?” he asked as he couldn’t stand being confused.

“Nice is it? It’s a good environment for a family to live.”

Ueda just nodded in agreement not exactly knew what Ryo had meant by that. But he had to admit that the environment indeed peaceful and nice. It was already dark but he could still picture what the neighborhood would look like during day time.

Ryo’s car stopped. He blinked several times when he looked his surrounding and found no restaurants what so ever. “Where’s the restaurant?”

“Who says anything about restaurant?” Ryo smirked. “Come on!” Ryo took Ueda’s hand and guided him out from the car. They walked a few meters from were Ryo had parked his car.

With a happy smile adorning his face, Ryo stopped in front of a house and Ueda winced as he realized where Ryo had taken him. “What is this? Are you taking me to have dinner in a haunted house?”

“It’s not haunted!” Ryo retorted. “Well not that I know of,” Ryo turned on his flash light, beamed the limited light to the dark house so that Ueda could see better.

“Just look at it and picture it without the cobweb, the peeled paint, the messy ruins, It’s actually a beautiful house. And it’s a good environment to raise children too, look the front yard! It’s large. Ryu and Eri could play here without having to go to the street or the park.” Ryo explained enthusiastically.

“What are you saying?” Ueda glared at Ryo, he didn’t like the way this conversation was going.

“I’m saying that we should move here!” Ryo confirmed.

“What? In this haunted house??”

“It’s not haunted!” Ryo retorted again. ” Just….just come in side, you’ll see how nice the house is!” Ryo said before he grabbed Ueda’s wrist and dragged him inside the house.

“And what about the ghosts? Are they nice too?” Ueda mumbled.

Ryo took Ueda inside and started to tour Ueda around the house. “This is the living room” he said when they reached the spacious room not far from the front door. “It even has a fireplace!” He said and pointed the light to the fireplace. “Or whatever remained from it. But we could always fix it.” He grinned when he saw Ueda rolled his eyes.

“And this is the kitchen. It’s a very spacious kitchen. I can so totally enjoy my time here. Oh and you could cook too!” Ryo continued as he their reached the so called kitchen.

“Take a look at the stairs, is not too steep, so it’s not too dangerous for Ryu and Eri.” Ryo said as he guided Ueda upstairs.

“This is Ryu’s and Eri’s room next to each other. And that is an extra room incase we want to have another baby.” Ryo grinned and Ueda shot his death glare again.

“So? What do you think?” Ryo asked when the went downstairs again.

“About what?”

“About the house you moron!”

“You mean other than creepy?” Ryo pouted at Ueda’s comment. “It’s nice. But you really need to a lot of work” Ueda continued and Ryo smiled happily. “A LOT of work!” he added.

“Yeah I know,” Ryo agreed. “But wait, you haven’t seen the best part yet.” Ryo grabbed Ueda’s hand again and guided him to the last part of the house. “This is the best part of the house.” Ryo opened the door slowly and Ueda gasped. “Our room.” Ryo added. “It’s huge right? And the bathroom is big, you have to see the bath room, it is way bigger than your bathroom, we could even put Jacuzzi in there!” Ryo said excitedly. But Ueda didn’t say a word, his eyes was still set on the center of the room.

“Ryo…” Ueda whispered, his mouth hung open trying to say something but he was unable to form any appropriate word.

Ryo noticed and a smirk grew on his lips. “Oh yeah, I forgot. I’ve prepared dinner for us,” Ryo said pretending to forget the obvious dinner set he had prepared. In the middle of the room lies a carpet, complete with dinner plates, wine and candles everywhere to illuminate and gave a romantic effect to the dark room.

“We are going to have dinner in a haunted house?” Ueda finally woke up from his gaze and stared at Ryo whose expression changed from grinning to pouting.

“How many times do I have to tell you, it’s not haunted!” Ryo protested again. “And incase you didn’t know it’s called romantic candle light dinner princess!” Ryo snorted.

“Come on!” Ryo guided Ueda to the dinner set. Ueda sat down on the carpet and his eyes couldn’t stop staring at Ryo who was busy preparing the dinner.

“So, do you like it? The house I mean” Ryo asked again as he served the dinner on Ueda’s plate.

“Yes I do,” Ueda answered with a smile.

“Then you agree to move?” Ryo asked, full of hope.

“Maybe,”

“Good, we move as soon as Eri is born!” Ryo said excitingly. “So let’s celebrate!” Ryo lifted the bottle of wine, popped it open and poured the liquid to the glasses. “To our new house!” Ryo said as he lifted his glass.

Ueda nodded and lifted his glass too. “To the creepy house!” he said and Ryo pouted again. “And happy birthday to you!” Ueda added.

“Oh you DO remember?”

“Yes I did Ryo,” Ueda half lied, the truth was he didn’t remember until a few hours ago.

“Then happy birthday to me!” Ryo lifted his glass again, and Ueda smiled lifting his glass too.

“So where’s my present?”

“Well….that…”

“I knew it, you DID forget.” Ryo said disappointedly.

“Okay, I did,” Ueda admitted. “I’m sorry. I’ll make it up to you.” He said apologetically.

“How?”

“I will do whatever you ask me to do.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Anything?” A smirk grew on Ryo’s lips.

“Somehow I regretted saying that,” Ueda said and Ryo raised his eyebrow. “Okay, really.” Ueda said helplessly.

“Good, cause I do have something to ask you.”

“I hope it’s not something kinky.”

“Oh come on you love it when I’m being kinky!” Ueda rolled his eyes. “Don’t worry it’s not.” Ryo assured “Although I wouldn’t mind if it comes as a bonus.” He smiled pervetedly and Ueda rolled his eyes egain..

Ryo slowly took something out from the pocket of his jacket. And Ueda was taken by surprise once again as he realized what kind of box it was.

“I want to ask you to marry me.” Ryo asked as he opened the box.

Ueda’s mouth left hang open, unable to find a word to say. Ryo’s word had taken him by surprise. He thought about what had happened between them these past two years. Sure they had been living together, raising a cute little boy, had sex like a normal couple, all the life a family could have. But he knew one thing is missing. When he started to missed Ryo’s presence, when he felt happy for the attention Ryo gave, when he knew he had grown feeling for the younger man, and when he hoped the other would return his feeling, he knew he needed more. Sure they had sex almost everyday, but words of love were never exchange between them.

“I don’t want you to marry me because it’s a right thing to do Ryo. We have Ryu and now we are about to have another baby. But that doesn’t mean we have to be married Ryo. I don’t want you to feel obliged to marry me.”

Ryo couldn’t believe that was Ueda thought about his intention. “If I feel that way, wouldn’t I asked you to marry me the first time I knew you were pregnant with Ryu? Or the moment Ryu was born?” Ryo crawled closer to Ueda and lifted the older man’s chin to look at him. “I’m not asking you to marry me because I have to Ueda.”

“Then why?”

“Sometimes you are more stupid than Jin,” Ryo smiled. “I want you to marry me because I love you,” He kissed Ueda gently. “And I can’t picture anyone else to spend the rest of my life with and raise my children with.”

Ueda didn’t know what to say. He rewind what Ryo had said in his head, and he knew he didn’t misinterpret it when Ryo said that he loved him. Ryo finally returned his feeling, and Ueda was too happy to say anything. So he leaned closer and kissed Ryo instead.

” I’ll take that as a yes,” Ryo said as they broke the kiss. Ueda smiled and captured Ryo’s lips again. Ueda put his hand around Ryo’s neck and he bit on Ryo’s lower lip. The Osakan gasped and Ueda smirked before he took the chance to slip his tongue inside the other's mouth. Ryo slowly guided Ueda to lie down on the carpet. Ueda didn’t know when did Ryo manage to put aside all the plates and glasses, but he couldn’t care less. Ryo trailed kisses on Ueda’s face down to his jaw line, his neck. Planted love bites all over his neck. He lifted Ueda’s shirt and kissed Ueda’s chest, nibbling, sucking and licking Ueda’s nipples, causing Ueda to moan in pleasure. But suddenly,

“Arrgh!! My stomach!”

Ryo looked up to the ceiling. “Why? Why? Why? Why does it always have to happen at the time like this???”

----

Ueda slowly opened his eyes and adjusted the light of the hospital room. When he turned his head to his left, he saw the most beautiful view of his life. Ryo was sitting in a chair right beside his bed and was holding a little baby in his arms and he greeted Ueda with a smile.

“Hey,”

“Hey,” Ueda turned his gaze to the baby in Ryo’s arm. “Is that…?”

Ryo nodded. “Princess, meet your daughter Eri.”

Ueda took the baby in to his hand and played with her little finger “Ryo she is so beautiful. She is like an angel.”

Ryo agreed and sat beside Ueda to caress his baby. “I told you we would have a baby girl.”

Ueda just nodded and smiled. He leaned to Ryo’s shoulder as Ryo began to sing to their baby.

“Ne, Princess..”

“Hmm?”

“I’m glad KAT-TUN decided to drink with Kanjani, I’m glad your fairy is stupid and forgetful, and I’m really really really glad we were drunk.”

Ueda smiled and gave Ryo a light kiss on the cheek. “I’m glad that you love me.”

“I’m glad you love me back,” Ryo said as he kissed Ueda back on the forehead.

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Author’s rant:

Pheeew… I made it!!! I thought I wouldn’t be able to post finish this today. So it’s unbeta-ed since I was afraid I wouldn’t make it on time. Excuse the grammar mistakes ok? XXDDD I wrote this since yesterday but it’s toooo long, the longest chapter I have written so far, and I slept through the day because of the medicine I drank. (I got chickenpox btw *snorts*). And there’s this funny story when I went to the hospital yesterday, thinking how to write this epilogue. I met a cute guy named Eri! Hahahaha…souldnt stop laughing when I talked to him, kept picturing Ryoda baby. LOL

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this erilogue (no its not a typo).

LUV YOU ALL FOR READING!!!!! <333333333

Come As You Are 7

2008-10-25T15:38:48Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: Do I really need to write Author's note? cos i dun exactly have anything to say..XDDD
err..okay, thank you resha_hime</lj> for the beta....hmmm, what else? *thinks*
oh what the hell just read it okay? Douzo!

“Princess?” Pi read the carved name on the ring, “Do you think that’s her name?”

“I don’t know, it doesn’t ring a bell to me at all.”

“Maybe it’s a term of endearment, your pet name for her?”

Ryo furrowed his eyebrows to think, taking the ring back from Yamapi’s hand, observing the round platinum once again. “Still doesn’t ring a bell.” He said disappointedly.

“Look Ryo, a lot of people call their girlfriend princess.” Pi tried to reason. He still couldn’t quite believe that Ryo actually had a girlfriend. He knew the man next to him since their early junior days. They had been friends for years, they shared secrets, good and bad. It was kind of impossible for Ryo not to tell him anything about seeing a girl, let alone to fall in love. He would be very disappointed if Ryo indeed was seeing girl and he didn’t know anything about it. Why would Ryo keep a secret from him? “Don’t force yourself Ryo, you might hurt yourself.” Pi said a little too worried. He stepped the gas pedal again and continued driving, he needs to take Ryo home immediately.

Ryo nodded weakly, and finally gave up. He sighed and put the ring back into his pocket. But at the back of his mind he still couldn’t set his mind at ease. He wanted to know about the ring, he NEEDED to know.

----

Ueda opened the door to his bathroom. He glanced at the mirror and stepped closer to see his reflection so that he could see clearer. He opened his shirt and he could see the necklace hanging around his neck. The chain was attached to a round platinum ring, he never once took it off the silver chain.

The Sexy Osaka Man

He smiled as he read the carved writing inside the ring, what a narcissist boyfriend he had. He remembered the wonderful event he had that day, looking back to his own reflection on the mirror and he could see some slight hope glinting in his own eyes. It was just a small contact he made with Ryo, and yet it could bring so much happiness in his heart. It was falling in love all over again, not that he ever stopped loving Ryo, but the butterflies in his stomach fluttered like they did before when he heard Ryo sing a song to him for the first time.

He stepped into the shower stall, humming the melody he knew too well

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ima boku yori hitotsi futatsu saki wo
susundeta kimi no shouko ga
ukibori ni natteku chinmoku yabutte kureru kara
chigau dareka no hanashi de
geragera moriagatteru furi shiteru
demo sono egao mada mitetai kara
kotoba nomikomu

Ryo sang his new solo for the first time, live on TV. He looked at the camera determinedly, as if he wanted someone to look into his eyes while he was singing.

He meant every word he wrote, expressing his feelings with the melody, dedicated to that special person only. The person he couldn’t confess his love to.

ima ijou wo hoshigaru boku wa
seken shirazu na gaki desu ka?
motomeru yori mo ataero to satosu no desu ka?
eien nante nai yo to kensei shitemo ii
demo boku wa ne hikatte mitai tomo ni
tatoe isshun dake demo Yeah

Hoping that his message was conveyed, he ended his song and the crowd cheered for him.

He sighed and bowed to the audience before quickly running to leave the stage, heading to the place he knew he should be.

He ran as fast as he could, ignoring the people around him who were giving him questioning looks as they saw him running across the Jimusho hallway. He almost ran into people he met on the stairway, but he didn’t even stop to apologize, he just had to be there as soon as he could.

As he reached his destination, he stopped, panting hard and his knees buckled. He was sure he could’ve fainted right that moment if he didn’t remember what he was there for.

“Stop!” he shouted as he reached his hand trying to grab someone in front of him, but his feet refused to move any further.

A figure with a white sweater was standing on the edge of the rooftop, turning around as the person heard Ryo shouting.

“D-don’t do it…please…I’m sorry,” Ryo said trying to catch his breath, “I didn’t mean what I said.”

The person smiled genuinely, raven hair blown by the wind, Ryo’s already thumping heart almost stopped beating for the breath-taking beauty in front him. “You mean you didn’t mean all those word you were singing earlier?” A smile grew on the pouty lips, oh how Ryo would love to capture them with his own.

“Y-you…you saw it? You heard it?”

A nod was given to answer his question, along with a beautiful smile that almost caused Ryo’s heart to jump out from his chest.

“Then what are you still doing there?”

“Did you really mean it?”

Ryo nodded, “Every word of it.” He said convincingly

“Then save me, Ryo....”

“Wait, no!!!”

Ryo woke up screaming, his eyes shot open but he couldn’t move his body. The dream felt so real to him. The fast beating of his heart was real, the breath he couldn’t take was real, the fear as he saw the person jumping from the building, and the feeling in his heart was also real.

Was the person in his dream the one he had been looking for? But he couldn’t see the face clearly, just like a blurred image to Ryo. But he knew who ever that was, that the person was indeed beautiful, and the feeling he felt right that moment, he knew for sure…

“…I love her…”

----

Ueda could still feel a smile was plastered on his face since yesterday. He was heading to the Jimusho rooftop with lunch in his hand, hoping that he could repeat the wonderful moment he had with Ryo yesterday. He stopped when he heard a familiar voice singing a familiar song, coming from a familiar room. He took a quick look at the NEWS dressing room, finding Ryo sitting on the couch with his guitar, singing the song that made his heart flutter.

kimi wo irodoru subete no youso wo
boku ga mamotte miseyou
nani ga attemo soba ni iyou
kimi ga kanashimu subete no youso wa
boku ga ubau kara
mou sukoshi dake ai wo ai wo ai wo

afure dasu kotoba
omoikitte itta "ai shiteru..." no hazu ga
nou kara no shimei wo mata
muishiki ni boku dake no angou ni kaete

A memory flashed through Ueda’s mind as he was drowned by the song.

Ueda stretched his arm before closing his eyes and let himself fly freely from the edge of the rooftop.

“Ueda!” he heard Ryo screaming his name.

Ryo ran as fast as he could to stop Ueda but when he reached there, he was too late, Ueda had already jumped and he couldn’t stop him. His heart stopped beating. He couldn’t believe the older man had jumped. He tried so hard to resist the urge to follow Ueda and jump from the building. Tears threatened to roll down from his eyes and he couldn’t hold himself up any longer, he fell down kneeling on the concrete floor, eyes closing as he tried to hold back the tears.

But when he finally opened them and looked down, his eyes widened in shock. There was Ueda, standing on another rooftop only a few meters below him, holding his mouth, trying so hard not to laugh.

“Donkey face! That is not funny!” Ryo snapped.

“But it IS funny Nishikido! You should have seen your own face!” Ueda couldn’t hold his laughter any longer, he burst out and Ryo could only scowl in anger.

Ryo stopped when he realized that he was being watched, he turned to the door finding Ueda standing there frozen.

“Ueda?”

“Oh, sorry, I was just passing by and I heard you singing.” Ueda was brought back from his daze by Ryo’s voice.

“Mesmerized by my voice, donkey?” Ryo smirked. Ueda tried so hard not to smile and stayed calm.

“Y-you remember the song?”

“Not really, Pi gave me the whole album and asked me to memorize them. I remember some of the songs though, took a while for me to remember all. But yeah, I remember quiet a few now.”

The moment was disturbed when suddenly Koyama, Shige, Massu and Tegoshi entered the room, almost hitting Ueda in the process.

“Hi Ueda-kun! So nice for you to visit us!” Tegoshi greeted him in an overly friendly smile.

Ueda smiled back. “Actually I was just passing by on my way to-”

“Hey what’s that?” before Ueda could finish his sentence, Massu took the bag in Ueda’s hand. “Wooo! It’s a bento!” Massu opened the box inside the bag, “They look yummy~!”

Everyone went to Massu and took a peek at the bento in his hand. “Yeah they look delicious! Did you make it yourself, Ueda-kun?” Tegoshi asked excitedly. Ueda nodded to answer the question.

“Can I try some?” Massu pleaded, looking at Ueda with his best puppy in hunger eyes.

Knowing Massu’s reputation with food, Ueda smiled and nodded. “Sure!”

“Uwaa~~~ It IS delicious!”

“Can I try too?” Tego pleaded, imitating Massu’s puppy expression. Ueda cursed under his breath, but he nodded nonetheless. “Wow, you have two bentos!” Tegoshi said as he looked inside the bag again, finding another box of bento inside it.

“Wait that’s for-” before Ueda could stop him, Tegoshi had already took a shrimp from the bento box and put it into his mouth. And a few seconds later, the four members attacked the two bentos, ignoring Ueda who was helpless as he watched his effort of waking up early in the morning to make those lunches disappear in front him.

That was for Ryo, Ueda continued in his mind

Ryo just sighed seeing his band mate’s pig-like actions. He put down his guitar and walked out the dressing room, ignoring Ueda who was trying to stop him, although not a single word came out from the gaping mouth.

----

After his efforts of finding food in the cafeteria proved fruitless, leaving him disappointed as he was too late and the food was already sold out with nothing left for him, he slumped himself down onto a couch, sighing as he could hear his stomach growling in hunger. So much for the wonderful lunch he had planned. Not only was he unable to have the chance of eating with Ryo again, his lunch was taken by the four members of NEWS, leaving him in hunger. He tried closing his eyes, hoping if he allowed himself to fall asleep, the hunger would go away, at least until it was time to practice again. He still had a couple of hours to rest before KAT-TUN had to do their work again. When he was about to close his eyes, suddenly he heard the door being opened. He turned his attention to where the sound came from, and was surprised to see Ryo standing there.

“R-..Nishikido,” he tried to remember to call the younger man by his surname.

Ryo put on a straight face, didn’t greet him back and just walked in Ueda’s direction. He stopped not too far away from Ueda and put a plastic bag on top of the table in front of the couch Ueda was lying on.

“What’s that?” He asked, wondering what was inside the bag and why did Ryo put it in front of him.

“I knew those pigs ate your lunch. So here, Pi and I went for lunch earlier and…” Ryo didn’t finish his sentence, “…just eat it!” And with that he strolled away, leaving a dumbstruck Ueda behind.

Ueda took a look inside the bag, and a smile grew on his face that he was sure would still be plastered on his face till the next morning.

TBC

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Part Of Me ~ it's final!!!!

2008-10-24T16:14:59Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Supposed to be crack...but i totally failed >__<
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

A/N: It's the final everyone! ..........~~at least i think it is...~~XDDDD

Ueda groaned in pain “It hurts Ryo!”

“Yeah I know, but stop squeezing my hand! I’m driving here!” Ryo groaned, equally in pain. Ueda’s hand was gripping his left hand which was on the gear stick. Ryo was unable to concentrate on the road while he was being tortured by Ueda who was squeezing, twisting and occasionally scratching his arms. “Are you trying to break my wrist princess?”

“It’s all because of you!” Ueda said in between screams. He tried to breathe but the pain on his stomach was too great, he couldn’t handle it.

“Me? What did I do?” Ryo asked as he tried so hard to keep his eyes open, the pain on his hand made him wince.

“You knocked me out you idiot!” Ueda snapped angrily.

“We were drunk!” Ryo defended, “It’s not my fault you couldn’t resist me!” Ueda squeezed harder, causing Ryo to scream and almost hit his car. To cut a long story short, Ueda was making sure Ryo felt the same pain, the whole way to the hospital.

When they arrived at the hospital, Ryo called the nurse on duty to take Ueda right away. Before he breaks my arm, Ryo thought. But his suffering had not ended yet, when the nurses took Ueda away on the hospital bed, Ueda grabbed Ryo by the wrist, squeezing it hard. “You are so dead Nishikido!” Ueda groaned again, but he didn’t forget to hurt Ryo as he did so, “I’m so going to kill you after this!” he threatened.

The nurses gave a knowing look, “They do that a lot, its normal. The mother always wants to kill the father due to the pain.”

“I AM NOT THE MOTHER!” a punch landed on Ryo’s cheek.

“Why the hell are you punching me for? He’s the one who said it.” Ryo complained, rubbing his bruised cheek.

“But he’s the one who is going to help me deliver this baby you moron!” Ueda retorted, and then his hand went back to gripping Ryo’s.

They stopped in front of the surgery room, and a doctor was already waiting “I’m sorry sir, but you cannot come into the surgery room.”

“But I’m the father.”

“He’s going to have caesarean surgery, so there is no use for you to be inside.”

Ryo hesitantly nodded, he slowly freed his hand from Ueda’s grip. “But Ryo…” Ueda said pleading Ryo not to leave him.

“Wait!” Ryo stopped them when they were about to enter the surgery room, he approached Ueda again and kissed his forehead. “Everything is going to be okay, trust me. I’ll be waiting outside.” He assured Ueda, and miraculously Ueda became a bit calmer and he nodded.

-----

Ryo was waiting outside the surgery room anxiously. It had been hours, he thought, and they still hadn’t finished. He had called their friends earlier, telling them that Ueda was in labor. Kame and Jin arrived together shortly after that, they seemed to have just finished their practice.

“Ryo-chan!” Jin called, his voice echoing through the hallway.

“Jin, stop shouting on the hospital!” Kame smacked his boyfriend’s head. “How is Ueda Ryo?” he asked as he approached the anxious man.

“He is still inside. They’re not done yet.” Ryo said, pointing to the door behind him.

“Calm down. It’s going to be okay.” Kame said to comfort him.

“Yeah I know, I’m just worried.”

“Aaww…Ryo-chan is going to be a daddy!!” Jin practically pounced on Ryo.

“Get off me bakanishi!”

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After what it seemed like forever for Ryo, the door finally opened, revealing a man with a blue uniform who came closer to him.

“Congratulations! You are a father now, and the baby is a boy.” The doctor congratulated him.

They cheered and Ryo couldn’t be more relieved and happy upon hearing the good news.

“Wait, what? A boy?” he then realized something.

The doctor nodded and a nurse came out with the baby in her hands. “Meet your son Nishikido-kun,” she smiled, showing the newborn baby to Ryo.

“B-but it was supposed to be a girl” Ryo couldn’t believe his eyes, seeing a baby boy in front of him.

“No Nishikido-kun it’s a boy,” the doctor convinced him.

The nurse approached Ryo and gestured Ryo to hold the baby. “He is so cute,” Ryo held the baby in his arms and smiled.

“Uwaa~~ kawaiii~~!” Jin squealed, and Kame smacked his head again.

After a few more minutes of Jin’s squealing, Kame’s smiling and Ryo’s grinning as they admired the baby, the nurse took the baby to the baby’s room. They informed them that they had also moved Ueda to his room.

----

Ryo stayed beside Ueda’s bed, waiting for Ueda to regain his consciousness.

“Ryo?” Ueda recognized the man beside him as he slowly opened his eyes.

“Hey…” Ryo smiled, greeting the older man. “Are you okay?”

Ueda nodded weakly, “E-Eri?” was the first thing Ueda asked.

“Eri is fine,” Ryo answered.

“I want to see her,” Ueda requested. Ryo nodded and gave a sign to the nurse standing near them to get the baby.

“About our baby Ueda…” Ryo said while waiting for the nurse to return with their baby.

Ueda was worried by the tone Ryo was using. “What about her? She is fine right? Two hands and two legs? Not missing a thing?”

Ryo smiled, ruffling Ueda’s hair and Ueda couldn’t help but feel relaxed by the touch. “Yes, the baby is fine. It’s just that …” before Ryo could finish explaining, the nurse came back with the baby.

She gave the baby for Ueda to hold, “Oh my God, she’s so cute Ryo!” Ueda said, almost squealing like Jin. “Out baby is so cute!” Ryo smiled not having a chance to explain to Ueda, he was so happy with the view of Ueda and the baby in his hand.

“Ryo?” Ueda started a few moments later.

“Yeah?”

“How come Eri, our baby girl, has a teeny weeny thingy down there?” Ueda said in confusion, a little afraid and disbelieving.

“Well…that’s because HE is not a girl.” Ryo answered, a little too afraid to say his own answer.

“What?” Ueda almost screamed “But you said our baby was a girl!”

“Well I never said that technically,” Ryo reasoned.

“YOU said that!”

“I just said that I DREAMT of having a baby girl,” Ryo defended, “We never checked his gender before anyway.”

“That’s because YOU were pretty sure it’s a girl!” Ueda snapped, and the baby started crying. “Sshh…baby its okay, I’m just arguing with your daddy because he’s being an idiot.” Ueda rolled his eyes at Ryo.

Ryo wanted to retort but seeing that Ueda was cooing the baby lovingly, he resisted the urge and smiled at the view.

“A boy or a girl, he’s still our baby, and God is he cute!” Ueda said in admiration.

Ryo reached his hand to caress the baby’s cheeks lovingly “Yep! And he’s going to be a very handsome boy. Just like his daddy.” Ueda rolled his eyes at Ryo’s comment.

After Ueda rocked the baby in his hand gently, he finally stopped crying. “Ryo, we can’t call our baby boy Eri can we?”

“Yeah, we need a new name.” Ryo agreed.

“Since I got to name him last time, this time you choose.” Ueda said, giving permission to Ryo and a grin grew on Ryo’s face.

“Really?” Ryo asked in disbelief.

“Yeah, really.” Ueda nodded.

“Any name I want?” He asked almost too happy.

“Any.” Ueda nodded again.

“I want to name him Ryo then.” He inquired

“What?”

“Well I couldn’t think of any better boy name other than Ryo.” Ryo reasoned.

“I am not going to call our son Ryo!” Ueda snapped.

“Why not? It’s a good name!”

“It’s your name!”

“Well he’s going to be Nishikido Ryo junior then”

“Well Tatsuya it’s a good name too, and he can be UEDA Tatsuya junior!” Ueda retorted, emphasizing the family name.

“Ryo is better, and it’s NISHIKIDO!”

“Tatsuya!”

“Ryo!”

“Tatsuya!”

“You said I can name him anything I want!”

“Not YOUR name!”

“Ryo!”

“Tatsuya!”

“Ryo!”

“Tatsuya!”

Another scream echoed through the room again, and the baby in Ueda’s hand became uncomfortable hearing the noise and he cried again.

“Ssshh…sorry sweetheart…” Ueda rocked the baby to calm him again.

After a few minutes the baby stopped crying. “Ne, I have an idea.” Ueda said as he caressed the baby’s cheek, still couldn’t stop admiring the cuteness in his arms.

“He’s not going to be Tatsuya.” Ryo warned.

Ueda rolled his eyes, “and he’s definitely not going to be Ryo,” Ueda answered. “Besides, that’s not what I have in mind.” He caressed the baby again, and he couldn’t stop smiling. “Let’s name him Ryu.” Ueda suggested.

“Ryu?”

“Yeah, Ryu sounds like your name, and it has the same kanji as my name, dragon” Ueda explained.

“Ryu..” Ryo uttered the name, trying to get used to the sound of it. “Ryu sounds good.”

Ueda smiled “It’s Ryu then.” he stared at the baby lovingly “Hey Ryu, Welcome to the world my precious one,” he greeted before kissing the baby lovingly.

----

After a few days of being hospitalized, Ueda was finally home. He still had a few weeks of maternity leave, but Ryo still had to work.

“Tadaima~” Ryo said when he opened the door to Ueda’s apartment, a place he could call his home now that he had officially moved in. Ryo had decided to move, to be closer to his son.

Seeing no reply from Ueda, he walked further inside the apartment, and found the door to Ryu’s room opened. He came closer and found Ueda sitting on a rocking chair, rocking the baby to sleep.

“Okaeri~” Ueda greeted him in a whispering voice, afraid to wake the sleeping baby in his arms.

Ryo smiled and leaned on the door frame as he took in the view of Ueda and their baby. Such a beautiful sight, he thought.

After making sure that the baby was sleeping soundly, Ueda put him down to his baby bed. Ryo approached them and kissed the baby good night.

“I can’t stop admiring him Ryo, he’s so cute.” Ueda said before he too kissed the baby lovingly.

“Of course he is, he’s my son,” Ueda rolled his eyes, but before he could smack Ryo’s head, Ryo added “and yours.”

Ueda smiled and returned his gaze to Ryu, he still couldn’t stop smiling. “Ne Ryo..” he started.

“Hmm?”

“Are you disappointed?” he asked. His eyes were now looking at the man standing beside him.

Ryo was confused with Ueda’s question. “With what?”

“With the fact that our baby is a boy, not a girl as you had expected and wished for?”

Ryo sighed, “Honestly, when the doctor said it was a boy, I kind of was.” Ryo said honestly, “but when I saw him, all those thoughts flew away. I mean look at him, how can I be disappointed with him?” he leaned down to caress the baby’s cheek.

“I’m glad you feel so, because I love him a lot too,” Ueda said, feeling content with Ryo’s answer.

Ryo smiled at him, “but you know…” he stood up again, “I still want Eri.”

“What do you mean?” Ueda tilted his head in confusion.

Ryo grabbed Ueda by the waist and pulled him closer, smirking before capturing his lips. “I mean,” he began, kissing Ueda fully on the lips, “Why don’t you tell that little fairy of yours…” he continued, stopping only to kiss Ueda’s neck. Ueda moaned at the touch. Oh how long had he waited to feel Ryo’s lips again. “...to do her hocus pocus thing…” Ryo captured Ueda’s lips again, and was awarded by a moan from the older man as he trailed kisses down Ueda’s jaw line “…on what we were about to do tonight.” He finished his sentence, kissing, nibbling and sucking the soft skin on Ueda’s neck.

Ueda moaned in pleasure. “I’ll make sure she does that.” he managed to say after trying so hard to utter something other than moaning sound, as he felt so lost in pleasure at Ryo’s touch.

“And this time, make sure it’s a girl.” Ryo added, slowly pushing Ueda down to the carpet and attacking him again.

“R-ryo….not….not here.” Ueda tried to say between moans, “not in Ryu’s room.”

“Let him hear his parents making love” Ryo smirked pervertedly.

“M-making…love?” Ueda asked, confused by the term Ryo was using. A slight glint of hope grew in his heart. Maybe this wouldn’t be just sex after all.

Ryo stopped and digested what his own mouth had said. He did say making love. Was that what they were doing? He was hesitated at first, but seeing the beauty lying under him, and feeling the how fast his heart beat was at that moment, he knew for sure what that was. He leaned down again and whispered on Ueda’s ear, causing the man to shudder, “Yeah, making love.” he confirmed before kissing Ueda again.

Soon Ryu was awake due to the uncontrollable moaning sound coming from his room. But that didn’t stop his parents.

THE END!!!!!!

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There you go xstewpigx ! there's your Ryu!...i didnt change the name, cos that wud mean i have to change the story, n i like this kind of ending better so yeah...^_^...hope you like your mpreg!! and do poke shuling89 and resha_hime to finish their share!!

anybody still want Eri???? LOL....hopefully Shia can make herself useful this time...XDDD

.Thankyou my dearest beta shuling89 , for putting up with me this whole time, more than a year i supposed? you're the best nana!!! my english teacher, you helped me improved my english from sucks to not bad and now i'm an okay level..hahaha...
~~sounds like my farewell speech~~ ahahahaha.....

Thankyou all for reading and commenting, sorry if i didnt reply all comments , but i do thank you guys very much for them!!
Love you all!!!! Arigatou Gozaimashita! *bows*

Come As You Are 6

2008-10-18T16:06:39Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

Thank you shuling89 for the beta!

“I bought WHAT?” A loud cry of disbelief echoed through the jewelry store. They were lucky that Ryo and Yamapi were the only customers they had that day, or else Ryo’s scream would have surely drawn attention from the other customers.

The saleslady cringed in fear upon hearing Ryo’s reaction. What did she do? Did she make a mistake by asking Ryo that question? Was the celebrity implying that he didn’t want anyone else to know that he bought that pair of rings? She was sure Ryo had bought them a few weeks ago. That must be it! Ryo was a celebrity; of course he would not want anyone else to know. Afraid she was making a mistake and would be fired by her boss; she quickly nodded in understanding and smiled at Ryo. “I understand Nishikido-san, of course you did not buy anything. It was my mistake.” She said, winking as a clue to Ryo that she understood what Ryo was trying to imply.

“What?” Ryo was even more confused. A few seconds ago the lady in front of him told him that he had bought a pair of rings in that store. A pair of rings! Why would he buy a pair of rings for? Or for whom at that matter? But now before his question was answered, the lady just brushed the topic off, saying that she had made a mistake?

“Ryo-chan? What’s wrong?” Yamapi asked as he walked closer to his friend. He was surely surprised hearing his friend yelling loudly like that.

Before Ryo could answer his friend’s question, another voice was heard. “What is going on? Is there something wrong Nishikido-san?” another woman who appeared to be the store manager approached them. She looked sharply at the saleslady, who quickly bowed in apology.

“This lady here said that I bought a pair of rings here a few weeks ago.” Ryo explained the reason he was screaming.

The manager quickly bowed and apologized to him. “I’m sorry Nishikido-san, it was a mistake. She would never do that again. I will make sure she won’t say a word to anyone.”

“What?” Ryo got even more confused. What were they trying to pull here?

“Ryo-chan, she must have mistaken you for someone else. Come on, I’m getting hungry already. I’ve got the things I want, now let’s go!” Yamapi pulled a baffled Ryo.

“But Pi-”

“Come on Ryo-chan!” Yamapi bowed as a thank you to the other store employees and quickly took Ryo out from the store. He knew he could not let them stay there any longer. He knew whatever the saleslady had said could be the truth. But he would not want to risk having the store ladies find out that Ryo had lost his memory. Johnny’s had announced Ryo’s accident to the public, but Ryo’s real condition especially regarding his short term memory lost was kept a secret from the public.

“Pi that lady said-” Ryo tried to inform Pi about what the lady had said to him, but Pi cut him off.

“I know, but we can’t let them know you have forgotten that. We can’t let them know you have lost some of your memories Ryo,” Pi explained. He quickly got into the car, gesturing Ryo to do the same and drove away his car, taking them away from the store.

“She said I bought a ring there Pi,” Ryo continued, still surprised by the revelation.

“Wait, that reminds me of something!” Pi suddenly pulled over, and Ryo was getting more confused. Pi opened the dashboard in his car and took a small pouch. “I’m so sorry Ryo-chan! I should have given you this a few days ago. But I forgot!” He apologized as he opened the small pouch. Taking out some jewelry he had kept there, looking for something else. “Ah! Here it is!” he said as he found what he was looking for. “The doctor gave me this on the day they released you from the hospital. He said you were wearing this on the day of your accident. They took it off your finger when they scanned your head.”

“A ring?” Ryo asked confusedly as he saw what Pi was giving him. A silver ring he could not remember anything of. Was this the ring he bought? Was this the ring that the lady mentioned? But how come he didn’t remember anything about that ring?

“Maybe this is what they were talking about,” Pi said, exactly the same thing that Ryo was thinking about.

“But Pi, the lady said I bought a PAIR of rings.”

“A pair?” Pi was also confused.

“Pi,” Ryo hesitantly began, “Do I have a girlfriend?”

“What? No!” Pi answered the question too quick to Ryo’s expectation. “I mean, not that I know of. No Ryo-chan, I don’t think you have a girlfriend.”

“But the lady said, I gave the ring to my girlfriend.” Ryo reasoned.

“But you never mentioned that you had a girlfriend Ryo,” Pi stated one more time, “Even if you did, why wouldn’t I know?”

“Exactly,” Ryo sighed, “And if I did, how come I haven’t heard anything from her ever since my accident? She must have been worried about me right?” Pi nodded. He started his car again and drove off.

“Just don’t think too much about it Ryo-chan. It will come to you eventually.” Pi advised, not wanting Ryo to overwork his brain. Ryo stared at the ring in his hand and nodded.

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Ueda couldn’t stop smiling the whole time that day. His lunch incident that day brought up a smile his friends knew had been missing from his face these last few days.

“You seem to be happy,” Nakamaru said as he approached Ueda, just having finished their rehearsals for that day. Ueda answered with a smile, packing his stuff and getting ready to go home.

“I am!” He said happily, not exactly giving any reason as to why he was happy and made Nakamaru even more confused. “Come on! I’m hungry, why don’t we grab something to eat on our way to the radio station?” He suggested. They were going to do their radio show that night, and they still had a few hours before the show. “My treat!” he added.

Nakamaru was confused at his friend’s change of attitude. These past few days, all he could see from Ueda’s face was sorrow, sadness and sometimes he was sure that Ueda had been crying for he could see that his eyes slightly swollen and red. Every time he tried to ask the younger man, Ueda would only smile, he knew the other was forcing it and just answering that he was fine. And now, his best friend had been grinning ear to ear for the whole duration of practice time, even though the choreographer had yelled at him for messing up his steps on their dancing. He shook his head and smiled, at least Ueda was happy now.

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“Pi, I feel a little dizy,” Ryo started, turning to face his friend who was sitting next to him. They were drinking at their favorite bar that night. Jin, Shirota Yuu, and a few other friends had got together that night. Yamapi thought that by hanging out with their friends Ryo would be able to recover some of his memories. “I think I’d better go home now.” Ryo continued.

Yamapi nodded, he knew Ryo’s mind was still preoccupied with the jewelry store incident. “I’m going to take Ryo-chan home,” he said goodbye to the other men.

Ryo didn’t say a word the whole way to his apartment. His mind was still wondering and trying to remember for whom he bought the ring for. He took out the ring again from his pocket. Observing the ring and trying so hard to remember it, but still not a single memory flashed through his mind.

Yamapi stopped the car as he saw the traffic light turning red. He looked at his friend who was still observing the ring on the passenger seat. Yamapi sighed, “Ryo-chan…” but he couldn’t find a word to say to Ryo. He knew even though he had asked Ryo to just let it go and stop trying so hard to remember, Ryo wouldn’t oblige. Yamapi was afraid that if Ryo tried too hard, his mind wouldn’t be able and he would feel the same headache he had felt before when he informed him about Uchi. But on the other hand, if he was in Ryo’s position, he would surely do the same. Who wouldn’t be so curious, when he had lost his memory and suddenly he found out that he had brought a ring for a girl he couldn’t even remember existed?

When he saw that the green light had given him the sign to go, he stepped on the gas pedal and continued driving. Ryo still didn’t say a word and continued staring at the ring on his hand. The streets were almost empty that night, mostly because it was already past midnight. The street lights took turns illuminating Yamapi’s car, and that was when suddenly Ryo cried, “Pi stop the car!”

Yamapi half panicked, and hit the breaks. He stopped the car in the middle of the street, but there was not enough light, so Ryo asked him to move his car a little to the front, right under the street light.

“What is it Ryo?”

“The ring Pi,” Ryo started.

“What about it?” Pi asked in confusion.

“It has something carved on the inside.” Ryo said as he gave the ring on his hand to Pi, gesturing him to take a look at the ring.

Pi took the ring and read the writing carved on the inner side of the ring.

~Princess~

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TBC?

Part of Me 9

2008-10-18T15:49:18Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Supposed to be crack...but i totally failed >__<
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

Thankyou resha_hime for the beta!

“Tadaima~”

“Okaeri.”

Ryo kissed Ueda’s belly, just like he usually did every time he got home to Ueda’s apartment. “Hi there little one, I missed you so much!” Ryo whispered.

There it is, as expected, Ueda unconsciously frowned. He didn’t know himself why he was feeling a little hurt by the gesture. He knew he should be glad that Ryo cared for the being inside him, his own child, his and Ryo’s child that is.

“Why are you frowning?” Ryo asked in confusion, noticing the unhappy look on the older man’s face, but Ueda merely shook his head.

“How’s Osaka?” He asked, brushing the topic off.

“Its fine, we recorded enough episodes for 2 months, so I won’t need to go back to Osaka so soon. I’ll be here when our baby is born and for the first weeks,” Ryo answered, his eyes still set on the round belly and his hand was playfully caressing the soft skin. Ueda shivered at the touch but he tried to keep a straight face and pretended not to be affected at all by the touch. He didn’t want Ryo’s hand to stop.

“Oh, good,” Ueda tried to answer calmly, trying to hide his smile for he was so glad that Ryo will be there when the baby is born.

“Have you eaten yet?” Ryo finally looked up to see Ueda’s face. And again, Ueda shook his head.

“Are you insane? It’s almost 9! You haven’t eaten anything?” Ryo practically screamed. “I really can’t leave you alone, huh?” he sighed and got up, heading to the refrigerator to find something to cook. When he found that the food he left for Ueda was not in the fridge anymore, he smiled. “You ate the food I prepared for you, right? Or did you throw them away?” Ryo rolled his eyes at the last question.

“No, I ate them,” Ueda stated honestly.

“Good! If I find out you didn’t and threw them away, I’ll cook an even worse tasting dish and make you eat them until our baby is born!” Ryo threatened.

“Why? Cause you’re so damned worried about Eri?”

“Of course I am!” He stated as a matter of factly.

Ueda pouted even more, “Eri this, Eri that. The baby this, the baby that. When are you going to start worrying about me?” He mumbled under his breath.

“Did you say something?”

“No.”

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Ueda ate the dinner in silence, losing his appetite but not because the food was tasteless.

“What’s wrong?” Ryo asked, finally noticing the bad mood the other was showing. But Ueda just shook his head. “Princess, I know something is wrong, what is it?” he asked again, not convinced by Ueda’s answer.

“I’m a little afraid of delivering this baby,” Ueda said half lying.

Ryo smiled, “Don’t worry, the doctor has prepared everything,” Ryo assured, but he could still see the worry in Ueda’s eyes. He put his spoon down and took Ueda’s hand. “Look princess, I know you are afraid, but believe me when I say everything will be fine. We have a good team of doctors and I’ll be there for you okay? So don’t you worry, everything will be fine.”

Ueda smiled and nodded his head. He liked the feeling of Ryo holding his hand.

“Now get some sleep, it’s late.” Ryo got up and took the dirty dishes, missing the disappointment in Ueda’s eyes as his hand left Ueda’s.

When Ueda was about to enter his room, suddenly the rain started pouring down. Ueda half wished there was lightning and thunder too this time. And a few seconds later, his wish was granted.

Upon hearing the sound of thunder, Ryo stopped washing the dishes and turned around to Ueda who was still standing at his room’s doorstep. “You want me to accompany you again?” Ryo offered. Ueda pretended to look afraid and nodded.

Ryo smiled, letting a few words of teasing out from his mouth before he walked to Ueda. Ueda pouted a little, but he couldn’t care less.

“You go ahead first; I’m going to take a quick shower. I’m all sticky and sweaty from the long traveling. I’ll be there in a moment.”

Ueda smiled and nodded. He headed to his bed while Ryo walked to the bathroom.

A few minutes later, Ryo got out from the shower, hair still dripping wet, and Ueda unconsciously stared at him. It was a torture enough to see Ryo sleeping with only his boxers on, and now there Ryo was, just having finished his shower with only his towel wrapped around his waist. Ryo walked to the closet and took out his boxers, which he had kept many of in Ueda’s closet since he practically lived there now. Ueda was gaping as Ryo, whom was unconsciously putting his boxers on in front of Ueda, Ueda was lucky Ryo was not facing him.

But when Ryo turned around, he quickly looked away and hid his flushed cheeks. Ryo walked closer and gestured Ueda to shift aside a little, giving him some room on the not so big bed. Ryo laid beside Ueda and adjusted himself comfortably under the blanket before pulling Ueda closer and wrapped his hand around the older man.

“Sleep princess!” He commanded gently. Ueda buried his head against Ryo’s chest again and closed his eyes in smile.

A few minutes had past, but Ueda could not seem to get himself to sleep at all. His heart was beating so fast but he couldn’t understand why. On the other hand, Ryo had fallen asleep easily. The thunder had also stopped, so logically there was no reason for Ueda’s heart to keep on racing. He looked at the sleeping face next to him, and his heart was beating even faster. He could not resist the urge to caress Ryo’s peaceful face. His hand gently caressed Ryo’s cheek, but carefully trying not to wake the other up. He couldn’t quite explain why he had this sudden urge to just admire the sleeping figure next to him. He moved his hand lower to touch the skin on Ryo’s chest, his hand started to shiver as he ran it along the well toned abs. But before it could go further, suddenly he felt Ryo move a little. He quickly pulled his hand away and pretended to sleep.

After a few seconds, there was no sign of Ryo waking up. He looked up again to see Ryo was still sleeping, he sighed in relief. Ueda decided to try closing his eyes again, but he still could not sleep at all. When he opened his eyes again, he was greeted with Ryo’s bare skin. He couldn’t resist touching it again. He caressed it and playfully made imaginary circles, but he just couldn’t stop at that. The feeling of wanting to touch the soft skin with his lips again was too hard to resist. He leaned down slowly, making sure his movement wouldn’t wake the other up, and gently touched his lips on to Ryo’s chest. Feeling a little addicted with the sensation of Ryo’s skin on his lips, he kissed again and again and again. He kept repeating pressing his lips on Ryo’s body, still carefully not waking Ryo up. After a few more kisses, he stopped, smiled sheepishly before he decided to spare the skin and tried to close his eyes again.

“Why are you stopping?”

Ueda eyes fluttered open upon hearing the question. Did Ryo just wake up? He thought Ryo was asleep! He looked up, slightly in fear that Ryo noticed what he was doing for the past few minutes, only to find Ryo’s eyes were still closed. But before he could sigh in relief, suddenly Ryo’s lips started to speak again.

“Go on…continue!” Ryo half commanded. Ueda’s eyes widened in shock, Ryo was awake! He quickly hid his head in Ryo’s chest and prayed that Ryo was dreaming and was just talking in his sleep. Oh, how red Ueda’s cheeks were now.

“I said, continue!” the soft request, well more like a command, was heard again. A small shiver ran through his body at those words alone and he looked at Ryo again, he still had his eyes closed. Ueda hesitated at first, not knowing what to do. Should he pretend to be sleeping again, and tell Ryo in the morning that he was just dreaming? Or should he oblige Ryo’s request just like one half of his mind wanted to do?

Ryo tightened his embrace, giving an OK sign for Ueda to continue and let all his hesitation fly through the window.

Ueda chose to oblige Ryo’s request, shyly but surely he leaned in again and pressed his lips against Ryo’s chest. He stopped at the first kiss, still feeling unsure as to why he did this and why he couldn’t stop doing it.

“Don’t stop!” Ryo commanded again with a soft voice. He kissed the skin again and Ryo moaned, practically asking him to continue and to keep tasting him. So Ueda did, he continued trailing kisses from Ryo’s chest then went up to Ryo’s collar bone, to the crook of his neck then up to his jaw line. When he reached Ryo’s lips, he stopped again, looking at the lips that amazingly looking so delicious that time, wondering how those luscious and kissable lips could generate such a bad choice of words every time Ryo talked to him.

“I said,” Ryo said with a lusty whisper, “don’t stop!” he continued, eyes still closed in pleasure. His hand suddenly moved, grabbing Ueda’s waist and gently lifted Ueda’s body, so he was almost on top of him. Ueda was surprised, but he didn’t hesitate this time when he leaned down again to kiss those inviting lips. Ueda’s lips stayed lingering on Ryo’s for a brief second, before Ryo couldn’t take it anymore and literally captured the unsure lips and savored them not so gently. Ryo moaned in pleasure as he tasted every crevice of Ueda’s mouth and Ueda awarded him with yet another moan. Ryo decided to take over things and turned Ueda around so he was the one on top of Ueda now.

Ryo began kissing, licking, and sucking at every inch of Ueda’s face, giving him the same treatment Ueda did a few minutes ago, only a little more filled with lust. He was trailing kisses along Ueda’s jaw line and continued lower to Ueda’s neck, when suddenly Ueda pulled back almost screaming in pain. “Arrgh..!!”

Ryo was taken aback with the sudden scream of pain. He thought he had somehow hurt Ueda. “Princess what’s wrong?” he asked very much concerned.

“My stomach,” Ueda began, “It hurts!” he screamed again, louder this time, signaling the pain he felt was increasing.

Ryo panicked when he saw Ueda clenching his hand on his stomach, gesturing how painful it was.

“Oh God, Ryo! It really hurts!” Ueda screamed again.

Ryo quickly got up and grabbed his phone “I’ll call the doctor,” he said before dialing the doctor’s number. He rubbed Ueda’s belly, trying to reduce the pain while he was talking anxiously with the doctor on the phone.

“He told me to take you to the hospital immediately; you might be ready to deliver the baby now,” Ryo informed after he finished talking on the phone.

Ueda nodded and Ryo helped him get up from the bed.

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YOSH! one more chapter i guess? or not, depends on Eri...LOL

Come As You Are 5

2008-10-12T12:34:53Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: another update of my another unfinished-long-abandoned fic..XDDD ~~I'm so productive lately~~
I'll make this as a bribe so resha_hime would continue her ISWAB! so please continue girl!! ~~or else i'll stop writing this~~
Thank you my sweet shuling89 for beta-ing my fics and other stuff, luv ya nana!

After seeing what a shocking recollection could do to Ryo, Ueda decided to keep the secret a little longer. Ryo was definitely not ready to hear such news. Ueda was afraid Ryo would be too shocked and end up having another major pain, and he definitely didn’t want to be the cause of Ryo to suffer. Although it would mean that he would be the one who was suffering, Ueda would just have to bear it a little bit longer.

As usual Ueda went to lunch by himself. When he arrived at his favorite spot on the roof top of the Jimusho, he opened his bento box. He had brought curry that day, Ryo always cooked curry every Wednesday for both of them, it was his special menu. “Ryo always cooks the best curry,” he said to himself. Ueda missed Ryo’s curry, no matter how hard he tried to make curry, even with Ryo’s own recipe, he still could not make his curry as delicious as Ryo’s.

Before he could even touch the spoon and dig in, he suddenly heard the door being opened. He was a little surprised; no one usually came to that place. He was always alone. Even before Ryo lost his memory, the pair had always been eating alone in the rooftop. So who could possibly go there all of the sudden?

Ueda blinked, turning his head to see the person whom he thought to be an intruder in his special place, and his eyes widened in surprised, “Ryo?”

“Oh, it’s you,” Ryo acknowledged Ueda; he didn’t expect someone else to be on the rooftop that time. He thought he would be alone when he decided to have his lunch there.

“Ry-…Nishikido,”

“What are you doing here?” Ryo asked confusedly.

“Err…having lunch?” Ueda stated obviously, showing his lunch bento.

Ryo burst out laughing “you are so isolated aren’t you? Nobody wants to eat lunch with you, so that you have to eat your lunch here? Alone?” he laughed again.

“Well I don’t see you eating lunch with your friends either. Did they ditch you this time?” Ueda answered back, trying to sound tough with his words of comeback.

“Well I just happened to be a little bored with restaurant food. So I decided to cook and bring my own food. You got a problem with that?”

Ueda sighed. “I see,” he got up and wrapped up his bento box, ready to leave. Thinking that Ryo must not want to be in the same place with him, he decided to lunch somewhere else.

“Where are you going?” Ryo asked, confused as to why suddenly Ueda wanted to leave.

“Err…you want to eat here right?”

“Yeah, but did I say you had to go?”

Ryo sat down and gestured Ueda to sit next to him. Ueda almost couldn’t believe that Ryo was asking him to eat his lunch with him, at the same place where they always had their lunch together. Ueda hesitated for awhile, but seeing Ryo was there in their favorite place was too much for Ueda to refuse. So he sat there. He didn’t realize it, but he was staring at Ryo, oh how much he missed sitting there next to him.

“What are you doing? Aren’t you going to eat?” Ryo asked seeing Ueda just sitting there and not touching his food.

“Uh….yeah…” he quickly turned his head back to his bento.

Ryo opened his bento and Ueda looked a bit surprised…Ryo had brought Curry.

“Why are you looking at my food?” Ryo asked again as he caught Ueda staring at his lunch.

“Eh? Nothing…” Ueda answered with his eyes downcast, feeling rather embarrassed that he was caught staring at Ryo’s bento box.

“What do you have there?” Ryo asked, pointing at Ueda’s own bento box.

“Err..curry,” he answered plainly.

“Wow! What are the odds! I brought curry too!” Ryo exclaimed, a bit surprised and excited with the coincidence. “I don’t know why but this morning when I woke up, I suddenly had a craving for curry.” Ryo continued.

Of course Ryo, you always cook curry for me every Wednesday.

“You cook on your own too?” Ryo asked again, missing the stare Ueda was giving him the whole time he was talking.

Ueda nodded and suddenly Ryo grabbed his spoon and dug into Ueda’s curry, “Let me try!” Ryo tasted the curry and all Ueda could do was stay frozen in place, shocked by the sudden act of amity.

“Hmm…not bad…but mine is better,” Ryo said proudly, but unlike other words of conceit he used to say, this time there was a glint of joke in Ryo’s voice.

Of course yours is better, Ueda let out a small laugh. But Ryo took it as a laugh of disbelief.

“You don’t believe me? Here!” Ueda was shocked when suddenly Ryo shoved a spoonful of curry into his mouth. He almost choked at the unexpected action. “See? Delicious right?” Ryo stated proudly. And once again Ueda just froze and nodded, unable to say anything as everything happened so fast and so sudden. He stared at Ryo who had resumed eating and was not minding everything that had happened in the last 5 minutes as if it was something they normally share. If Ryo hadn’t lost his memory, of course it would be normal; they shared a lot of happiness in that special place. They talked, joked around, laughed, and sometimes when they had time, they even made out there. But the Ryo who was sitting next to him, was the same Ryo 3 years ago, who still hated him and never once acted civil towards him, let alone have a friendly conversation like this. A glint of hope that they would be able to return to where they use to stand, or maybe at least start a new good relationship again, grew in Ueda’s mind.

“Ano…Ueda,” suddenly Ryo spoke, snapping Ueda out from his daze.

“Hmm?”

“Thanks for umm....for helping Yamapi to take me to the hospital yesterday,” Ryo said, rather hesitant for he had never thanked the person sitting next to him. The word seemed strange leaving his mouth, but his heart wanted to say it nevertheless.

“Oh, don’t mention it, I was just passing by when I heard you screaming.” Ueda tried to lighten up the awkward atmosphere. “What happened?” he pretended not knowing the real reason Ryo had that headache.

“Well I just found out about Uchi’s suspension, and I guess my brain couldn’t take it really well. I felt a major headache after,” Ryo explained, “I guess I’m weak now huh?” he forced a small laugh.

You are never weak Ryo, I am the one who is weak. I’m the one who is unable to protect you, to prevent this tragedy from happening. I’m the one who is unable to reach you when all I want to do now is to hug you and tell you how much I missed you.

Ueda tried to hold back the tears that were threatening to leave his eyes. He took his spoon and dug into his food, occasionally looking at Ryo and smiling. He had to be strong, he mustn’t give up.

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“Ryo-chan! The manager told us we have to cancel the photo shoot for today. Massu has food poisoning,” Pi informed Ryo when they met at the Jimusho hall. Ryo had just finished having his lunch, and was about to go to their dressing room, when suddenly his best friend called him form behind.

“Huh? That’s what he gets for stealing people’s food!” Ryo burst out laughing.

“Ne… since we get to go home early today. Let’s go for a drink!” Pi suggested

“Okay!”

The two best friends walked to the parking lot. Pi suggested that they use his car to go to the Italian restaurant not far from their work place.

“Ne…chotto, I have to get something there,” Pi pointed to a store on the left side of the street and then parked his car in front of the store.

“Jewelry store?” Ryo asked when they were standing in front of the store.

“Yeah, I ordered an earring a few days ago and they said it would be finished today.” Pi explained.

Ryo nodded and followed Yamapi to the said jewelry store.

“Welcome back Yamashita-san, Nishikido-san,” The usher greeted and bowed to them. She gestured them to go inside and guided them to the counter.

“Eh? They know you too?” Pi asked, a bit surprised that the lady recognized Ryo.

“Pi, I’m famous too you know.” Ryo rolled his eyes and Pi just laughed.

Yamapi went to the counter and talked to lady there about his earring, while he was waiting for the ring to be prepared. Ryo took a look around at the display counters and found some interesting jewelry.

“Nishikido-san, can I help you?” a friendly female voice greeted him.

“Nah, I’m just looking around,” he said with his eyes still on the display counter.

The lady nodded and smiled, “how was the ring?”

“Hmm?” Ryo inattentively asked, still not minding the person talking to him.

“The pair of rings you purchased a few weeks ago. The one you bought for you and your girlfriend. How was it? Did she like it?”

Ryo abruptly lifted his head to face the lady, “I bought what?”

Part of Me 8

2008-10-11T13:14:11Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Supposed to be crack...but i totally failed >__<
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

A/N: never thought i would update this fast huh? LOL. and where the hell is the crack in this fic? somehow i lost them and turned to be drama instead..*sighs*...

“Tadaima~”

“Okaeri~”

“How’s my little angel?” Ryo asked, walking closer to the living room in which Ueda was sitting leisurely on the couch.

“Well I’m fine thank you,”

“Not you idiot!” Ryo smacked Ueda on the head lightly. Ryo bent over and kissed Ueda’s belly “Hi there! Missed you so much!” He kissed again.

“Didn’t anyone tell you not to smack the person who is carrying your baby?” Ueda protested.

Ryo ignored and just keep talking to Ueda’s belly “Whatever! I brought dinner, have you eaten yet?” Ueda shook his head, so Ryo stood up and grabbed the plastic bag he had brought earlier and headed to the kitchen. Ueda unconsciously watched him preparing dinner and he smiled at the view.

“I’m going to Osaka tomorrow, I’ll be there for about a week,” Ryo said, serving a bowl of rice to Ueda complete with vegetables and chicken. Ueda frowned; he didn’t like the food Ryo was serving, but he knew better than to reject it. Ryo had been serving Ueda food that was good for the unborn baby. Usually some strange vegetables Ueda had never seen before in his entire life, and they were far from delicious. They were tasteless and more often they were bitter. He tried refusing to eat them once, but then Ryo had to give him a long boring speech about how good were those vegetables for the baby, and how a mother should take care of the unborn baby inside him. Ueda rolled his eyes at the term ‘mother’ and ‘him’ Ryo used in the same sentence. In the end, Ueda had to eat the vegetables.

Ueda sighed. “But the doctor said the baby will be due next week,” he winced as he tried to eat that strange food Ryo had served him.

“I know, I’ll try to come home before that. I’ll call everyday to check up on you, but in case something happens, just call me and I’ll be here as soon as possible. I’ll take the first train if I have to.” Ryo assured the worried Ueda.

After dinner, like always, Ryo kissed the baby goodnight and Ueda walked to his bedroom, while Ryo slumped on the couch.

---

It was raining that night, and the rumbling sound of thunder didn’t help Ueda sleep. He had never been scared of thunder before. But somehow that night, each time he heard the sound of thunder, he could feel his heart beating fast in fear. He couldn’t take it anymore and decided to get up and wake Ryo up.

“Ryo…” He shook the shoulder of the sleeping man lightly. Ryo growled and just unconsciously slapped Ueda’s hand away and just turned around, and now his back was facing Ueda. “Ryo!” Ueda shook again, but this time much harder.

Ryo still didn’t wake up, so Ueda decided to pinched Ryo’s cheek not so lightly. “Ryo…!!!!”

“What the hell?” Ryo jumped and his eyes opened instantly as he felt pain coming fron his cheek. “Princess? What the hell did you do that for?” he grumbled as he rubbed his cheek.

“Because you sleep like a pig! That’s why,” Ueda retorted back.

“Why were you trying to wake me up anyway?”

“Ano...the thunder scared me, I couldn’t sleep,” he explained.

Ryo laughed upon hearing that. “You’re 25 Ueda, bit too old to be afraid of thunder don’t you think?”

Ueda pouted “I’m not usually like this. But I don’t know why, somehow the thunder scares me, maybe it’s the baby,” he reasoned.

Ryo sighed. Ueda was using the word baby again. ”So what do you want me to do?”

“Can…..can you accompany me?”

“You mean you want me to sleep with you?” Ryo smirked,

Ueda hated the smirk, but he nodded anyway.

Ryo chuckled, “okay….come on!” Ryo said as he got up form the couch and guided Ueda to his bed.

He helped Ueda lie down on the comfortable bed first before joining him. Ryo wrapped his hands around Ueda’s shoulder, practically embracing the older man, Ueda shifted a little to move closer to Ryo, and rested his head on Ryo’s naked chest.

“Do you have to sleep naked? With your boxers on only?”

“Yeah, gotta problem with that? Did I turn you on princess?” Ueda could see Ryo smirking.

“You wish!” Ueda closed his eyes. Ryo smiled before he joined Ueda in deep slumber.

-----

Ueda opened his eyes, and he still could feel Ryo’s hands wrapped around him. Apparently Ryo didn’t move an inch from his position; Ueda unconsciously smiled and looked at Ryo.

“He’s actually cute when he’s not being annoying, especially when he’s asleep,” he commented. He returned his head to Ryo’s chest, and he breathed in Ryo’s scent from the naked skin. “He smells good too.” Ueda caressed the bare skin, and breathed in the addicting scent again. Suddenly he felt the urge to just touch that skin with his lips, seeing that Ryo was still asleep, he decided to follow that urge and put a chaste kiss on Ryo’s chest.

After the first kiss, Ueda decided that he liked the feeling of Ryo’s skin on his lips. So he leaned in again but before he could kiss Ryo’s chest again, Ryo suddenly moved. Ueda quickly pulled back, and pretended to be asleep.

Ryo opened his eyes and groaned. He looked at the clock on the wall, it was still 5 in the morning, and the sun hadn’t even come out yet. He looked down at Ueda whose head was on his chest; he smiled and tightened his embrace. He decided to resume his slumber; he still had a few hours before he had to go to Osaka anyway, he thought.

-----

The next morning Ueda found himself alone in bed.

“Where’s Ryo?” He looked around and found a note on the night stand.

Princes, sorry I didn’t wake you, I have to catch the first train

See you next week

*chuu to Eri*

Ueda sighed, only to Eri huh?

----

Ueda prepared lunch for himself and a smirk grew on his lips as he knew now he could eat anything he wanted. But before he could eat the delicious food he had longed so much to eat, he remembered what Ryo had said about food for the baby. He sighed and reluctantly stopped eating.

He headed to the refrigerator and opened it. He smiled when he found lots of vegetables and several food containers with labels on them. It was Ryo’s hand writing, reminding Ueda what to eat and when. They were a lot of exclamation marks and threatening words on the labels, but Ueda just had to smile at them.

He took one container and put it in the microwave. After the food had warmed up, he took a seat on the couch and consumed the food. He ate the awful tasting food with a smile, he knew he missed Ryo.

“Ne Eri, do you miss you daddy too?” he whispered and rubbed his belly.

----

Ryo woke up and he looked at Ueda, he smiled. “He’s actually cute when he’s not being annoying.” He unconsciously kissed Ueda’s head, and breathed in the scent of Ueda’s hair. He decided that he liked the scent and kissed the brown hair again.

After a few kisses, he looked at the clock and cursed under his breath.

“Shit! I’m late.”

He carefully moved his hand that previously was wrapped around Ueda’s shoulder, and got up slowly, not wanting to wake the other man up. After he got dressed, he picked up a paper and wrote a note. After finished writing, he placed it on the night stand. Ryo made sure Ueda was comfortable enough, pulling up the blanket to cover him and kissed his forehead.

“See you next week princess,”

“What’s that princess doing? Has he eaten his lunch yet?” was what on Ryo’s mind the whole time he was in Osaka. He had to shoot a couple of episodes of Jyaniben, and had a couple of photo shoots with Kanjani 8 for some magazines. It was a very tiring day for him, but he knew it was his fault. He had to ask his manager to adjust the schedule so that he could be in Tokyo for the next two months without having to return to Osaka again. He wanted to be there for Ueda during the delivery and the first weeks with the baby.

He slumped onto the couch, he only had a few minutes to rest in between the shoots. He picked up his phone and dialed the number he had now come to memorize.

“Princess,”

“Ryo!” Ryo could hear the sound of Ueda’s excited voice.

“How’s my little princess?” Ueda stayed silent for a moment, and Ryo started to get worried.

“Eri is fine,” Ryo sighed in relief. But he could also hear Ueda sounded a little disappointed.

“Then why do you sound sad? Is something wrong?” he had to make sure.

“Nothing,” was the only explanation he got. But before he could ask further, he heard the voice of his manager calling him to return to the studio.

“Princess, I got to go for recording again, see you on Friday!”

“Yeah, see you” Ueda still sounded sad, and Ryo wondered what was wrong with Ueda.

“Nishikido!” the yelling voice snapped him from his thoughts.

“Hai! I’m coming!”

Type your cut contents here.

Part of Me 7

2008-10-04T08:54:10Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Supposed to be crack...but i totally failed >__<
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

A/N: Whuahahahaha.....after what it seems to be forever, i finally update this fic ^_^. hope you still remember this. If not, oh well..... i'll just give you the link to the prev ones. It's unbeta-ed, since I just finished writing it and i want to post it on Tat-chan's bday, so please excuse all the mistakes and happy bday Tat-chan!!!

“I’m sorry Ryo…” was the words Ueda kept repeating as he buried his head onto Ryo’s chest.

Ryo could feel a slight of pang on his heart. It’s too late, Ryo thought. Seeing the expression on Ueda’s face, Ryo knew that Ueda had had the fairy to undo the spell. He had lost his baby, their baby. But Ryo didn’t say a word and just kept on rubbing the older man’s back up and down, trying to soothe him.

“It’s okay princess, I know you’re not ready. It’s okay, it’s not your fault” It’s my fault for arriving too late, my fault for not realizing how important the baby was to me. my fault for not telling you to keep the baby.

Ueda lifted his head to face Ryo, “You mean you’re not mad?”

“Why would I be mad?” Ryo answered, and Ueda knew it came after much hesitation, seeing a forceful smile curled up on Ryo’s lips.

“You’re not mad that I didn’t ask Shia to undo my pregnancy? You’re not mad that I’m still carrying this baby?” Ueda asked to make sure.

“You what?” Ryo couldn’t believe what he had just heard.

“I’m still pregnant Ryo.”

Ryo was never been this happy about something in his life. He instinctively kissed Ueda on the lips passionately, pouring all his emotion to the kiss. Ueda was shocked, but he didn’t have enough time to digest what was going on, let alone to respond to the kiss when Ryo broke the kiss too fast to his disappointment.

“Not that I’m just not mad! I’m glad you didn’t do it!” Ryo hugged Ueda tightly.

“W-what?” Ueda almost couldn’t breathe; Ryo was hugging him too tightly.

“I want this baby!” Ryo finally let Ueda go, but his hand was still on Ueda’s waist. Not letting him go completely.

“I want this baby too, but I thought you didn’t want her,” Ueda was still confused. Why was Ryo so happy? He was supposed to be mad at him for still keeping the baby.

“Are you kidding me? I’m panting from running 14 blocks just to stop you from asking that fairy of yours to undo the spell! And I’m glad you didn’t!”

Ueda smiled as Ryo hugged him again. So Ryo had wanted the baby too?

-----

Ueda was at his last months on his pregnancy. Ryo knew he was not supposed to have cravings anymore. But to his disappointment, Ueda’s cravings were not getting lesser.

“You’re on your 8 months!”

“Yeah, so?”

“You’re not supposed to have cravings anymore!”

“So …. You don’t want to buy me karaage? Not even if the baby inside me asking for it? This baby that you so long to have?” Ueda asked with a pout. He lifted his head and made his best puppy eyes expression. “I thought you love her Ryo….”

Ryo could only face palmed himself “Aaarrggh…okay..okay!” Ryo growled in response. He shook his head in exasperation, knowing he couldn’t refuse Ueda’s request, not when he was using ‘the baby’ word.

“Damned that donkey!” Despite his cursing, Ryo still carried out Ueda’s request to come down to the specific convenience store to get him kaarage. “For the baby..its for my precious soon to be born daughter,” he kept reminding himself , “not for that prissy princess,” Ryo assured himself. After he decided that he wanted this baby, he had promised himself that he would do anything for her. Even if that would mean he had to walk 10 blocks away from Ueda’s apartment just to buy him lemon flavored karaage (Ueda didn’t allow him to take the car, he said the baby didn’t want him to) then he’ll do it. For the love of all Johnny’s he’ll do it!

----

“Tadaima~”

“Okaeri” Ueda smiled warmly, greeting Ryo back.

“What are you doing?” Ryo asked as he put down his bag, Ueda was sitting on the couch and he could see an earphone placed around his belly.

“I heard that music can help baby’s brain development.”

“Oh yeah, I’ve heard that too” Ryo said, he walked closer and grabbed one of the CD cases that was scattered on the couch next to Ueda. “Lar’c en ciel???” He picked up another CD case, “Gackt? Miyavi? What the hell do you make our daughter listen to?” he abruptly took the earphone from Ueda’s belly “She supposed to listened classic music like Beethoven or Mozart for God’s sake! Not some J-rock band!”

“But they are good bands! They have good music! Besides, Beethoven is boring, I don’t want our daughter to grow up as a boring girl. She won’t have a lot of friends,” Ueda reasoned.

“She won’t be boring but she’ll grow as a J-rock freak like you!”

Ueda was about to retort back, felling offended, but was stopped when Ryo bended over and caressed his belly lovingly.

“My precious little princess here is not going to be boring, she will be a cute smart little girl and popular like his daddy” Ryo whispered softly before placing a soft kiss to the round belly.

Ueda smiled, Ryo might become a good father, he thought. But soon that thought faded as he heard what Ryo said next.

“Ne..Leah, rather that listening to that freak song, let daddy sing for you okay?”

But before Ryo could sing, a smack was delivered to his head.

“Ouch!”

“LEAH? You’re naming our baby after some porn star?”

“She’s not a porn star! Besides, Leah is a beautiful name”

“A name of a porn star!” Ueda exclaimed.

“She’s not a porn star! She might have some nude pose in some magazine, but she’s not a porn star! That’s a disappointment, but yeah she’s not!”

Ueda raised an eyebrow at his outburst “It’s the same! I’m not naming our daughter after some girl who couldn’t even keep her pants for herself!”

“Fine! Then have you come up with a better name?” Ryo snapped back.

“Actually yes, I have!”

Ryo raised an eyebrow, waiting for Ueda to continue.

“I have always wanted to have a daughter and I will name her Elizabeth.”

Ryo burst out laughing, “you couldn’t even pronounce Elizabeth!’

“Well we can call her Eri!’ Ueda retorted back.

“Leah is better”

“Eri!”

“Leah!”

“Eri!”

Ryo gave up arguing and chose to ignore Ueda for a moment while he headed to the kitchen and began preparing dinner for both of them.

---

After dinner, and as promised, Ryo sang to the baby. Ueda was lying comfortably on his bed, while Ryo sat beside him with his head on Ueda’s belly.

“Code? You’re singing our baby your solo?” Ueda tried to holdback his laughter after hearing the first lyric of code Ryo was singing.

“Why not? It’s a good song! And I want her to recognize his daddy’s voice and song,” Ryo responded, feeling annoyed.

“Not to be sung to a baby! And you could also make her recognize your voice by singing children’s song!”

“Fine!” Ryo glared in irritation but gave up nonetheless, changing his original song to a children’s song.

“That’s better” Ueda smiled feeling victorious. He rested his head back to the head board.

Listening to Ryo singing was also a lullaby to Ueda, soon he felt sleepy and closed his eyes.

After finishing singing and seeing Ueda had fallen asleep, Ryo smiled. He lifted Ueda’s head and positioned him to be more comfortable on the bed. He lifted a blanket to cover Ueda, and stopped halfway to kiss his belly, “Good night Eri, sweet dream my angel,” he whispered softly.

Ueda was not fully asleep as he could still hear Ryo saying that name and he couldn’t help but to smile.

Part Of Me 6

2008-06-14T08:10:28Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Errr I dunno...Crack??
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

A/N: Okay new chapter...pheww...

This one is beta-ed by

shuling89. LOL i have mentioned before that i wrote 3 fics in one night right? and i have 3 beta for 3 fics ..HAHAHAHAHAHA

and since this is a fic request from

xstewpigx but she hasn't read it! *pouts*, she finnaly made the banner..LOL, although i specifically asked for a pregnant Ueda! *pouts* but i like it anyway...but still want preggy Ueda!

well enjoy!

“Tadaima~~” Ryo said as he opened the door to Ueda’s Apartment, getting used to the fact that he had been staying at the older man’s place almost every day, it began to feel like home to him.

“Okaeri,” Ueda replied, but it didn’t sound as enthusiastic as usual.

“Princess, I’ve tried my best to go to the Italian restaurant you want before it closed. But at this hour, traffic is a hell, and when I got there it was already closed. I tried to bang….err, knock the door and force them to open it, I even fought with the owner, but then he threatened to call the police so….I had to go,” Ryo explained with a pitiful look, hoping Ueda wouldn’t be mad at him for not being able to get what Ueda had requested.

“But I still got you the food you want. It’s just that …..it’s from another restaurant.”

“It’s okay,” Ueda replied with a weak voice that Ryo took to be a sign of disappointment.

“Okay, I know you’re not happy with it, but it’s as good as the one from that fat man’s restaurant,” he tried to convince the older man.

“I said it’s okay.”

“You’re not mad?” he asked, unsure.

“No, it’s okay.”

“Okay then. I’ll just prepare them,” Ryo said, bringing the plastic bag he brought to the kitchen and Ueda just give him a nod, not even bothering to look in his direction.

“Here,” Ryo said after he finished preparing the dish and put it on the table in front of Ueda.

“Thanks,” Ueda said without touching the food.

Ryo sighed, knowing that the princess was definitely disappointed because he couldn’t get his request.

“Look Ueda, I know it’s not from the restaurant you want, but I really tried but this fat guy wouldn’t-”

“It’s okay Ryo,” Ueda cut Ryo’s sentence.

“Then why won’t you eat the food? And why do you look so sad?” Ryo asked in concern.

“The fairy came today,” finally Ueda lifted his head to meet Ryo’s eyes.

“What?”

“The fairy that…made this thing happen, she came again.” Ueda explained, gesturing his pregnancy.

“Oh no! What did she do this time? She didn’t…err cast a spell on me too right?”

“No,” Ueda turned his head to look in any other direction but Ryo’s face, “She came to tell me that she remembered the spell.”

“The spell?”

Ueda nodded, “The spell that she cast and caused me to become pregnant.”

“So?”

“So if she remembers the spell, it means she can reverse the spell. She can undo it, she-” Ueda stopped, afraid of what to say next, “She can make me not pregnant anymore.”

“Oh,” Ryo was a little surprised, “So, you’re telling me that you’re not pregnant anymore?”

“No, she hasn’t done it yet. I’m still pregnant.”

“But I thought you said…”

“I just wanted to talk to you about this first. I mean….. you are also a part of this,” Ueda reasoned. He told Shia that he couldn’t make the decision now. He needed to ask Ryo’s opinion on the matter. Luckily the fairy understood and promised to come back once Ueda had made his decision. Ueda was at lost as to what to do, on one hand his pregnancy was a mistake since the beginning, but on the other hand, he had started to develop feelings for the little creature inside him.

“Oh,” and for the first time, Ryo didn’t know how to react.

“So what do you want me to do?” Ueda asked, hoping that Ryo would help him in deciding what to do.

“What? Why are you asking me?”

“Well it’s your baby too”

“Yea but, it’s your body. I mean you’ve suffered through this, and you didn’t want this pregnancy in the first place….right?” Ryo tried to reason. He didn’t know what to do either.

“Yea it’s true,” Ueda quietly mumbled.

“And if I’m not pregnant, then I could go back to work.” Ueda continued, not really knowing whether he was trying to assure Ryo or himself.

“Not to mention those cravings of yours, they are really driving me nuts.” Ryo added, trying to force a small laugh.

“Yeah, so it would make it easier for the both of us.” Ueda stated, but his statement was also a question as he waited nervously for the other man’s reply.

“Yeah,”

“So…. I guess. I should tell Shia to undo this.”

“I guess,” Ryo agreed. But the truth was, he felt a little disappointed. It was true that Ueda’s pregnancy had been a hellish experience for him. Being in two groups was nothing comparing the work Ueda had him do. But somewhere in his heart, he felt just right doing those things for Ueda, although he kept convincing himself that he was doing them for the baby.

The two ate their dinner in silence.

-------------------

Ryo stayed over that night, and as usual, he slept on the couch in the living room. He couldn’t sleep. This was what he wanted right? This was what they wanted? This whole pregnancy thing had been a disaster from the start. They had suffered enough during Ueda’s pregnancy, and Ryo couldn’t imagine the kind of disaster that was definitely coming if the baby was to be born. He’s not ready to be a father yet. Besides, he and Ueda didn’t have that kind of relationship. How could two men—who could barely stand being in the same room without having a fight- raise a child together?

This was the right decision.

Ueda couldn’t sleep too. He caressed his belly, thinking the exact same thing as Ryo was thinking. This couldn’t be carried on anymore; he shouldn’t be pregnant in the first place. He was not ready to be a mother,

Wait, did I say mother? Ryo had really rubbed it off on me.

Ueda sighed. These past few weeks had been a completely disaster. But he couldn’t deny that he was also getting used to the presence of the baby in his belly. He had started to grow love for the being inside him. But he couldn’t keep her, not when he still had his career at its peak, and especially not when Ryo also didn’t seem to want the baby. He couldn’t be a single parent. He needed Ryo, and Ryo clearly did not want the baby.

This was the right decision.

---------------

Jin happily strolled into NEWS dressing room.

“Pi~, Ryo-chan~”

“Do you have to make us deaf this early Jin?” Ryo grunted, rubbing his ears in annoyance.

“I’m not! And this is not early anymore! It’s almost lunch time!” Jin said as he pounced on Yamapi who was reading a magazine. “I just want to take you guys out for lunch!”

“Sure~ I’m hungry too, and we still have a pack of routines to do after this. Come on Ryo!” Yamapi said, putting down his magazine and got up from the couch.

“Yey! Let’s go!” Jin happily stood up too and went back to cling on Pi’s shoulder.

“Aargh! Alright, I need fresh air anyway,” Ryo said trying to look unwilling, but the truth was he really needed something to distract him from the problem that was currently occupying his mind. He could barely sleep last night, and he spent the whole morning spacing out, thinking about Ueda and his pregnancy.

The three best friends went to the restaurant Jin had picked. Unfortunately, it was the same restaurant Ryo almost broke in last night. So when the owner of the restaurant recognized Ryo, he quickly closed the door as a sign of rejection.

”What was that all about Ryo?”

“Nothing, come on! We’ll find other restaurant.”

“But I want to eat there~” Jin whined, “I want to eat Italian food!”

“There’s a bunch of other Italian restaurants.”

“But that one is the best,” Jin kept whining but Ryo ignored him and dragged him away.

On the way to finding another Italian restaurant, they passed by the park and stopped when suddenly Jin craved for an ice cream. Ryo grunted and wait for his friend to buy ice cream in the stall in front of the park.

There was nothing unusual about the sight of the park that day. Children were playing happily and there were even some couples spending their time basking in the glow of romance. But Ryo’s eyes were caught by a certain view. A family was having a picnic in the park. A couple of young parents with their two kids were spending their afternoon together. The mom was preparing the lunch while the father was playing with their little son and daughter. They looked so happy and suddenly Ryo was reminded of his dream. About him, Ueda and their daughter playing in the park, having a picnic just like that family in the park he saw.

Suddenly it hit him.

“Ryo!! Where are you going?” Pi asked as he realized that Ryo was leaving.

“Sorry I have something to do! You guys go on without me!” he said before dashing away, disappearing from sight, leaving a confused Yamapi and a clueless Jin behind.

Ryo ran as fast as he could, hoping that it’s not too late for him to get to Ueda’s apartment. He had to stop Ueda and that little fairy of his from undoing the spell. He wanted this, he was sure. He wanted the baby to be born. He wanted to be able to play in the park with her. He wanted his daughter.

Ryo slammed the door open, luckily for him Ueda didn’t lock it, since he was too lazy to even get up from the couch and lock the door. He knew it.

“Princess!” Ryo called out as he scanned the room. He was a little afraid when he spotted Ueda sitting on the couch.

Ueda lifted his head when he heard Ryo, and Ryo could see the trace of tears from his eyes.

“Princess? Have you been crying?”

“I’m sorry Ryo.” Ueda answered weakly.

TBC

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Come As You Are 4

2008-06-13T03:21:42Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: I wrote 3 fics in 1 night!!!!!! obviously had nothing to do....HAHAHAHAHAHA
well, hope you like all of them. but i'll post this one 1st

“Yo! Bakanishi!” Ueda was just about to pack his things when he heard a familiar voice echoing in the dressing room.

“Ryo! Pi!” Jin greeted as he saw his two best friends entering the KAT-TUN dressing room.

“Are you guys done practicing?” Jin nodded.

“Good! We’re done too. How bout grabbing some lunch?”

“Sure!” Jin jumped from his seat excitingly, “I’ve missed eating lunch with Ryo-chan~” Jin said as he pounced on Ryo and clung onto him.

“Get off me Bakanishi!” Ryo tried to free himself from Jin. Jin pouted at Ryo’s reaction and went to cling on his other best friend. Luckily for him, Pi didn’t mind.

“You guys wanna come along?” Pi offered to the rest of KAT-TUN.

“Koki and I have other plans,” Maru said, shaking his head.

“And I have a lunch date!” Junno said excitedly.

“I’ll go with you guys!” Kame took up the invitation and Jin couldn’t be happier. He grinned and grabbed Kame by the wrist.

“Uebo?” Pi said to the last person in the band who hadn’t given his answer yet.

Ueda hesitated for a moment, not knowing what to answer.

“I’m sure he has some beauty appointment.” Suddenly Ryo answered for him. Ueda was slightly hurt by that, not because of the comment, but because of what Ryo was implying. He didn’t want Ueda to tag along with them, and this made Ueda sad.

“Ryo-chan!”

“It’s okay. Ryo is right, I do have an appointment.”

“See? The princess needs to have his weekly skin treatment.” Ryo laughed at his own smart comment. Pi just sighed and rolled his eyes in his friend’s direction before he smacked the shorter man’s head.

“Okay then, see you tomorrow!”

Ueda didn’t exactly have any appointment that day, but he knew better than to tag along when he was sure he wasn’t wanted, especially by a certain someone.

When everyone had gone and he was left alone in the room, he grabbed the bento he brought from home and a memory flashed through his mind as he saw his bento box.

“Here”

“What’s this?”

“What does it look like? It’s a bento.”

“I can see that,” Ueda rolled his eyes. “But why are you giving me a bento?”

“Well, it’s lunch time, and I see you’re not eating anything, and I know you’re hungry so I’m giving you this bento! Sometimes I wonder how your brain works.”

Ueda pretended he didn’t hear Ryo’s last comment, “So you’re giving me your lunch?”

“Why would I want to give you my lunch? I need to eat too you know, I mean with the busy schedule I have, I need to eat properly or else I might easily catch-”

“Yeah…yeah….yeah…got the point! You’re MR. BUSY!” Ueda cut Ryo’s babble and he sighed. “So whose lunch is it then?”

“It’s yours!”

“Its…mine?”

“Yeah, I made it for you.”

“Y-you made me lunch?”

“Yes, I made you lunch,” Ryo sighed. “Are you done questioning? Cos if you don’t want this, I know a certain pig in the NEWS dressing room who certainly wants this-” before Ryo could finish his sentence, Ueda quickly snatched the bento from his hand.

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As Ueda arrived at the roof top, he sat in the corner where he usually had his lunch. He leaned his back on the railing and opened his bento. The air felt different that day, and Ueda knew it was the air of loneliness. Ryo used to have lunch together with him there, in their private meeting place, away from everyone, where they can be themselves. No mask, no pretence. Just two lovers who were deeply in love, spending their limited quality time together, sharing words of love. Ueda chuckled at that thought. Ryo was never a man with words of love. Although sometimes Ryo slipped some words he knew Ryo would never have said consciously. But knowing what Ryo felt made Ueda felt very precious.

“Here.”

“What’s this?”

“What does it look like? It’s a bento.”

“I can see that,” Ryo rolled his eyes “But why are you giving me a bento?”

“Are we doing this again?” Ueda shoved the bento to Ryo’s hand. “I made them for you, as a thank you for making me lunch yesterday.”

Ryo opened the bento box and was surprised.

“How did you know it’s my favorite food?”

Ueda just smiled, “Just eat it Nishikido!” he ordered and took out another box of bento for himself.

“Ah umai~” Ryo commented on the first bite.

“Really?”

Ryo nodded. He ate the lunch eagerly, as if he hadn’t been eating for days.

“You don’t have to, you know,” Ryo mumbled with his mouth full.

“Eh?”

“You don’t have to make me lunch.”

“But you made me one. Why shouldn’t I?”

“Because I wanted to be the one who make them for you, not the other way around.”

He ate his bento with a forced smile, trying to remember those beautiful times with Ryo, but the more he remembered, the more he couldn’t hold back the tears rolling from his eyes.

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Ueda was on his way to go back to his dressing room when he passed NEWS’s dressing room and heard a conversation. He couldn’t help eavesdropping as he heard a familiar voice.

“What do you mean Uchi is not with us anymore?”

“I didn’t say that. It is only temporary anyway. Well I think so…”

“You think so?”

“What happened?”

“Uchi was caught drinking, and he wasn’t at a legal age to drink back then. So Johnny suspended him.” A voice, Ueda was sure to be Yamapi’s, explained

“Suspended?” Ueda took a step closer and took a peek at the room. He could see Ryo’s surprised face. “But he’ll be back right?”

“Well, it was supposed to be a temporary suspension, but it has been three years already and-”

“I’ll talk to that bald old man. Uchi cannot be suspended! Not from NEWS not from Kanjani.” Ryo said. He was about to leave the room and head to Johnny’s office when Yamapi grabbed his wrist and stopped him.

“Wait Ryo, no!” Ryo turned around and tried to free himself from Yamapi’s grip. “There’s nothing we can do. Besides, Uchi is back to work again. He’s doing a drama now. So it’s a sign of his returning, and also Kusano.” Yamapi assured.

“Kusano too?”

Yamapi nodded “Kusano was also caught drinking. He was suspended not long after Uchi.”

“What the hell happened in three years? I-” Ryo suddenly stopped and clutched his head, his face expressing pain.

“Ryo-chan, are you okay?” Pi asked in concern as he saw Ryo started to groan in pain.

“Aargh..my head! It hurts so bad Pi!” Ryo groaned and fell onto the floor. He still held his head and pulled his hair. Seeing this, Ueda panicked too, Ryo was in pain but he didn’t know what to do. He knew he couldn’t do anything. But seeing the man he loved experiencing such a great pain, Ueda felt a pang in his heart.

“Ryo…come on! I’ll take you to the hospital.” Yamapi tried to help Ryo get up. He took Ryo’s arm and put them around his shoulder, trying to support him as he helped Ryo walk.

Ryo was getting a headache from the shocking news about Uchi. And Ueda wondered, if he told him about their relationship, what could have happened to Ryo? Would Ryo feel that kind of pain too? Ueda wanted Ryo to remember about him, about their love, but would the memory bring pain to Ryo instead of happiness?

“Ueda?” Yamapi acknowledged his presence in front of the NEWS dressing room.

“I-I was just passing by when I heard a scream.”

“Help me! We need to get Ryo-chan to the hospital!” Pi requested and Ueda was more than willing to help. He nodded and took Ryo’s other hand to put it around his shoulder, and helped Pi bring Ryo to the hospital.

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Come As You Are 3

2008-05-30T13:10:54Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: Okayyyy...finally exam's are over ! yey! so i have time to finish my fics. yep! all of them. cos i only have 2 weeks off to finish...3 fics of mine! *sighs*. well anyway, thanx </a></b></a>resha_hime for beta-ing this, even though u almost burn ur kitchen bcoz of this LOL!

Ueda washed his face several times, but no matter how many times he rinsed away those tears on his face, they kept flowing out from his eyes. He looked at his own reflection in the mirror. How did it become like this? Last week, Ryo was smiling at him, asking him to marry him in the most romantic way, but now? He was lying there, helplessly. It had been a week and even though the doctors kept convincing him that Ryo will be awake soon, Ryo still hadn’t opened his eyes. He didn’t want to lose hope, but slowly Ueda began to believe that he was starting to lose the person he loved the most.

“Damn it Ryo!” Ueda threw his fist against the wall. “Wake up damn it!” he burst into tears again, and fell to the floor, suddenly feeling hopeless and useless. He couldn’t do anything for his boyfriend, and he couldn’t even stay in the hospital long enough to be with Ryo before their friends arrived. He wanted to cry, but he could only do it in silence, he was alone, with no one to comfort him.

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After Yamapi and Jin told the doctor about their discovery, the medical team ran a few tests to examine Ryo.

“Sensei, what is wrong with my friend?” Yamapi asked in concern as he saw that the doctors had finished examining Ryo.

“Apparently, the hard bump he experienced during the accident had caused a post-traumatic amnesia.” the doctor explained.

“Amnesia? But he remembers us?!”

“Yes, Nishikido-kun only lost some parts of his memory, apparently the recent ones.”

“He believes that this year is 2005, does that mean he lost 3 years of his memory?”

“I believe so Yamashita-kun.”

“Excuse me? Don’t talk about me as if I’m not here!” The three men turned their heads to face an annoyed Ryo. “So you’re telling me, that I lost my memory and forgot everything that had happened in the last 3 years?”

The doctor nodded, “I can’t say for sure that you only lost 3 years of your memory. Maybe you remember some or maybe you even lost some of the years before. But don’t worry, this type of amnesia is usually only temporary, although there is a possibility for it being permanent.”

Suddenly their conversation was interrupted when a sound of something falling to the floor was heard. They looked at the source of the sound, and saw Ueda standing by the door.

“I…I’m sorry,” Ueda said as he picked up the bottle of vitamins he had dropped.

“Who’s that girl? Your girlfriend Jin?” Ryo asked, seeing a beautiful feminine figure by his door. The figure had the prettiness of a girl; brown locks falling to cover ‘her’ face as the person bent over to reach for the fallen object.

“Girl?” Jin laughed.

“That’s not a girl, Ryo! That’s Ueda.” Yamapi explained

“U-Ueda?”

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Ueda gathered his strength and got up; he had cried the whole time he was in the bathroom. He washed his face again, and looked himself in the mirror. His eyes were red “Shit!” he cursed.

He let out a heavy sigh and willed himself to be strong. He needed to be strong for him, and for Ryo.

He bought some vitamins from the pharmacy, he didn’t need any but he need some evidence to show his friends that he was indeed going to the hospital to buy some medicine, not to visit Ryo.

As he arrived in front of Ryo’s room he heard from the slightly opened door a conversation between a few men. He heard something about Ryo being awake and as he heard this news, his heart filled with joy and relief. Ryo was finally awake, but he was also sad that he wasn’t there when Ryo woke up. He wasn’t the first one Ryo saw after a week of being in coma. He wasn’t there to smack Ryo’s head for making him worried and miserable for days. But despite all of that, he was glad. Glad that his lover was finally back with him.

“Apparently, the hard bump he experienced during the accident had caused a post-traumatic amnesia.” Ueda heard the doctor explain.

What? He must have heard it wrong. Amnesia?

“So you’re telling me, that I lost my memory, and forgot everything that had happened the last 3 years?” Another voice was heard. And Ueda’s heart was beating faster as he heard this voice. The familiar voice he longed to hear.

But when he took in the meaning behind Ryo’s words, once again Ueda was left shocked. His grip was getting weaker and he couldn’t help dropping the medicine he held in his hand as he heard the shocking news.

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“Yamashita-kun, Akanishi-kun, can I talk to you outside?”

The boys nodded and followed the doctor, leaving Ryo and Ueda alone in the room.

Ueda didn’t know why, but he was nervous.

“So…princess” Ryo began, “You finally decided to change your gender, huh?”

“Huh?” Ueda couldn’t believe his ears. Was Ryo mocking him? He was used to being mocked and ridiculed by Ryo, but not when the two of them were alone in the room. Ryo must’ve really lost his memory.

“I said you’re turning into a girl. You need to change that girly hair cut of yours, its blocking your ear.”

Ueda was hurt and surprised. He didn’t imagine that the first words Ryo would say when he woke up were words of ridicule and mockery. Right at that moment, a million of questions and thoughts were running through his mind. Had Ryo really lost his memory? His memory of the two of them? About their relationship? About his love for him?

“Don’t tell me you’ve lost your ability to talk too?” Ryo raised his eyebrows, “I can’t believe a lot of things changed in three years.”

Ryo really did lose his memory. At that realization, once again Ueda felt weak in the knees, and his face went pale. He didn’t want it to become like this.

“Oh God! Are you crying princess?” Ryo said as he saw tears slowly rolling down Ueda’s cheeks. “I guess something didn’t change after all. Still the same old cry baby,” Ryo laughed again and Ueda couldn’t take it. He forced his weak knees to help him run out from Ryo’s room.

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“What do you mean you don’t know? You’re the doctor!”

“Yes, but these kinds of cases are not easy to determine. I don’t know what Nishikido-kun remembers and I don’t know what he has forgotten. Only him and you as his friends know. And only you and the people around him can help him gain his memory back,” the doctor explained.

“How are we supposed to do that?”

“By helping him remember, telling him what he has forgotten,” he advised.

“I see.”

“But I must warn you, Nishikido-kun’s condition is still weak. His brain is not strong enough to receive too much information, So you must help him remember slowly. I suggest you start with some simple and light events. Save the events that affect Nishikido-kun’s emotions for later, when his brain is ready.”

“I see, doctor.”

“Well, I leave him to you then. Good luck Yamashita-kun, Akanishi-kun.” the doctor said, patting Yamapi’s shoulder as he left the two friends.

“Thank you, doctor,” the two boys bowed. And they returned to Ryo’s room.

“Heh? Where’s Ueda?” Jin asked as he realized Ryo was alone in his room.

“Running away as usual,” Ryo answered simply.

“From?” Jin asked back, bewildered by Ryo’s answer.

“What did you do, Ryo?” Yamapi rolled his eyes, seemingly knowing the cause as to why Ueda left.

“I guess he still remember how to make Ueda cry after all.”

“Couldn’t possibly forget about that,” Ryo smirked.

The two boys could only shake their heads at Ryo’s actions.

“So what did the doctor tell you?” Ryo asked, curious as to why the doctor wanted to talk to his friends alone.

“Not much really, he just told us to help you gain your memory back.”

Ryo sighed “I can’t believe I don’t remember anything, I mean, you said it is 2008 but the last thing I remember was…” Ryo stopped and tried to remember, “…celebrating the release of our new single.”

“Single?”

“Yeah,” he stopped again to think. “Teppen!”

“Oh that!” Yamapi smiled, “Well Ryo, that was years ago, and now we have released our 9^th single ‘Summer time’, just before your accident.”

“9^th?” Ryo was amazed

“Yup! 9^th!”

“And you know what Ryo?” Jin didn’t want to be left behind, “We’ve released a new single too! Our 7^th!”

“We?”

“Yeah! Me and the guys! KAT-TUN!”

“You guys…… debuted?”

“Yup! We debuted in 2006,” Jin said proudly.

Jin and Yamapi continued their updates on the major things that had happened in the last 3 years. They were so excited in telling Ryo about them that they had forgotten all about Ueda.

Meanwhile, Ueda was already on his way home. After knowing the fact that Ryo had lost some of his memories, he sprang out of the hospital and headed straight home. He had suffered for the last few days, and now when Ryo was finally awake from his coma, when Ueda was supposed to feel bliss at having his boyfriend back, he ended up feeling even more miserable than before. Ryo had forgotten everything about him, about their relationship. Ueda didn’t have his lover back in his arms; in fact he had lost him.

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The JE boys decided to throw Ryo a welcome back party. They had been told about Ryo’s condition by Yamapi and Jin. They all gathered to welcome Ryo back and one by one, they told Ryo some funny and interesting events that Ryo had forgotten. Yamapi had to stop them and warned them that Ryo could not take too much information for now. Ryo scowled at his friend’s over protectiveness, but he knew that Pi was only doing it as the doctor had advised him to.

Everyone in JE was invited, from SMAP until the juniors. Ueda hesitated in joining the party at first, but Jin insisted and he couldn’t say no to his friend, especially when everyone was there. When everyone approached Ryo to ask him about his condition, to ask what he could remember or even to joke around with him, Ueda could only watch Ryo from a distance. For a moment everything looked so normal, as if Ryo hadn’t lost his memory at all, he was smiling and laughing with his friends, just like before the accident. Ueda stared at Ryo intensely, when suddenly Ryo looked back his way. Ueda felt like he was being caught, but then Ryo was smiling his way. A slight glimmer of hope came to Ueda’s mind, convincing himself that maybe Ryo didn’t lose all his recent memories, maybe Ryo could still remember a little about him, about them. But his hope was again crushed as Ryo suddenly walked closer towards him.

“Yo, fish lips!” Ryo began as he stopped in front of Ueda. “Gosh! I still couldn’t get over the fact that you’ve turned into a girl.”

Words of ridicule were thrown again at him, and Ueda knew this time they were real. They weren’t just random mockery Ryo threw to pretend and act in front of his friends, to cover their relationship. Those were not the kind of words he wished Ryo to say when he saw Ryo smiling at him. He knew now the smile was not the loving smile Ryo usually threw at him, it was more like a smirk. A smirk filled with mockery and contempt.

“I mean seriously, I’m glad that you’ve passed that weird Gackt phase of yours, but this?” he laughed, “Well at least you were a fanboy of Gackt.” He burst out laughing, a little louder this time.

And again, Ueda didn’t reply. He tried to say something in retort, but only ended up gaping. Ryo was laughing at him, in front of his face. Ryo who was so kind and loving to him a few weeks ago, was now back to the same person he hated years ago, the person who always threw harsh words like a stabbing knife to his heart.

Ueda couldn’t take it any longer. He ran as fast as he could, heading nowhere but just running away from everyone, from Ryo.

He didn’t know how far he had run when he stopped in the middle of an empty street when he felt he had no more strength left to run. He slumped on the ground with his eyes staring blankly on the asphalt beneath him and tears began flowing from his eyes. The doctor had said that Ryo’s amnesia could be temporary, but he couldn’t ignore the fact that it might also be permanent.

“Am I losing you Ryo?”

Part Of Me 5

2008-05-29T11:39:20Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Errr I dunno...Crack??
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

A/N: Finally! i could update this fic! LOL. I see resha_hime and shuling89 are finally doing their share too, so it gave me a little motivation to continue this, ^_____^. so xstewpigx, hope you enjoy your mpreg fics!

Ueda looked at his own reflection in the mirror, there was no way he could hide his pregnancy any longer. His tummy was getting bigger as the days flew by and even his baggy pants and loose shirts couldn’t cover them anymore. He was getting worried; his pregnancy was bound to get found out soon. The manager thought that he was over eating and he had told him to lose weight and forced him to go on a diet, the same one Jin went through when he had just got back from America. There was no other way; he had to tell the agency about it. But how would he do that? He couldn’t just tell Johnny that he was pregnant now could he?

He glanced at his watch and cursed under his breath, he was late. He quickly grabbed his bag, walked out of his apartment and headed to the Jimusho. On his way to the car, he grabbed his cell phone and sent a text message to Ryo, telling him to meet him after work. He needed to have a few words with the man who was the cause of all that had happened.

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Practice had been tiring that day. With their album coming out soon, KAT-TUN had to do some promotions, TV shows, and photo shoots.

“Thank God it’s all over!” Kamenashi let out a heavy sigh as he launched himself onto the couch.

“Yeah, I need to eat!” Jin said in agreement. “Can we eat first before we go home, Kame?”

“Jin, you just ate a big meal on our last break,” Kamenashi rolled his eyes at his boyfriend.

“Yeah, but that was what? An hour ago? I’ve used up a lot of energy, Kame,” Jin reasoned, “I need to recharge.”

Kamenashi could just sigh, “Oh, fine! Let’s go!” he said before forcing himself to get up from the couch.

“Yosh! Let’s go!” Jin cheered happily.

“Are you coming, Ueda? You look like you need some ‘recharging’ yourself,” Kame said, turning his attention to where Ueda was standing.

Ueda shook his head weakly. He felt a little dizzy actually, but he didn’t want his friend to be worried, so he mumbled something about Kame and Jin going first and he would catch up with them later.

Kame nodded and followed the suddenly energized Jin off to the nearest Italian restaurant, Kame was sure that was definitely Jin’s destination.

Right after Kame had closed the door behind him, Ueda felt his knees getting weaker, his vision was getting blurry and the dizziness in his head was no longer bearable. A few seconds later, he collapsed onto the floor.

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Ryo had just finished packing his stuff, when he remembered that earlier that day the princess had sent a text to meet him after work. After making sure that the rest of the NEWS members had gone home and left him alone in the building, he headed to KAT-TUN dressing room to meet the princess.

“Princess? You here?” Ryo opened the door slowly. Scanning the room for any sign of the older man, his eyes widened in shock as he saw a body lying on the floor.

“Princess!” He hurriedly went over to the collapsed body, and lifted Ueda’s head into his lap. “Princess! Are you okay? Princess!” He called out as he shook Ueda’s body, hoping his actions would wake the other man. Seeing as his efforts were futile, he lifted the weak body and carried him out. “Damn! He’s heavy!” he cursed silently.

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Ryo waited anxiously as the doctor examined Ueda. Ueda had gained his consciousness, and Ryo could see the doctor was talking to him.

“Sensei, how is he?” he asked as soon as he saw that the doctor had finished talking to Ueda.

“He’s fine. He was just tired, from overworking himself I presume,” the doctor rolled his eyes to Ueda. “Ueda-kun, please don’t overwork yourself. You should take care of your health and the baby inside you,” the doctor continued to advice Ueda.

Ueda just nodded and sighed. He knew the doctor was right.

After making sure that Ueda got the treatment he needed, the doctor left the two men alone in the room.

“What do we have to do, Ryo?” Ueda asked, he looked down and caressed his own abdomen which was no longer six packed as it used to be. He slowly looked up to meet Ryo’s eyes. His face was filled with concern. “I mean look at me! I’m getting fat and I can’t even work normally anymore,” he complained.

“We have to tell Johnny-san about this,” Ryo simply answered.

“But how are we going to tell him? I mean my condition is beyond normal. Should I just tell him: ‘Johnny-san, you know what? One night Nishikido and I got drunk and we ended up screwing each other and guess what, thanks to some fairy’s magic spell, I’m pregnant now!’ Like that? ” Ueda rolled his eyes.

“You have any better ideas?” Ryo rolled his eyes back, and Ueda couldn’t say a word. “I thought so,” Ryo sighed.

“Fine! We’ll tell him the truth. But can we skip the fairy part? I mean, I don’t want him to think that I’m some crazy delusional weirdo or something.”

“Princess, trust me, everybody in the entire Jimusho already thinks you are some crazy delusional weirdo,” that comment just earned Ryo a smack in the head.

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“Okay,” The old man said after the Ryoda couple told him the big news. “No problem, I will announce your hiatus and give you time to concentrate on delivering the baby.”

“What?” The two boys were shocked at how calm Johnny’s voice sounded.

“You’re not asking why am I pregnant? And how on earth could I be pregnant when the fact is that I am a guy?” Ueda asked in disbelief.

“Nope! I understand that this universe is weird,” Johnny answered calmly.

“See, princess? I told you everyone thinks you’re weird.”

“Shut up, Nishikido! And he didn’t say I am weird, he said the UNIVERSE is weird!”

“Well, he meant you, he’s just being nice,” another comment from Ryo that earned him another smack on the head.

“Okay stop it you two! See? This is why the universe is mad as give you two this” Johnny sighed. “Ueda-kun, it is up to you if you want to tell your band mates or not, but I have to keep your secret from the media. I hope you’ll understand,” he continued.

“I understand Johnny-san. And thank you so much for your understanding.”

“Okay, now get the hell out of here,” the old man said.

The boys bowed and excused themselves from Johnny’s office.

“I can’t believe he’s so calm about this, he took it very well,” Ueda said in disbelief.

“Well, you’re not the only one who is weird in this company I guess.”

Another smack in the head.

“Ouch! Will you stop that?”

“You’re the one who should stop THAT! If you didn’t notice, I’m carrying your baby here!” Ueda rolled his eyes.

“So?”

“So you might want to consider NOT hurting the feelings of the man who is in charge of delivering YOUR baby safely!”

Ryo sighed, “Woman!” He muttered under his breath.

“I heard that!”

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Ueda decided to tell their friends the truth about his condition, without the fairy part of course. So when they asked how it happened, he just shrugged and said “It’s a weird universe.”

Surprisingly, their friends took the news of his pregnancy pretty well. But they laughed their ass off when they heard that it was Ryo who got him pregnant.

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The Jimusho announced Ueda’s hiatus as Johnny had promised. KAT-TUN would continue their activity as a five personnel band. The fans seemed to be used to one member of KAT-TUN going on hiatus, so it didn’t affect the band’s popularity too much.

Ueda stayed in his apartment most of the time, and Ryo would come to visit him and to take care of him after work or on his days off. He even stayed over sometimes when he felt too tired to go home. And Ueda still loved to give Ryo a hard time with his ridiculous requests, even when he knew he was no longer craving over something as his pregnancy advanced in stages. He just loved tormenting the younger man.

“Ryo! The baby’s kicking,” Ueda said as he felt something inside him.

“What?” Ryo was cooking their lunch. Since this was his day off, he stayed at Ueda’s apartment the whole day.

“I said the baby’s kicking.”

Ryo walked closer to where Ueda was sitting, and touched Ueda’s belly. He almost jumped in surprise as he felt the movement of his baby.

“She is!” Ryo was excited “She kicked so hard, she’s going to be a good soccer player,” He commented.

“What makes you think it’s a she?”

“I didn’t think it’s a she, I KNOW it’s a she.”

“What if the baby is a boy?”

“Then he’ll make a pretty boy like his mother, since the baby I saw in my dream is pretty like a girl.”

“Dream? You dreamt about our baby?”

Ryo blushed as he realized what he just said, “Well, yeah…. kind of.”

“What did you dream about?” Ueda asked. A small smirk appeared on his lips.

“Well our baby is a girl, and she grew up to be a pretty girl, with long and curly hair, fair skin and cute just like a doll. And we played with her in the park, having a picnic…”

Ryo went on with the story of his dream and Ueda didn’t realize that a small smile was formed on his own lips. The life in Ryo’s dream that Ryo was describing was beautiful and happy, he wished he could have that kind of life with Ryo and his baby. He was smiling until he realized something.

“Did you just say her MOTHER?”

“Yeah, I was referring to you,” Ryo stopped as his story was cut off by Ueda.

“I will not be the mother!”

“Oh come on! You’re the girly one, you were the one who got pregnant, and you definitely were the bottom. So yeah, that makes you the MOTHER.”

“Ryo!”

Ryo received yet again another smack on his head for, but this time Ueda did it with a smile.

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“Ueda-kun” A soft whispering voice was heard.

Ueda was sitting leisurely on his couch, reading his magazine while waiting for Ryo to come home with dinner.

“Shia!” Ueda exclaimed as he saw a tiny creature flying by the window.

“I have good news for you,” Shia said happily, she flew closer to Ueda and stopped in front of his face.

“What is it?” Ueda asked.

“I remember the spell!” Shia said excitedly, “And now I can undo it! You don’t have to be pregnant anymore!”

Come As You Are 2

2008-05-26T12:38:48Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: from PG to NC17

A/N: wow! how come i ended up updating this one? I was supposed to be writing Part of Me! (no xoza! u're supposed to be studying!)
Oh well...enjoy! here's chapter 2!
Thanks resha_himefor the beta!

“Ni-…Nishikido?”

Ueda stayed silent for a moment, trying to digest the shocking news he heard about his boyfriend. Did he hear it correctly? Ryo had an accident. That couldn’t be true. He just spent a wonderful night with Ryo the night before, and this morning, he just read a note from Ryo, saying that he had been on his way to Osaka. It couldn’t be Ryo!

“Yeah… Nishikido,” Nakamaru confirmed. “I know you are not close to him, but we should go to the hospital. I mean, we should visit him as a co-worker. Is it alright with you?”

Suddenly Ueda couldn’t feel his legs. His eyes widened in shock. His heart was beating so fast, he was sure it would explode any second.

“O-of course. Of course we should visit him.” He finally managed to say something. Ueda tried to stay calm, but the truth was, his mind was in deep shock. But he knew if he showed a panicked expression, his friend would become suspicious. No one knew about his relationship with Ryo, and he didn’t know what Ryo would think if he let slip the secret to his friends.

“Glad you think that way. Ah, there’s Koki and Junno. We can go to the hospital now.” Maru said to his friend when Koki and Junno finally arrived to join them.

Ueda still couldn’t move.

“Ueda? Are you okay? We should go now.” Nakamaru said, confused as to why Ueda was distracted.

“Huh?” Ueda snapped from his daze. “Oh, okay.” he tried his best to hide his emotions and to remain as calm as possible. He finally managed to move his legs and followed his band mates.

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As the four arrived at the hospital, they could see their band mates and the rest of the NEWS members, waiting anxiously outside the emergency room.

“Kame ! Jin!” Nakamaru called out to his band mates who were already in the hospital. They went there as soon as they heard the news of Nishikido’s accident. “How is he?”

“We still haven’t heard anything. The doctors haven’t explained anything to us. They are still trying to save him, in there.” Jin pointed to the room across them.

“Ah! Ueda you’re here too. Glad you can come. I know Ryo is always being an ass to you. But I’m glad you care enough to come here.” Yamapi said as he saw Ueda standing behind the new arrived KAT-TUN members.

Ueda didn’t say a word and just nodded as a reply. He was still in shock and was at a loss as to what to do or what to think. He turned his attention to the door Jin was pointing at. Ryo was inside that room, lying there helplessly while the doctors were trying to help him. He felt like dying now, he tried his best to prevent his legs from rushing to the door and just seeing his lover. How was he? Was he wounded badly? Would he survive? Would he be able to see his lover again?

After what seemed like forever for Ueda, finally the door opened and a man with a blue surgery uniform came out.

“Sensei! How is my friend?” Jin rushed to the said figure.

“We have done our best, and now he has passed the critical stage. He is still unconscious now, but I am optimistic that he should be awake soon. You can all relax now, your friend will be alright.” the doctor explained.

Ueda felt like a giant rock had been removed from his shoulders. He let out a long sigh, and thanked God in his heart. Ryo was alright, and he could brush off all the bad thoughts from his head.

“Can we see him now?” Yamapi asked eagerly.

“You can see him, but not all of you at the same time. Maybe one or two at a time,” the doctor answered with a smile.

“Thank you sensei,” Yamapi bowed as a thank you gesture.

After Ryo had been transferred to his room, the boys took turn to see him in his room. Jin and Pi, being Ryo’s best friend, went in first. After that, the rest of the NEWS members took turns.

After Koyama and Shige came out from Ryo’s room, Kame was about to enter the room as he noticed it was KAT-TUN’s turn now. He nodded to Nakamaru’s direction as a sign for him to come along, when suddenly Ueda said, “I’ll come with you Kame!”

Kame was a little surprised by Ueda’s eagerness, but he assumed Ueda was being kind and caring even to people who had always treated him badly.

“Sure,” Kame replied with a smile.

When he entered the room with Kame, Ueda heart was broken at the view. There Ryo was, his secret lover, lying helplessly on the hospital bed. He was supported by medical machines and wires, some parts of his body were bound up to protect his wounds. He looked so fragile. Never in his live had he seen Ryo this weak and helpless. Ryo was always being the strong man he knew. And now he was lying there helplessly, eyes closed as if he was sleeping.

“R-ryo..” Ueda cried in silence. He couldn’t do anything, he wanted to hug him but he couldn’t do it. Not in front of his friends. He still didn’t know how Ryo would feel if he woke up and found out that Ueda had hugged the younger man in front of his friends, and their secret leaked out. Ryo would be mad. So he shrugged that thought away and tried to remain as calm as possible.

Suddenly Kame’s phone rang. He flipped it open and excused himself to take the call outside. Ueda nodded.

While Kame was taking the call outside, Ueda used this opportunity to walk closer to Ryo’s bed and slowly took Ryo’s weak hand and held it tightly. “Ryo…you bastard! What do you think you’re doing! Trying to scare me, huh?” He tried his best to hold back the tears that were starting to well up in his eyes. “You better wake up soon, or I….” Ueda finally gave in, the tears were flowing from his eyes. He kissed Ryo’s hand and buried his face in it, sobbing silently against his lover’s hand.

“Ueda?” Kame suddenly came back into Ryo’s room, Ueda quickly moved his hand away from Ryo’s and discreetly wiped the tears from his eyes.

“Huh?” he turned around to face Kame.

“That was our manager; we should go back to the studio quickly.” Kame informed.

Ueda could only nod and said, “Okay.”

Kame had asked their manager’s permission for Jin to stay at the hospital. Jin was Ryo’s best friend, so it was important for him to stay and waited for Ryo to wake up. Ueda on the other hand, didn’t share any special relation with Ryo, or at least that was what the others knew. He still had to go and continue his work. If only Kame knew the real situation, he was sure that Kame would also ask their manager’s permission for him to stay. He wished he could stay with Jin and the other NEWS members in the hospital, waiting for Ryo to wake up.

But Ryo didn’t wake up that day, or for the next few days to come

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Ryo had been unconscious for a week now, and each day Ueda would discreetly go to the hospital when he had time and when he was sure that no one, especially his friends, was in the hospital. Ueda would just be there, sitting next to Ryo’s bed, holding his hand, talking to him as if he was listening and sometimes singing Ryo’s favorite songs. Ueda just wanted to be there for Ryo, be there when Ryo woke up.

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Practice finished a little early that day, and KAT-TUN was planning to have a late lunch together.

“Kame, I’m going to the hospital with Pi, so I can’t come with you guys. I’ll meet you later, okay?” Jin said as he finished packing his stuff.

Kame nodded to his boyfriend, understanding the situation.

“You’re going to visit Ryo?” Ueda asked. He was going to visit him too, but if Jin and Yamapi were there, he couldn’t visit him. But he missed his boyfriend so much. Even though he stayed in the hospital the night before, he still needed to see Ryo. He wanted to see him, to see if he was showing any signs of waking up real soon.

“Well, I’m going to pick up some prescription there too, so err…can I tag along?” He asked as an excuse for him to come to the hospital without arousing any suspicion from his friend.

“Sure!”

And so the three boys went to the hospital together.

Yamapi opened the door to Ryo’s room, hoping slightly in his heart that he would see Ryo sitting on his bed, finally awake from his coma, and greet them with a smile and maybe a few snarky words like he always did. But when the door opened, Ryo was still lying in bed, unconscious like he was for the last few days.

“He’s so harmless when he’s asleep.” Pi smiled bitterly.

“Yeah…it feels peaceful without him yelling.” Jin replied.

“But I missed his sharp tongue.” Pi started to shed tears. And seeing his friend crying, Jin immediately hugged his best friend to soothe him, but he ended up crying too.

“Ano… guys, I’m going to the pharmacy to get my prescription first.” Ueda excused himself. He tried to hold back the tears that were threatening to spill from his eyes. He needed to get away from there, from the heart breaking scene of a helpless Ryo.

Jin and Yamapi nodded.

Ueda hurriedly went out and closed the door behind him.

“Ne..Ryo..wake up. I have some funny story for you. Massu is on a diet! Can you believe that? But I doubt he’ll be losing any weight. This morning, he told us that he didn’t bring any bento and planned to skip lunch, but when Tego said he couldn’t finish his lunch, he immediately volunteered to finish it. And he ate Koyama’s lunch too!” Yamapi turned back his attention to Ryo. The two best friends talked to Ryo as if he was listening, they knew that somehow, Ryo could hear them. They continued to tell Ryo their stories about the things that happened at work, about their friends and just about everything else. Yamapi laughed when he told the unconscious Ryo about the baka things Jin did that day, when suddenly…

“Urusai!” came a weak reply.

Yamapi stopped his laughter as he was almost sure he heard Ryo talk.

“Ryo?”

Ryo slowly opened his eyes “Urusai!”

“Ryo you’re awake!” Jin cried out and hugged the sleeping figure that was just starting to regain his consciousness.

“Bakanishi! You’re killing me!” Ryo said as he tried to breathe.

“I’m sorry, but you’re finally awake! I’m so happy! We’re so happy” Jin said cheerfully at his friend. He turned to Yamapi who was also looking very happy and soon joined him to hug Ryo.

“Guys! I’m serious! I can’t breathe!”

The two friends abruptly let go of the hug as they heard Ryo coughing.

“We’re sorry! But we’re just glad that you’re finally awake” Jin said with a big grin still on his face.

“Where am I?” Ryo asked as he looked around and realized he was in an unfamiliar place.

“You’re in a hospital. You don’t remember? You had an accident. On your way to Osaka, the train you were on had an accident. You’ve been in coma for almost a week now,” Pi explained.

“Accident? That’ll explain the shitty feeling. Damn my body hurts,” Ryo cursed. He tried to shift his body a little, but felt immense pain as he did so.

“Yeah. You were wounded pretty badly. We thought we’ve lost you.” Jin began to tell the story about Ryo’s accident, and Ryo could see a drop of tear sliding down from Jin’s eye.

“Baka! Don’t cry! You’re such a girl!” Ryo said a little mockingly “I didn’t die, did I? Besides, what would the world be without the sexy Osaka Man?”

Yamapi smacked Ryo’s head.

“Ouch! That hurt! I’m injured here!”

The three best friends laughed. Yamapi and Jin were so glad that Ryo was back and his ego was still there, so they had nothing to worry about.

Or so they thought.

“Jin? You’re getting fat,” Ryo said to Jin as he realized that his friend looked different from what he remembered. And then he turned to look at Pi. “You too! And you changed your hair!”

“Ryo! I’ve lost weight! I was a lot fatter when I come back from America,” Jin said, pouting at Ryo’s comment.

“America? You mean your trip to New York? You were a lot skinnier than this!”

“No. Not the New York trip you silly! My studying in LA! You really hurt your head pretty badly, didn’t you? You’ve become stupider!”

“What studying? In what? LA? You’re the one who became stupid, moron! New York is not LA. And you Pi, since when did you have boobs?” He turned his attention at Pi and laughed at his best friend.

“Ryo? You really don’t remember Jin’s hiatus in LA?” Pi asked incredulously.

“Hiatus? What are you talking about?”

“Ryo, Jin went to LA about two years ago to study English.”

“Him? Study English? Oh, I’d love to see that!” Ryo laughed.

The two best friends looked at each other disbelievingly. They could sense something was wrong with Ryo.

“Ne…Ryo” Yamapi began, Ryo stopped laughing and answered his friend “What?”

“Do you remember what date is it today?” Yamapi continued.

“Huh? Why are you asking me what date it is? Baka! I just woke up. How am I supposed to now what date it is?” Ryo replied.

“Okay…just tell me what year is it?” Yamapi changed his question; his voice was filled with worry, afraid of what Ryo’s answer would be.

“My gosh! You two have become stupider each day, haven’t you? It’s 2005!”

Hearing Ryo’s answer, the two boys looked at each other and their eyes widened

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A/N:

Yea...I know! i'm predictable! "sighs*

Come As You Are 1

2008-05-14T03:01:37Z

Title: Come as you are
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst, Fluff, romance, whatever you call it
Rating: Smut on this chapter! be ware!

A/N: New fic from me! i know i'm not done with the mpreg one, but i have this plot since forever, and now i'm just itchy to write this (before i forgot) so here it is...i hope you like it.
Thanks resha_hime for the beta, and to my beloved shuling89 good luck with your reports and stuff! LOL. oh and for the smut you can blame dutchenchanted for that, i didn't plan to put one but she insisted me, but then i got carried away hahahaha.....*blushes*

Today was definitely a good day for Ueda. For the first time in his life he survived one whole rehearsal period without being yelled at by their manager. The photo shoot went on smoothly, his poses were perfect, showing his best features, and he was very satisfied with the result. Cartoon KAT-TUN recording was a blast, he managed to crack some joke which he is sure will crack up the audience later. The bottom line is, he was at his best performance that day, and that sure made him happy. But what really made him happy was the fact that that day was a special day for him.

“What are you smiling like an idiot for donkey?” came the voice he was so familiar with. He was supposed to be alone in the dressing room, the other members were having a late lunch, so why would the shorter man be doing here when he wasn’t even a member of the band whose name was written on the door.

“Ryo-chan! Stop being mean to Uebo,” another familiar voice was heard. Okay, so Ryo wasn’t alone. Ueda turned his head to find his band mate and his ‘enemy’ standing by the door.

“Just hurry up and grab your wallet Bakanishi! I’m hungry already,” Ryo ordered his best friend, and Jin strolled across the room to look for the item

“I can’t find it” he said as he lifted the cushions off the couch one by one.

“What do you mean you can’t find it?” Ryo glared at his friend.

“I lost it! I forgot where I put it!”

“Well go search you idiot,” Ryo snapped, he was really getting impatient. “Maybe fish lips here knows something. Did you take Jin’s wallet, princess? I thought you’re rich. I never thought rich people could steel someone else’s wallet. Unless, other than your loads of psychological issues, kleptomania is one of them.”

“Shut up, Nishikido! I didn’t take Jin’s wallet!” Ueda retorted. Ryo was being an unbearable prick again. So much for a perfect day, he grunted under his breath. Ryo kept throwing insults to him, but he just didn’t listen. He kept humming his new solo in his mind; humming was always a good way to block his ears from hearing Ryo’s unpleasant comments.

“I found it!” Jin happily waved the wallet he found. “It was under the couch,” Jin grinned at his own stupidity.

“Come on! I don’t have all day. I have a train to catch,” Ryo commanded.

“Y-you’re going?” Ueda asked after he heard what Ryo was implying

“Yeah, I’m going to Osaka. I have tons of work to be done tomorrow. Afraid you’ll miss me princess?” he smirked.

“No, I’m just making sure that I heard it correctly, that one of the things I loathed in this life time is finally gone,” Ueda rolled his eyes in annoyance.

“Will you two stop bickering already? I thought you said you’re hungry Ryo-chan. Come on!” Jin said as he grabbed Ryo’s hand, dragging him out of the room. “Are you sure you don’t wanna come with us, Uebo?” he glanced one last time to his friend, asking him to tag along.

“No thanks. I’d rather starve than eat with that monkey in front of me.”

“Who are you calling a monkey you donkey-” Before Ryo could finish his retort, Jin quickly dragged him out and closed the door behind him.

Ueda sighed.

So you’re leaving tonight.

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Their work finished a little bit late that night. After they were done packing, the KAT-TUN members bid each other good bye and headed home to their respective dwellings.

“Aren’t you going home, Ueda?” Maru was the last one in the room with Ueda

“Yeah, I will, but maybe later. I’m a bit tired, I’ll just rest for 10 minutes, so I can have my strength back and can drive without falling asleep on the steering wheel,” Ueda answered.

“Okay then. You be careful. See you tomorrow!”

“Yeah, see you tomorrow.”

But he didn’t take a 10 minute rest that night. After he finished packing, he walked out of the dressing room and headed to the stairway. He took the stairs to the roof top, smiling as he arrived at that special place and saw the night sky so bright above him. Ueda sighed as he remembered what had happened there, on the same spot he was standing, one year ago.

“Trying to kill yourself again, princess?” A hoarse yet gentle voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

“Ryo?” he turned to see the younger man standing not too far from him. “I thought you’re on the train to Osaka.”

“Yeah, well I have to sit with Hina and he snores,” Ryo walked closer. “So I thought I might take the last train later…alone,” he smiled and stopped a few steps away from the other man. Ueda returned the smile.

“Right,” he turned his body again and looked at the sky. “The sky is beautiful Ryo, the same sky as one year ago.”

Ryo wrapped his arms around his princess. “But still, not as beautiful as you.”

Ueda chuckled at Ryo’s sentence. “Cheesy, aren’t we?”

“Nope,” Ryo replied. “Just plain romantic,” Ryo whispered and Ueda felt a puff of warm air brush against his skin, his heart was beating faster and he could felt Ryo’s hand roaming underneath his shirt. Ueda closed his eyes and enjoyed every touch that his boyfriend gave him. He was glad that even though Ryo was busy and was supposed to be on his way to Osaka, Ryo didn’t forget about their anniversary and Ueda knew that he should treasure every second of Ryo’s presence.

Ryo blew a puff of air in Ueda’s ear that made his lover tremble, oh how Ryo loved to tease the older boy, he smirked when he heard Ueda whisper his name “Ryo…”

Ryo slowly turned the older boy around to face him. He caressed Ueda’s cheek and felt the cold skin against his hand and he wondered how a person could be this beautiful. He smiled while moving some strands of hair behind his lover’s ears. Ryo leaned closer, finally closing the distance between them, and gently stroked his tongue against Ueda’s lips, earning a moan from him. Ryo smirked at the opportunity to slip his tongue in and savored every inch of his lover’s mouth. It didn’t take long for Ueda to respond to the kiss and soon the tongue battle started. Ryo broke the kiss only to smirk and Ueda could sense his boyfriend is up to something. “What do you have in mind Nishikido?” he asked incredulously.

“What do you think? We only have a couple of hours before my next train,” Ryo said before capturing Ueda’s lips once again and this time more passionately and hungrily.

Ryo’s hands slipped under Ueda’s shirt, and lifted it up. His hand ghosted on Ueda’s torso, caressing the soft bare skin. Ryo slowly pulled away his lips from Ueda’s and now he was throwing butterfly kisses along Ueda’s face and down his jaw and neck. He could feel Ueda’s breath quicken and the older boy tugged at his hair to pull him closer. Ryo carefully guided Ueda to lie on the cold concrete floor, using Ueda’s shirt as a mattress to minimize contact with the cold floor.

Ryo’s hand wandered all over Ueda’s body, caressing and giving them warmth to replace the cold air. Ueda helped Ryo take his shirt off, and now the two boys could feel their skin brushing against each other. Ryo lowered his kisses down further until he was met with the bulge in Ueda’s jeans. He looked up to see Ueda’s expression and smirked as he saw the older boy closing his eyes in anticipation. He resumed his task of undoing the tight jeans and freeing Ueda. Ryo began his teasing with licking the tip of Ueda’s length, making the boy moan and Ryo continued to taste every inch of Ueda’s member. And when he was sure it was hard enough, he took Ueda whole into his mouth. Ryo moved his mouth up and down along his erection. Ueda could only tug on Ryo’s hair for support, when he felt Ryo’s expert mouth sucking, licking and even gently biting his member and Ryo always knew it would drive Ueda insane. Ryo could feel the grip on his hair gradually becoming stronger and it started to hurt a little. But it didn’t matter to him, as long as he could give the other man heavenly pleasure, even if he had to lose a couple of strands of hair. Ueda found it hard to control the sounds which threatened to escape from his lips and he screamed at the top of his lungs as he felt he was nearing release. With a few hard sucks, Ueda finally gave in and came into Ryo’s mouth.

Ryo licked the splattered liquid and he leaned upwards and pressed a soft kiss on Ueda’s damp forehead. He turned again to look at the beautiful figure beneath him; he smiled and slowly reached for his pocket and took a small blue box out.

“R-ryo…” Ueda knew what kind of box it was.

Ryo slowly opened the box and Ueda could see the silvery, shining object inside it. Ryo took the said object out, and Ueda gasped. It was a silver necklace with a ring attached to it. Ueda was at a loss as to what to say when Ryo gently put the necklace around him.

“Happy anniversary, princess,” Ryo whispered into his ear when he lifted Ueda’s head gently to put the necklace on.

“R-ryo…what is this?”

“What does it look like? It’s a necklace,” Ryo answered matter-of-factly.

“I can see that!” Ueda rolled his eyes. “And this?” he lifted the ring that hung from the necklace’s chain. “What is this?”

“That my princess….” Ryo stopped. He looked into Ueda’s eyes deeply. Ueda could feel his heart beating faster, Ryo never looked at him that way. Not when he was on top of him, half naked.

“…represents my love for you,” Ryo continued.

Ryo caressed Ueda’s cheek lovingly and brushed at a strand of hair which was covering Ueda’s face.

“And I want you to be mine, forever,” he added.

“R-Ryo…” Ueda was at a loss for words. He could feel his heart stop beating. Was Ryo proposing to him?

Ryo leaned in to kiss Ueda and whispered softly against his lips “Will you marry me, princess?”

Yes. Ryo was definitely proposing to him.

Ueda pulled Ryo closer and pressed his lips against his lover’s, stroking his tongue against his lover’s as an answer.

Ryo pulled back only to smirk. “I’ll take that as a yes.”

He pressed his lips on Ueda’s again; pushing his tongue against Ueda’s parted lips and the kiss was heated; passion, lust and love becoming one.

Ryo drew back from the kiss for a brief moment, and in record time, he managed to discard his jeans to join Ueda’s on the floor. He resumed his ministrations, and kissed Ueda lovingly. They both moaned as they felt their erections pressing against each other. Ueda bucked his hips to feel Ryo more and Ryo groaned in satisfaction, feeling how needy Ueda was.

Ryo sneaked a thigh between Ueda’s legs, parting them wider and slipped a hand to Ueda’s inner thigh, gently caressing the milky skin, earning a soft moan from the latter. His hand roamed on Ueda’s thigh, teasing him ever so slowly before discreetly inserting a digit into Ueda’s entrance. Ueda moaned even louder when Ryo added a second digit and did a scissoring motion to prepare him. When the third digit came, Ueda groaned both in pleasure and pain. Ryo took out the lube from his discarded jeans and prepared himself. Ueda’s body trembled in pleasure as he felt Ryo’s thick shaft slowly entering him, he cried out loudly as Ryo thrust deep inside of him. He needed something to support him, but he couldn’t find any, so he wrapped his hand around Ryo’s back and held on to him tightly for support.

Ueda threw his head back as he felt Ryo’s shaft hit that spot deep inside of him, sending jolts of pleasure that surely made him stop breathing. A moment like this was the moment where Ueda wished time would just stop. Him being with Ryo, making love under the night sky, with the shining stars to witness their love. The love that had been discreetly built and carried on throughout the year, without anyone, not even their closest friends, having a slightest clue about their relationship.

Ueda could feel his nails digging into Ryo’s back and he was sure it would leave a mark later on. He couldn’t stop these feelings that aroused within him every time he was alone with Ryo. Far from their friends, Ryo was a loving and gentle lover. Unlike the kind of person Ryo pretended to be every time they were in public, mean and sharp tongue generating insults to torture Ueda in every possible way.

Ueda felt somehow hurt at every insult Ryo gave him everyday, even though he knew Ryo didn’t mean it and he did it just as an act in front of his friends, but he couldn’t help feeling slightly hurt. He always tried to confront Ryo about this. Why should they keep their relationship a secret? Why wouldn’t Ryo tell other people about them? If Ryo loved him like he always said he did, he wouldn’t mind. But after their one year relationship, Ueda never seemed to be able to bring that topic up. Not when every time he had a chance, Ryo would brush it off with sex. And whenever Ryo looked at him with those tender eyes, Ueda couldn’t help but feel something stir inside of him and he couldn’t be mad at Ryo, no matter how hard he tried.

Ueda closed his eyes as he felt Ryo move faster and continued to hit that spot inside of him. A loud moan spilled past Ueda’s lips as he felt Ryo’s hand was now on his own length, stroking gently before gripping it tightly, pumping it as he tried to push the older man to release. Ueda threw his head back as he couldn’t hold it any longer, he was about to come. Ryo knew this gesture and he thrust deeper and faster and soon they both came together.

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Ueda woke up feeling strange as he realized the cold concrete floor beneath him was replaced by the soft mattress of his own bed. How did Ryo manage to bring him home? He couldn’t remember anything. All he could remember was the beautiful night he spent with Ryo on the rooftop of the Jimusho building.

Ueda smiled as he looked at the necklace around his neck. He was sure it wasn’t a dream now. Ryo did propose to him. All the insecure feelings he felt was now replaced by the happiness Ryo gave him the night before, when he said those sweet words of request.

Will you marry me, princess?

He looked at his mirror and he was sure that nothing could erase the smile which formed on his face that morning. He was about to go to the bathroom when he noticed a note on top of his night stand.

Princess, did you gain weight? You’re a lot heavier than the last time I carried you.

Ueda pouted at Ryo’s comment

Don’t pout! You’ll look uglier than you already are.

He smiled; the younger one knew him too well.

Sorry I didn’t wake you up, but you were sleeping so peacefully. I’m on my way to Osaka now. See you next week!

Love you!

-Ryo-

“Another perfect way to start a perfect day,” he said to himself as he made his way to the bathroom.

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When he arrived at the Jimusho, he could feel a strange atmosphere in the air. He greeted everyone he passed but they just nodded with a sad expression on their face. Ueda could sense something was wrong, but he couldn’t tell what it was.

And when he arrived at KAT-TUN’s dressing room, his bad feelings were confirmed

“Nakamaru? Where are the others?” he asked as he saw no one but his best friend in the dressing room. He looked at the clock on the wall, and he knew he was late. But he was surprised to find no one but Nakamaru in the room.

“Kame and Jin are in the hospital already, they went together with NEWS. Koki and Junno are still talking to our manager, we will wait for them and then we can go to the hospital together,” Maru answered calmly.

“Hospital? Why? Who’s sick?” Ueda asked in confusion.

“You haven’t heard? Oh right, you just got here.”

Ueda could sense he wouldn’t like Maru’s next sentence.

“Its Nishikido, apparently the train he was on had an accident.”

Ueda could swear his heart had just stopped beating.

-To be continued-

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Part of Me 4

2008-05-04T09:15:03Z

Title: Part Of Me
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Errr I dunno...Crack??
Summary: Drunken night and a fairy...what's the worst that could happen?

The first day of his nightmares started when Ryo went to visit his best friend in the KAT-TUN dressing room. Okay maybe he had wanted to visit another member of the band too, but Ryo surely wouldn’t admit that.

When he walked into the said room, he didn’t see Jin or any other member of KAT-TUN in the room.

“Maybe they’re rehearsing.” he thought before he turned around ready to leave the room. But before he could do that, a desperate yell was heard from the room. Apparently the room was not as empty as Ryo had thought.

Ryo turned around again and searched for the voice, which had turned into a sobs now.

“Princess? What are you doing?” Ryo asked as he found a sobbing Ueda in one of the corners in the room, sitting on the floor with his head buried in his knees.

Ryo approached him and knelt beside him.

“Why are you crying princess? Koki stole your hair curler again?” Ryo asked mockingly. Bad call of course, because suddenly the crying boy lifted his head to look at him and snapped.

“It’s all your fault!”

“What? My fault?” Ryo was confused of the sudden accusation

“Yes! It’s all your fault!”

“What the hell did I do? I just got here!”

“You! Because of you! You did that thing and now I’m like this! I couldn’t even wear my tight clothes anymore! I couldn’t fit in them!”

Ryo noticed a pair of jeans scattered on the floor next to Ueda and he burst out laughing. “You were crying because you’re getting fat?”

Ueda took the pair of jeans beside him and smacked Ryo’s head with it.

“Ouch!”

“It’s all your fault!” Ueda yelled again.

“Well as I recall, I was drunk. We were BOTH drunk and I don’t remember you rejecting princess! In fact all I can remember is you moaning, asking for more!”

Ueda hid his blush and just threw the jeans at Ryo’s face and pouted.

Ryo sighed. He knew that this pregnancy thing was hard for the princess to handle alone. And he did promise him that he would be there, by his side, to help him get trough all of this.

So he put the jeans aside, and sat next to Ueda and patted his back. “Look, I thought I’d told you that we’re going to get through this. Trust me ok?” Ryo said as he tried to soothe the older man. But his actions back fired. Ueda’s eye were starting to get wet and a second later he burst out crying.

“I don’t want this~~~” he wailed, and Ryo instinctively pulled the sobbing man’s head onto his chest.

“Hey don’t cry! It’s all going to be okay. Trust me. I’m here, we’ll get through this together” Ryo wondered if all pregnant women are like Ueda when they are pregnant, sensitive and moody. But dealing with moody Ueda was not the hardest thing Ryo had to do.

“I want Takizawa’s bento.” Suddenly Ueda said as he felt a little calmer. He was no longer crying.

“Why? Are you hungry? You can have mine.” Ryo offered.

“No! I want Takizawa’s! I’ve been craving for his food for days.”

“You want me to take Takizawa’s lunch for you?” Ryo assured himself he had not heard wrong

Ueda nodded against Ryo’s chest. Ryo pulled back to look at the princess incredulously.

“I can’t just snatch our sempai’s lunch!”

“But I want his lunch! It’s not for me! It’s for the baby!” Ueda whined.

“How about Jin’s lunch instead?” Ueda shook his head. “Or maybe Totsuka’s? Or Yaotome’s?”

Ueda shook his head again.

“I want Takizawa’s!” he demanded

“It’s easier to snatch lunch from the juniors than from the sempais!”

“Well I don’t care! Get me Takizawa’s lunch!”

“B-but...”

“You’d better get it now before I change my mind and want Nagase sempai’s instead!”

That’s even worse! Ryo thought “Arrghh… fine!” Ryo stood up.

“Out of the people I’ve slept with, I had to get a prissy princess pregnant.” He complained on his way out of the dressing room.

Ryo was really confused as to what to do. He couldn’t just snatch Takky’s lunch. But when he passed NEWS’ dressing room and spotted his best friend there, a devilish smirk appeared on his face.

“Oh Yamapi~~~”

A moment later Ryo was back in KAT-TUN’s dressing room. Ueda eyes widened and a smile grew on his face as he saw Ryo coming in with a box of bento on his hand.

“How did you get it?”

“Well let’s just say that NEWS won’t be doing any rehearsals soon today. Our leader is missing.” Ryo said with a smirk “Now eat the freaking bento!”

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And so, starting that day, the days of Nishikido Ryo’s life were not the same anymore. When usually, it was Ueda who tried to avoid Ryo, and Ryo was the one who always found a way to meet the princess and torture him in the worst kind of way, it was the other way around. Ryo would try his best to avoid meeting Ueda, because every time he did, Ueda would always ask him to do something unreasonable and blame Ryo for his ridiculous cravings. Ryo would have to do things to avoid a very angry Ueda. Buying him food, getting him stuff, snatching people’s lunch – Ueda’s favorite pregnancy craving. And every time Ryo refused Ueda would scream and wail that it’s all Ryo’s fault and he should be responsible for it.

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“Where have you been?” Yamapi asked in concern when he saw his friend panting from running. Ryo had just finished buying Ueda some potato chips. “Buying the stupid princess some potato chips.” he answered.

“And where did you buy it?”

“The convenience store across the building.”

“But they sell potato chips in the cafeteria.”

“I know! But the princess wanted the one from the convenience store.”

“Ryo what’s going on?”

“Why do you want to do these things for Ueda?”

“Trust me Pi, I am not doing it because I want to. I HAVE to!”

“And don’t ask me why!”

“Ryo-chan~~~~”

“Oh God, what now?”

“Ueda said you should come to our room now.” Jin said with a wide grin. He loved to see how miserable Ryo was these days. “He needs a foot massage.” he added and his grin grew wider.

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yea i know,,,it's short *sighs* but hey! at least i updated! LOL

xozamael @ 2008-04-03T20:56:00

2008-04-03T13:57:31Z

Tagged by I'm too lazy to do this but she wont stop nagging me...so yeaaah...here it is..quite interesting though

The first one :
Movie Soundtrack for your life. The rules:
1. Put the music player of your choice on shuffle.
2. Scene one = first song played, scene two = second, so on.
3. No cheating/skipping

Opening Credits
She Said - KAT-TUN

Waking up
Free to decide - Cranberries

An ordinary Day
Still I'm with you - Larc~en~ciel

The first date
Basket case - Greenday

Falling in love
Isn't it any wonder - Keane

The rumble
It is well with my soul - Jars of clay

The break up
Bulletproof - Goo goo dolls

Getting back together
Juste avan toi - anggun

Life's okay
Snowdrom - Larc~en~ciel

The mental breakdown
Hole - Linkin park

Cruising
I just want your company

The flashback
My December - Linkin park

The party
Up yours - Goo goo dolls

Everybody dance now
Here to stay - Korn

Sex scene
Just like anyone - Soul asylum

Regretting
I wish - Punk en ciel

The long night alone
The hell song - Sum 41

A death
Milky way - Punk en ciel

End credits
Something in the way - Nirvana

Well most of the song fit well....

Next meme:
How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question
3. Use the song title as the answer to your question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the question.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
Stab my back - All American Rejects >>> eh~~? how cruel~~~

Will you get far in life?
Voyeur - V6 >>> No idea what this song is about

How do your friends see you?
Carousel - Linkin park >>> again, no idea

Will you get married?
Never let you go - Third eye blind >>> I'll take this as a yes...~~maruuuuu~~~~~

What's your best friend's theme song?
Going down in flames - 3 doors down >>>> my poor friend~~~

What's the story of your life?
A decade under influence - Taking back sunday >>> yup yup yup! i never do things my own ways..sad...*cries* well i'm in a stage of finding myself ..like tat-chan in his gack phase..LOL

How was school like?
Nothing compare to you - Streophonics >>> true~~~ best years!

How can you get ahead in life?
Broken wing - Alter bridge >>> heh? i hope not! i'll get another wings! FALCON!!!!

What's the best things of your friends?
Stacked actors - Foo fighters >>> Whuahahahaha..really?

What's in store for you this weekend?
Zombie - Cranberries >>> err~~..not gonna buy them!

Describe your grandparents.
Mr. Brightside - the killers >>> well i never knew my grandparents *sad*

How's your life going?
Peacefull days - KAT-TUN >>> meaning my days are fill with: K-A-T-T-U-N! hahahahaha

What song will play at your funeral?
Sweet vanilla - Hyde >>> yea i want ppl to remember me as a sweet girl..huahahahaha

How does the world see you?
She said - KAT-TUN >>> what's this mean?

Will you have a happy life?
Pieces - Larc~en~ciel >>> this is a sad sooooong! *pouts*

Do people secretly lust over you?
These are the best days of our live - The ataris >>> yup....with me..you'll get the best days of your life! HUAHAHAHA

How can you make yourself happy?
Odd to my family - Cranberries >>> scratch the "odd" word

What should you do with your life?
Rockin' - KAT-TUN >>> yeah baby let's rock!!

Will you ever have children?
Aint that unusual - (forgot who sings this) >>> it's unsual for me to have chidlren?????? ehhhh????

What song would you strip to?
Blood sex and booze - greenday >>> the title seems convincing, but it's hard to strip to this song, unless ~~maru~~ my partner is in a hurry! XDDD

What does your mum think of you?
Ai no matador - NEWS >>> eh~?

What is your deep, dark secret?
Feeling fine - Punk en ciel >>> hey i always show everyone when i'm felling fine!

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Rock the house - V6 >>> *scratch head*

What is your personality like?
Cast away - Greenday >>> huh?

What song would be played at your wedding?
One last breath - Creed >>> HUAHAHAHAHA this definitely goes to my husband ! take your last breath before you marry me ! HUAHAHAHA...~~poor maru...~~

I tag:
dutchenchanted
rheida
yukki_rei

misao_shige

there you go!
PS: dun be surprise if i tagged you...lol</div>